My Goddess mother passed away on 12 Jan,2007 and she had a very tragic death which left her four children into lot of depression. in fact, My elder sister has gone into depression and has to consult a Psychiatrist thrice in a month. All of us love our Mummy a lot but you can't forget her death. During her last stages, she was vomiting blood and blood was oozing from her nose and also excreted dark brown blood in her stools. When in hospital, I was the unfortunate one to see her in a pool of blood because her IV had dripped and blood oozed out and poor soul, my mother didn't even know that she was in such a miserable condition. She always lived like a queen and did only good to others but her death at 58 came as a shock to all of us, though before few days we had known that she won't make it, though she tried her level best to live for her children. Her relatives, who she loved beyond imagination all turned their back towards her and she only had her 4 children besides her. It was then, actually when our Mother decided that now she wanted to live for her children, and for the first time we were happy that our love won't be shared with any selfish relatives, but the almighty had no mercy on her and she passed away the very next morning. Now I dream of her everyday but only to see her suffering in pain. I can only dream of hospitals and blood and her helplessness and she fighting for life. Sometimes I dream that she is smiling , Like the one I had yesterday. She was smiling and I was telling her that she is not dead and I can feel her and touch her. I even kissed her and hugged her. I am feeling so nice because after long I saw her smiling in my dreams. I kept chit chatting with her but don't recollect if she ever said something, but I am so happy to have touched her. It felt so real. I am pregnant now and she had promised on her death bed that she will come back, that she will take birth in my house and after 2 months of her passing away, I conceived. I know she is back and all of us are waiting for her come back. She lived up to her promise, else this can't be a co-incidence that I got pregnant in March and she had passed off just 2 month before. Does this signify something? Is it some re-birth types? I know she is on her way back.

after about 1 month of her death, I shifted back home and since my husband and I live by ourselves and he returns home only at mornings, it was a dreadful feeling to stay alone at nights especially when my mother's death was so recent. 

At about 11:30 am I was awake but was just lazing around on the bed with my eyes half open. I suddenly felt some kind of strong current that passed through me and I became very heavy and was unable to move. I tried to move my hand but just couldn't. For 1 minute I felt as if someone was there and had entered within me. Though I was a little scared I prayed to my mom to not scare me and that give me the courage to face it else I would collapse on the spot. Immediately I felt her hands on my hands like the way I used to hold her had when I use to sleep with mummy besides me. I smiled and said that Mummy please don't go and hold my hand like this forever. Then suddenly I saw a dream, amazingly when I was very much in a conscious state of mind and wide awake. I saw that I go running into my hall and I saw the two idols of God Lord Krishna and Radha and it was lit up with candles and I kept wondering that when we already have one small prayers place at home, why did I see this temple. And then I wake up and see no one there. I know, I was very much awake. When I shared this with my Sister's and brother, they told me that Mom had come to say that I should start believing in God once again as I had lost faith in God after my Mom's death. But I am very stubborn, Just like my Mom, and I won't ever ever ever believe in God anymore cause had he been there my Mom wouldn't have died such a painful death, and she would have lived with us for more time. 

I have so may such experiences with my Mom.............Mummy I love you. Come back from Heaven. Fight with that supreme power named God and come back t your children. We won't be able to survive for long without you.

After your experience, did you consider the contents of your experience:       Mixed

Have you had multiple experiences?   Yes     several

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No comment

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

She touched my hands and hugged me. Now I wish to see her. I just dreamt of her last night wherein I kissed her, hugged her, saw her, touched her. I am sooooooooooooooooo Happy. I can't ever explain.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   Familiar-It was my Mom. I always cuddled her and slept with my hands folded in her hands. That's the same feeling I got.

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  Just love and love doesn't have to speak. It can only be sensed.

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  No./It was my Mom.

Did you see the deceased?         No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes
love. pure love

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  no

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           Only a child and a mother relationship is as pure and divine as the holy spirit. purer than the purest form. 

My mummy doesn't have to prove that she is trying to make contact with me. She is always there. I know it. It has to be real.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Wouldn't want to let her go..........Could give up anything for my Mom.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           No

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      BEST PART IS THAT I FELT MY MOTHERS PRESENCE

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No      

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  No           

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?   Yes

Mummy said that she will come back and take birth in my house. Today I am pregnant.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I have attained self confidence that whenever I need her, she is always there somewhere around in her own way trying to pamper her baby.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes    

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   Yes

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes