Experience description:
My earliest memory was just before birth and suddenly indescribable
light and whirling around. Indescribable harmonious melody, peace, oneness with
all. Communication was extremely fast like a vibrating buzzing sound within the
all engulfing light and a total understanding of the purpose of the event. The
event was moving so fast I asked to "please help me remember".
I am 70 years old now.
Throughout my life the experience has continued through lucid dreaming and
talking with deceased relatives. When I say "lucid dreaming" I mean "coherent"
conversation with real people. I've spoken with my Mother with much apprehension
because I knew she was dead. So I asked her, "Mother, you know you are dead
don't you? She said "so...what's the difference?" She has talked with me about
how she felt about my sister and me and the good times we had together. The
lucid dreams always started with a ringing phone and she was on the other end.
My Grandson died in an automobile accident at age twenty...killed instantly. He
was a difficult child with many problems. I dreamed of a house and saw him
walking out the door and he came toward me and took off his baseball cap and
said "Grandma, I always knew you felt I wouldn't make much of myself (he had a
sad look on his face) then I heard a familiar voice (my Mother's) say...."I'm
home" and my Grandson turned and walked toward the house.
What ever happened to me was long, long ago but I will never forget the
"feelings" which were indescribable and an indelible stamp on my soul. I've had
many surgery's with anesthetics but I keep going back to my birth as the
beginning of the experience and I distinctly remember asking to "please help me
remember."
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes No worldly words to describe
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Uncertain my mother had several abortions/miscarriages
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
The whole time
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was
different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please
explain:
The whole time
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes I was not seeing with physical "eyes". I was the landscape, melody,
harmony, peace, love, a sense of oneness with all.
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
Yes This was not a "normal" sensory experience.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Uncertain
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Joy, Wholeness, Connection
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Yes I felt I was on a "path"
Did
you see a light?
Yes The light was all encompassing, warm, welcoming, peaceful, comforting
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Uncertain Communication was high pitched and very fast, pleasant and
reassuring..truthful
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
Uncertain Reassurance, ready to resume life on earth, blessed.
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Uncertain The information was coming fast. I felt a sense of calmness and
oneness.
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Yes A sense of complete oneness, unity, peace, assurance, acceptance. The
"light" is indescribable and all encompassing.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes Life in this world is meaningful, a stepping stone, one can make a huge
difference by action and deed
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No Yes, I was born.
Did
you become aware of future events?
Uncertain At the time I was not aware of future events. I have
since become aware.
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes I experienced being in the womb.
Have you shared this experience with others?
No
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real The experience continued to positively affect
my life.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
A
life changing event. I am more perceptive, aware, sensitive, grateful, thankful.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real The experience positively affects my
life as I grow older
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
Yes,
more positive reaction from those around me.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
No,
it changed my entry into this world.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes I feel the experience was/is real and positive toward my relationship
with the world.