Sutida S's
ADC
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When Mark fell down and already lied on the floor I was really shocked and his friend put me in the car because they didn't want me to appear in the press. I tried to call my mother and friends for help. Then there was an incoming call with no number shown. I tried pressing every button but I couldn't get the phone call. When the phone showed the missed call it was "18$$$$$$????". Five hours later I went to stay at the friend's house and was lying down on the bed. I kept calling him. When he was alive he always tucked me in every night so I called him to be with me. Suddenly I felt the warmth of energy going through my whole body and I said "thank you Mark for being with me" and it was only the left hand that was warmed then it was all gone.
Seven days after he died I dreamt but it was very lucid. I dreamt that he called and asked where I was and how I was. I told him I was at the friend's house and I was not doing well. He asked "when are you coming home?" I said "I can't go home because you are dead". He told me "I'm not dead I just don't have the body." I woke up suddenly trying to remember whether he was really dead. Five minutes later I went back to sleep he called again and said to me on the sixth floor of our apartment which was the placed we ate and exercised together. At night I asked him for a sign whether he was still around and the light bulb exploded.
The next
day when I went to school I, for the first time, tried to log in to his email. I
put the correct password but couldn't log in a few times. And when I finally
logged in but didn't read any messages the computer clashed a few times even
though I changed to another machine. Three friends were there and saw it happen
too. I moved to a new place and during the time after he died I sensed his
presence most of the time. One night I was praying and both my hands turned
warm, like the first night he died. They were warm and turned red as if someone
was holding them. I felt really happy.
Was
this experience difficult to express in words?
No
Did
you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the
deceased?
Yes
At my
friend's house the night he died. I felt as if he was hugging me like he always
did every night when he was alive.
Was the
touch familiar or unfamiliar?
Very familiar
as he would tuck me in and hug me every night for 3 years. It was warm as if he
wanted to comfort and be by my side.
Was anything communicated by the touch?
The body and
the hand.
Is there any
possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings
at the time of your experience?
No. I didn't
believe in life after death before. I even made fun of it but from my own
experience I can say for sure they were true.
Did
you see the deceased?
No
Did
you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the
deceased?
Yes
What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?
His personal
smell.
Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?
Very.
Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor
was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your
experience?
No
How
long did the experience last?
a few
seconds.
Was
the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
Sudden
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?
No
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real
or not real:
I cannot find
any other explanations for what happened. The experience was personal and really
relating to our subtle relationship that others couldn't understand. It was
personal enough to make me sure of this as a mean he'd use to communicate with
me.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:
Very
grieving. I kept calling him all the time.
Was
there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
It
shows that death is not the end and there is a chance that we will see each
other again. And he's caring for me like always that he tries to make a contact.
What
was the best and worst part of your experience?
The best was
that we are apart physically but we are still together even he's not in sight.
And we are apart temporarily but can have the eternal life together again. The
worst was that I can not reach the stage where I can actually see and talk to
him as if he was still alive.
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Describe:
I now believe
that we were born to learn to be better. Things just don't happen but they
happen for a reason. Some things are beyond my abilities to understand but it
changed me to be a better person. I used to think death was the end. But since
death is not the end we have to be at our best to live. We have to live the best
life.
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
I now
believe in life after death and purpose of living.
Did
the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death,
afterlife, God, etc.?
Yes
It
made me believe even more that we are born with a purpose. God is watching
whether we lead our lives in accordance with the universal rule of love. Life
and love are eternal because death is not the end. It only helps us reach
another stage of intellectual.
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
Comfort that he
still cares for me.
Was
the experience witnessed or experienced by others?
Yes
My
friend was there when I asked for the sign and the light bulb explored.
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes,
Some
believe and some don't. Some got scared.