Experience description:
I was sleeping. I found myself
sitting up and having an out-of-body experience, but I was only out half way,
from my hips upward. Before, in spirit, was my grandmother, who had died two
years earlier. She immediately thought/spoke, because it was telepathic, just
everyone describes, "I'm so happy to be able to see you again!" is what she
communicated. I not only understood her words, I also felt her joy inside me,
as if it was my own emotions, but not quite. With this communication you feel
the other beings feelings just as you do your own, but you realize it is the
other being. We proceeded to talk for some time, and I cannot remember a
single thing we talked about other than it was all very mundane and not what a
conscious person would expect to be discussing with a spirit. It was all
about me and my life and it was a lot like talking to her when she was alive,
but without all the negative baggage, the limitations of the human
personality.
I suddenly found myself conscious
in my body, but not awake. I don't remember going back into my body, I was
just there. It is the second time I have experienced that state, where I was
asleep but nonetheless, conscious. I was lying on my side, and I could feel
gentle stroking on my cheek and my shoulder on the side that was not against the
bed. My conscious mind did not remember the out-of-body experience I had just
left, and I tried to make sense of what I was feeling. I also felt inside me
the most beautiful mother-love I've ever felt, and it was clearly a womanly,
motherly love. I struggled to make sense of it all, and I was telling myself,
"I'm dreaming; I'm asleep and I'm dreaming." Then suddenly I remembered that it
was my grandmother! I was terrified. I was absolutely terrified to think
that I was with a spirit. Clearly what was most comfortable for me out of body
was absolutely terrifying in my conscious, waking state.
As soon as
I felt any fear, she was gone. It was more instant than instant, how quickly
the veil closed the very second I had any negative feelings about the
experience. I turned on the light and sat up for about twenty minutes, saying
several times, "I don't want to see any ghosts; I don't want to see any
ghosts." This all took place around 3:30 a.m. Finally I was able to go back
to sleep, and in the morning I had no memory of the experience until I was
driving to work. I got up and fixed breakfast and did my normal morning
without a single memory of this experience entering my mind. But as I drove to
work on the highway, I suddenly remembered. I thought for a moment I was going
to lose control of my car, it jolted me so much to remember, and I spoke out
loud and said, "Oh, my God, I saw my dead grandmother last night."
I had a
profound emotional healing subsequent to this experience. I'd had an
exceptionally painful childhood, and my grandmother had played a large part in
that. On her deathbed she had apologized to me, but I still carried a very
heavy burden of depression and suffering from the life I'd had and the apology
was appreciated but did not ease my hardship. However, after this experience
I felt a complete emotional healing in connection with my grandmother, and I
carry no more pain whatsoever from that relationship. I have always felt that
the healing has been on a Biblical level in the sense that for me, it is as
powerful as if I could not walk, but now I can. And it came immediately after
this out-of-body experience. I remember that we had strife, but nothing
happens in me now in connection with those memories other than peace. I feel a
great peace in connection with her.
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event?
No
What
was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
I was
in an astral/spiritual state. It is its own consciousness.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
No.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
Rather flat,
really. Not like hers. I was more matter of fact, like, Oh, there you are.
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
No.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did
you see a light?
No
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes My
grandmother.
Did
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
Yes My five
senses were asleep.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes It was
taking place in a spiritual dimension, but the material was right there.
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
No
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Were
you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the
body?
No
Did you have
any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you
did not have prior to the experience?
Yes Immediate and powerful emotional healing and release of burden of
depression and anxiety.
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
How could you not? Spiritual realities are just that - they are real.
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes
What emotions
did you experience following your experience?
Fear, then
peace and healing.
What
was the best and worst part of your experience?
The best part
was the healing. The worst part was the fear.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
I only
want to write this: I have submitted four experiences now. They are all quite
different, and I promise they are all true exactly as I write them. And on
the third account, which I submitted last evening, FYI, I never did remember
what it was I was promising myself I would remember. I only remembered that I
wanted to remember, but the exact info itself, I have no clue. The angels must
have had a good chuckle over that one, knowing that I would not remember, no
matter how stubbornly I determined I would.