Tracy Y's
ADC
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I dreamt of a street in
England. I saw my soul mate's motor cycle hit a tree. there was a yellow VW
beetle parked on the side of the road, it appeared to be dark with street lamps
lit. He hit his head. then I heard him calling my name and saw him walking
around my dad's house in Canada saying it's a mistake. It's all a mistake. He
kept reaching for the phone, but he had no substance and his hand passed right
through the phone. He was walking around my dad's bedroom, my bedroom, I
followed him downstairs and the whole time he was telling me it is a mistake,
it's all a mistake. when I awoke it was 2:30ish am EST. I awoke, afraid, and
feeling alone. the level of grief was like nothing I have ever experienced in my
life. and still grieve today
Was this
experience difficult to express in words?
No
Did you hear the
deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?
Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:
He kept telling
me it was a mistake, it's all a mistake, you have to tell them it's a mistake.
it was as clear as him standing in front of me. I knew during the dream that he
was dead.
Did
the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you,
or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was
communicated? I
heard him in my head, but it seemed to originate from outside
If
you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound
the deceased made when they were alive?
it was his voice
Is
there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
no I was asleep in my
bedroom, my dad was asleep as was everyone else in the house
Was
there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?
none
Did you feel a
touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?
Yes
my hands, my heart
Was
the touch familiar or unfamiliar?
familiar
Was
anything communicated by the touch?
love, and great sadness
Is
there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
no
Did you see the
deceased?
Yes he was
as he looked in life. except he had no substance. like looking at a picture that
is opaque
How
clearly did the deceased appear?
he appeared solid until
he tried reaching for the phone, or the door at which point he was opaque
How
much of the deceased did you see?
all of him
Did
the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?
I saw him as he was
when he died.
How
healthy did the deceased appear to be?
he was healthy
Is
there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
no, I was in Canada he
was in England.
Did you smell a
distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?
Yes
What
smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?
his aftershave
Was
the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?
yes
Was
anything communicated by the smell?
safety, love
Is
there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any
other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?
no
How long did the
experience last?
I don't know how
long the dream lasted I just know what time it was when I woke up
Was the beginning
and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
sudden
Could you sense the
emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
he was anxious and
worried for his mother and twin sister. He was saddened
Did the deceased
give you information you did not previously know?
He told me that
it was not an accident. it was intentional on the other persons part. He also
said the police were making a mistake, and we had to reach his family and let
them know, it was a mistake, it was all a mistake
How do you
currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
I was living across the Atlantic, at that time a letter took 7 days to reach
Canada from England. exactly 7 days later, I received a letter with his
obituary. I already knew he was dead, I found out recently after searching for
his twin sister since he died that there was a lot of drama surrounding his
death. the police went to the wrong house and told the other persons mother he
was dead and then had to retract that and go to his mothers house and tell her
he was dead. this after them telling her he was fine. there was a hearing due
to the incidents surrounding his death. these things I could never have known
as I lost contact with his family after his death.
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
No
Describe in
detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:
I was afraid, but he
always comforted me and I felt an intense pain, like my soul had just been
ripped from inside of me. I wanted to be with him and was told I could not
Was there any
emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
I have grown
spiritually, but there are times the grief and the pain overwhelms me still to
this day.
What was the best
and worst part of your experience?
there was no best part
it was all very intense. I have never experienced grief to that magnitude since
then
Has your life
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Describe:
I have found I
cannot stay in a relationship longer than about 2.5 to 3 yrs. I push people away
that get too close. I tried to close down the connection I had with my soul mate
because I did not every want to experience that again.
Did you have
any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No
Did the experience
give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God,
etc.? No I already knew I had a special gift. I did not realize the
extent of it
Death Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a
compact?
No
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
Yes
He gave me insights into the accident that I could never know and got these
things confirmed last year when I found his twin sisters daughter. I told her
what I knew, and she spoke to her mom and asked her did this happen, did that
happen. they were both surprised I knew, because I had been in Canada for 10
months when he died
What emotions did
you feel during the experience?
extreme and intense
grief. I attempted suicide several times because I had never felt so alone in
my life. I had never experienced such pain and longing to be with him.
Was the experience
witnessed or experienced by others?
No
Did you have any
sense of altered space or time?
No
Did you have a
sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes I knew
that for whatever reason, this was a test for me
Did you become
aware of future events?
Uncertain I have
always been aware of future events in some form or fashion
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?
No
Have you shared
this experience with others?
Yes
surprised, but my dream was validated by other family members
Have you shared
this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?
No
Is there anything
else you would like to add regarding your experience?
since he died, he still
speaks to me through songs and visits me in my dreams regularly. I have been
told I speak in a girlish voice in my sleep, those would be the times I am
speaking to my soul mate. I know he walks with me daily and watches over me,
but the sadness still invades at the most inopportune moments. I have the
ability to love deeply and unconditionally, but after my 4th failed marriage I
have chosen to be alone and secluded. I manage this by working from home. I am
undergoing some form of spiritual growth of that I'm certain.
Were there any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes
dreams
Did you ever in
your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other
spiritual event?
Yes
when I tried to
commit suicide in my early 20's. I apparently died 4 times and was brought back
4 times. I remember a peaceful feeling so intense but I was turned away and told
it was not my turn yet. I still had much to learn and experience.
Did the questions
asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes
they were applicable
to my experience in several areas.
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. I will have to think on this one. the questions mainly pertained to my experience