Experience description:
Right
before I awoke I dreamed a classmate of mine who had passed 30 years almost and
maybe to the day came to me in a very real feeling dream. She told me that I
was her "soul mate" and the reason she died so young was that due to a birth
defect I had that left me infertile and with low testosterone (now treated) that
our relationship would have never been and that my physical problems were due to
some pharmaceutical drugs my mother took while she was pregnant with me. She
also encouraged me to be the ultimate person I could be and that I was not
living up to my potential. She said we would be together in a perfect union in
a later life and that it will be worth waiting for.
All I know
for certain is I can't stop thinking about it and it has made me feel great and
motivated to lose weight and work harder to succeed.
This goes
against all my religious beliefs but was very real feeling and is staying with
me.
Was
this experience difficult to express in words?
No
Did
you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?
Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was
communicated:
She spoke in my
dream
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of
you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of
knowing what was communicated?
in a dream
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the
voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?
uncertain but I
believe it was her voice
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source
present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?
no
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the
experience?
no
Did
you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the
deceased?
Yes
I
felt her touch, like a warm hug
Was the
touch familiar or unfamiliar?
no
Was anything communicated by the touch?
love
Is there any
possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings
at the time of your experience?
no
Did
you see the deceased?
Yes
happy, beautiful, perfect
How clearly
did the deceased appear?
solid
but in a dream
How much of
the deceased did you see?
all
Did the
deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?
older
like mid twenties
How healthy
did the deceased appear to be?
great
Is there any
possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings
at the time of your experience?
no
Did
you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the
deceased?
No
How
long did the experience last?
two
night in a row
Was
the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
gradual
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
happy
but needed to give me a message and an explanation
Did
the deceased give you information you did not previously know?
Explained what caused my physical problems and why I feel unfulfilled and why
she died so young
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
probably real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real
or not real:
I haven't
thought of her much in years and I hardly knew her. I am married and can think
of no reason to have thought this up. The experience or dream is still fresh
and motivating three days later. I was moved with a deep grief that I never had
for this person before.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
Yes,
but
clearer and felt real
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:
surprised, happy, fulfilled
Was
there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
explained a lot and motivated me to strive harder to succeed
What
was the best and worst part of your experience?
I feel a
completeness I haven't felt before
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Describe:
I'm exercising
and concentrating on being a better boss, husband, person
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Uncertain
Did
the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death,
afterlife, God, etc.?
Yes,
maybe I
don't have it all figured out after all
Death
Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a
compact?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Uncertain
I
need to research when she died if the 24th of April it would be amazing. I will
do that this week
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
very happy but
very grieved for her having to die so young
Was
the experience witnessed or experienced by others?
No
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Uncertain
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Yes
She
said she would be my spirit guide if I would allow it. I'm not even sure what
that means
Is
there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?
Does
this sound like it could be real or just an amazing dream?
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes