My son passed away Oct 20, 2014. I had been dying my hair for years to cover the gray. At this time, I decided that it was something I didn't care about anymore, and was not doing it. I felt like part of me had also died, and didn't care anymore about dying my hair, or make up.... just didn't matter. On this day, I was looking at myself in the mirror, after just drying my hair. And after six months or so, I was seeing how gray my hair really was under the brown dye. In the front, there is a very white patch. I was looking at it, and said out loud, 'I like the white part... I feel ancient. Ian, you wouldn't even recognize me now!'  And I heard 'Ma! I see you every day!' In his voice, in his tone, with the same style of sarcasm. It was instant, no time for me to think it up.

It made me laugh. I hadn't laughed much in months.....

Was the experience difficult to express in words?     No  

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?   Yes   

Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:     I heard him. It was probably not out loud. But I heard him, his voice, his tone, his style.  

Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?   Inside me, I think. But definitely him. 

If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?     Similar.     

Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   no  

Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   no

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?   No                   

Did you see the deceased?   No                      

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?    No                

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?   Yes     The tone was the same as other times in his life that I would say something, and he'd roll his eyes and correct me...

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?   I felt he was around, so it was not a surprise.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?    Experience was definitely real    I couldn't have made up what he said, or how it was said. It was instant, the second I spoke, the "response" came immediately. Not long enough for me to have thought up anything on my own. Bam, it came.

Was the experience dream like in any way?    No   

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?    Yes    Every time I sense him or feel him, or dream of him, I am happy. I miss him so much.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?    Best, knowing he is there. Worst, missing his physical presence.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?    No        

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?    No   

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?    Yes    That he is with us. Love is forever.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   No

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?    No   

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?       No   

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?        No   

Did you become aware of future events?           No   

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     No   

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?    No   

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?    No   

Did you see a light?    No   

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?   No   

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes    They were happy, excited. And wishing it had happened to them.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?    No   

Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?    It's not the only time he has communicated this way.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?    No   

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   No   

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      Yes    When I was 12, I got up to use the bathroom in the night. I felt like I was floating, my feet didn't seem to touch the floor. I used the bathroom, went back to my room. As I got in bed, I felt like I was climbing back into myself. It was so weird, that it woke me up fully. And then I realized I still felt the need to go to the bathroom. So I got up, and this time felt my feet on the floor. The toilet was still "running' from being flushed the first time, but I went again. And it was as if I hadn't gone, I still needed to. Looking back, I wonder if it was an "out of body" experience.

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION #2:

While I was asleep, I looked up and saw Ian. Other people were in the background of the room, my grown kids and maybe a grandchild or two; they were not the focus, but they were there. Ian walked toward me, we stood face to face. I was looking at his big brown eyes, and a single tear came from his left eye and down his cheek, while he smiled at me. I reached up and put my hands on his face, and with my thumb I brushed away the tear. We put our arms around each other and hugged.

The feeling was so real, it woke me up. I could still feel the touch. I laid down to go back to sleep....

As soon as I fell asleep, I was 'dreaming' that I was sitting on the floor in the living room. The 'background' people from the first 'dream' were there also, playing a board game on the floor, and my brother (whom I have not seen in almost 20 years) was with them. Ian was lying across the back of the couch looking at me. I saw him, and talked with him, all while the others in the room did not interact with him but continued chatting and playing their game. Ian said to me 'thank you for sewing my pants' I saw a vision of the pants and the sewing, but it wasn't something that really had happened. I asked him, 'do you remember the last time you wore those pants?' He said, 'Yes, at my funeral.' He seemed happy and content.

Then I woke up again.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?     No   Some things

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?   Yes   

Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:     He spoke to me in the dream. In the first part, he didn't 'speak' but when he cried and hugged me, I felt that he was saying he was sorry and that he loved me. In the second part, he spoke.  

Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?   It was a 'dream', but the sound was from him, not inside me. 

If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?     It was his voice.     

Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   no  

Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   no

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?   Yes  

Describe where and how you were touched:     He hugged me.

Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   familiar  

Was anything communicated by the touch?   Yes, forgiveness, compassion, and love.

Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   no

Did you see the deceased?   Yes    He looked the same as always. In the second part, he was lying across the top of a couch, which he wouldn't have done...

How clearly did the deceased appear?   Solid.

How much of the deceased did you see?    All of him

Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?   The same age

How healthy did the deceased appear to be?    He looked perfect. He had no infirmities.

Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?    no

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?    No                

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?   Yes     He was doing what he had done in life, trying to make me feel better. Showing me that he loved me.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?   no

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?    Experience was definitely real    When you hug someone, often the feel of their touch lingers on you. It was like that, a real touch, a physical feeling.

Was the experience dream like in any way?    Yes    It WAS while sleeping....

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?    Yes    As his mom, all I need to know is that he's okay. And that we will see each other....

What was the best and worst part of your experience?    The best... that he was really there. I know he was.  The worst.... that I had to wake up.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?    No        

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?    No   

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?    Yes    I know he's with me.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   No

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?    No   

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?       No   

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?        No   

Did you become aware of future events?           No   

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     No   

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?    No   

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?    Yes    My brother hasn't spoken to us in 20 years. I don't' know where he is. He was in the dream. What does that mean.... is he also deceased?

Did you see a light?    No   

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?   No   

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes    They were happy, and wishing he would visit them too.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?    No        

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?    No   

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   No   

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      No