Susan R Father’s ADC
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This story is a bit different from your typical NDE. However, I know this is
important and I pray people will learn from my decisions. It was the weekend of
the 4th of July and I had come home early from work to attend one of my best
friends party. We had planned to go to dinner that night and then have a full
scale party at their home afterwards. We had planned to drink, do cocaine and
play the guitar and sing the night away. I was 22, single and working in sales
making a lot of money for my age. From the outside, my life looked wonderful to
everyone else. Inside however, I suffered with a very dark secret that seemed to
eat up every ounce of joy that my life events brought. No one but me and my
mother knew my dark secret and it was killing my very soul. I just wanted to
turn back the hands of time and redo the worst decision of my life but that
wasn't an option. Instead, I used alcohol and drugs, mainly cocaine do drown out
my sorrows.At dinner that night, we ate at a local restaurant and I had two
glasses of wine. Then we went back to our friends house to sing the night away.
When we arrived back at their house we did a few lines of cocaine and I poured
myself another glass of wine but I didn't drink it because I didn't want to ruin
my coke high. We were there for just a short time when I located my best friend
standing in the kitchen alone. I asked if I could speak with her privately. I
told her my soul was in pieces and I needed her help. She had just moved back to
Cincinnati from Virginia and she had been overwhelmed by her move. She looked at
me knowingly but replied by saying, 'I can't deal with any more crap right my
Sassy. I have my own problems to deal with and I can't handle any of yours!' She
was stone cold and rude to me and it didn't seem to bother her one bit. I
couldn't believe my ears! I had no idea what had happened to my best friend?
This coming from someone whom I hadn't seen in months and now she
couldn't bring herself to just listen to me? I was incredibly hurt! I didn't say
another word to her I simply went to find my purse so I could leave. I didn't
want anyone from the party to stop me and ask 'what's wrong?' so I waited until
no one was in the living room by the front door. Then I left. No one at the
party knew I was gone except me.
I drove the back country roads homes because I needed to talk to God. I was
desperate to speak to someone who would listen to me and truly care. As I drove
down the dark country roads I screamed at God, 'Why don't you just kill me? I
hate my life and I just want to be with you!' I wept and cried all the way down
the dark curvy road. After about ten minutes of crying, I pulled myself together
and decided I would to go Indianapolis the following morning to meet up with
another friend who just might listen to me and care. I was driving on a dry
surface on a clear night. The road wasn't wet or foggy. As I came around a
curve, my car went into a tailspin. I had no idea what was happening! I wasn't
going more than 30 miles per hour so I didn't think anything bad would happen.
That was until I saw the tree headed in my direction! I knew I would hit the
tree but I didn't believe I would be hurt. I simply thought, 'I'm going to mess
up my car!' Then I blacked out.
At this time, my father was a chopper pilot in the US Army Reserves. He had gone
to flight school at Ft Rucker, Alabama during the Vietnam War. His roommate and
stick buddy, Thomas.
He was a cowboy from Buffalo, WY. His wife and son
were living with her parents while Thomas went through flight school with my
dad. Once they had finished flight school he was headed to Vietnam. My dad
escaped the war due to bing the last remaining male in his family to carry on
their family name. This meant that he didn't have to go to the war. In
hindsight, I think he would have been better off to go to Vietnam because he
lived with survivor guilt the rest of his life. So many of his friends were
killed or missing in action that it was difficult for him to live with.
When I hit the tree with my car, everything went black. I don't remember
anything except making another bad decision to try to avoid the glass from the
tree hitting my car. In an attempt to protect myself, I laid down across the
front seat of my car to avoid being hurt. When my car hit the tree, the front
driver's side tire was pushed up through the drivers side floorboard where my
foot was on the break. The momentum from the force of the tree, tire and leg
sent me sailing forward slamming my head and neck into the passenger side door
breaking my neck in three places. I
don't remember any of this. When I awoke, I was in an ambulance strapped to a
board. I was in a lot of pain and they took me to the hospital where a highway
patrolman was waiting for me. They had me sign a piece of paper even though I
couldn't see anything at the time. The head of the highway patrol lived next
door to us and I wanted him to call my sister and tell her that I had had an
accident. I didn't realize that they believed I was stinking drunk so he refused
to honor my request. I told him, 'I just want him to let my sister know what's
happening.' He screamed at me, 'He's not going to get you out of this!' I had no
idea what he meant because I had a terrible concussion and wasn't altogether
there. 'Out of what?' I asked. He quickly replied, 'You're drunk and you're
getting a DUI!' I replied, 'I'm not drunk!' He didn't believe me and a nurse
called my sister.
My father, mother and youngest sister were in Corpus Christi, Texas when my
accident occurred. They were there with my father's Reserve Unit doing flight
training. They had no idea that their oldest daughter was in the fight of her
life. That night at about 1am the very time of the accident, as my parents were
sleeping, my father was awoken by someone or something. He sat up in bed and
looked across his hotel room to see who woke him. Standing at the end of his bed
was a man just starring at him wearing GI Boots and a flight suit. My father
didn't know if this was real or a dream. The man stood there for a few moments
while my father got his bearings. Once my father was fully awake, the man told
my father through telepathy, 'Sassy has been in a very bad auto accident. She is
very broken but she will live.' It took a few moments but my father realized
whom this was! This was his friend and stick buddy, Thomas. He had been sent to
warm my father about my accident. My father was too terrified to believe what he
was just told. As Thomas body evaporated from the room my dad went back to sleep
thinking, 'Well, if this is true, I'll know soon enough.' The next morning, my
parents and sister were on a sailboat when they were given the news, 'Your
daughter Sassy was in a life treating accident! You need to go home as soon as
possible.' This confirmed what had taken place earlier that night. Thomas HAD
been there to warn my father what had happened. My parents were on the next
flight back to Cincinnati, Ohio. When they arrived home they learned of all my
injuries. My brother had been too afraid to tell them how truly bad off I was. I
was suffering from a shattered ankle, broken leg, broken back, broken neck in
three places and a head concussion that was so bad they couldn't give me pain
meds for fear I wouldn't wake up. They had to set my leg and ankle without any
pain medicine. I was in agony! By the grace of God, I wasn't a quadriplegic! I
broke C5,6,7 of my neck which is the classical quadriplegic break. I don't know
how or why God was so merciful to me given that I had just been screaming at Him
to kill me and he let me live and walk again! It took a long time for me to heal
and a lot of therapy but I did recover. I was cleared of all the charges the
highway patrolman brought against me. I wasn't drunk after all.
The strange thing about this is, if I hadn't made that first bad decision I
wouldn't have ever been on that road that night! You see, God had given me a
baby. A baby that I discarded as if it meant nothing. Only it meant everything.
For all you young females out there worried that you 'can't have a baby' know
this: If the Lord God has given you a baby it's a gift. If I had had my baby, I
never would have been on that road that night. The Lord God had given me that
child to protect me from that auto accident. I know and believe this to be 100%
fact! That's why I was so broken before I had the accident. I couldn't live with
what I had done and needed help. Trust the Lord God with your decisions and let
Him worry about the rest. He's been caring for us since the dawn of time and He
does a much better job than we do! I know that demons attacked my car that night
to kill me...BUT...the Lord God was merciful to me. I learned six months later
that five people had lost their lives on that same tree. After my accident, they
cut the tree down so no one would be hurt by it again.
At the time
of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
Yes
I was in a auto accident that almost took
my life.
Was the experience
difficult to express in words?
No
At what time during the
experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness? Before I
hit the tree.
How did your highest level
of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal
everyday consciousness and alertness?
More
consciousness and alertness than normal
Everything was in slow motion and I knew
what was going to happen before it did.
Please
compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
Dead people don't visit me or my family since the accident.
Please
compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
I don't remember.
Did you see
or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your
consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
No
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
FEAR!
Did you pass into or
through a tunnel?
No
Did you see an unearthly
light?
No
Did
you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable
voice?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly
origin
My dad had the encounter not me. I was
unconscious.
Did you encounter or
become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by
name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?
Yes
My dad encountered his best friend from
Vietnam who went missing presumed to be dead warning him of my accident.
Did
you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
Yes
My dad was visited by his pilot buddy from
Vietnam.
Did
you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?
No
Did
you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down?
Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Slower
Did
you suddenly seem to understand everything?
No
Did you reach a boundary
or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you come to a border or point of no return?
No
Did scenes from the
future come to you?
No
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly
life (“life after death”)?
No
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God
or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?
Yes
My dad was told of my accident by his dead
friend visiting him.
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you
either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?
No
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a
mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?
No
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s
meaning or purpose?
No
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s
difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
No
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?
No
During your experience,
did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not
shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?
No
Did you have a sense of
knowing special knowledge or purpose?
Yes
I knew that God had given me a baby to
protect me from the accident ever happening but I had an abortion.
What occurred during your
experience included:
Content that was entirely consistent with the
beliefs you had at the time of your experience
How accurately do you
remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around
the time of the experience?
I remember the experience more accurately than
other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
You don't forget an experience like this!
Discuss any changes
that might have occurred in your life after your experience:
I learned how very important God's gifts are and to
never throw them away because they just might save your life!
My
experience directly resulted in:
Large changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
Yes
I knew I was given another chance to do things right!
Do you
have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that
you did not have before the experience?
No
Are there one or several parts of your experience
that are especially meaningful or significant to you?
That my dad's friend came from the dead to warn my dad what had happened.
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
Just once, with Thomas who was three years
old when his dad was shot down in Cambodia. I thought he would want to hear this
story for himself.
Did you have any knowledge
of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
What did you believe about
the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:
Experience was definitely real
Dead people don't visit you!
What do you believe about
the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was definitely real
Life is real.
Have your relationships
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I care about people now.
Have your religious
beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I have become born again and trust Adonai and His son, Jesus for my needs.
At
any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is there anything else
that you would like to add about your experience?
no that's all.
Did
the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
This was complete.