I have had many out of body experiences throughout my lifetime. Each one has been completely unique. The first one that I remember consciously was at nine years of age, during a surgery. I believe that one was a near death experience.

The out of body experience I would like to share with you today happened approximately four months after my son passed away due to brain cancer. He was 19 when he was diagnosed and he lived for 15 months before passing. My Son was the most beautiful human being I have ever known and his illness, surgeries, treatment and passing shook me to the core. He had always been such a gift to me and I love him with a depth of love that I can not describe in words.

At the time of this out of body experience, I was not sure if I could continue on in my life with the amount of grief and sadness I felt. It was in the early morning hours that the OBE happened. I was relaxed but still laying in bed. My husband was out of the house very early for a morning shift. I believe it was probably about 4:30 or 5:00 AM.

I felt the familiar feelings that I experience when an OBE is about to happen. There is a rushing sound and I feel as though my being is moving under my skin. All of a sudden I was out of my body and in a place that was beautiful. I didn't feel any traveling to get to this place, I was just suddenly there.

I would describe my surroundings as lush, green and manicured.. as though a gardener took great care to make this place beautiful... but not in an orderly flowerbed type of way. The tree's were large and full with many colours of greens and some with wine coloured leaves. There was a brick paved driveway that had a small rise. I didn't see any buildings or structures at this time.

At the top of the rise, on the brick driveway, stood three male figures. I knew immediately that the middle figure was my son David. He looked up and instantaneously, I was in his arms and he had picked me up and was twirling me around and saying, 'I love you, I love you, I love you!' The words are beautiful but they were not just words, or maybe not words at all. I could feel his message all through me and I was sending the same I love you's back to him. It was the most love I have ever felt and it was everything.

I don't know who the other young men were. They seemed to fade out of view and it was just David and I. I know that we had some sort of conversation and I know that he took me to meet others, but I do not have any of those details now. I am aware that for some reason, I could not bring that information back with me. Suddenly I was back within the confines of my body. This experience gave me the strength that I needed so badly at that time. I was able to carry on further. Approximately two or three months later, I had another out of body experience that happened in the early morning hours while I was awake and conscious. Again, I was transported instantly to a place. This landscape couldn't be more different than the first meeting with David. It was arid and dry with small sage brush types of growth. There was a narrow, small body of water below a small hill. There are large mountains where I live but I have been to other locations where what I would call rolling hills, are called mountains. These were dry, rolling hills.

On top of one of the hills, there was a fairly large group of young people. I was across the other side of the water from the hill. The place where I was standing, had simple looking cement paving and some type of railing with a building behind me. I absolutely knew that my son was on the other side of this water. All of the people there were in the same age group as David. They were playing a tournament type of game.. partnered up and trying to get the other person to fall into the water below without using their arms. As soon as I was scanning the group for David, he suddenly was beside me.

At this point, David was surprised that I was there and I believe we conversed (thought) about why. I believe he was satisfied with knowing that I just needed to see him or know he was alright... just strongly missing my Son. David took me to the building that was like a classroom setting. I was introduced to all of the beautiful young people there and I was able to sit in on the lecture / class. I have no awareness of what was taught or said.. but I feel that I know it on a deeper level somehow.

These two out of body experiences helped me to be able and continue on with my own life. The grief and sadness have been extreme, but seeing my Son and knowing that he goes on and is incredibly well and no longer in pain, have helped me be able to live my own life.

I have had many other out of body experiences before and after these two experiences with David but I have to say, these two were the most amazing.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes I am not sure if there was a verbal exchange, yet I could feel everything in a much expanded way.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? 100% conscious and aware. I would even say, more than when in the physical body.

Was the experience dream like in any way? Not at all.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love. I always feel love on such a powerful level in my normal, waking life, this was extreme love.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? Just when separating from my body, I have a rushing sound.

Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? Yes Not in what people are taught as heavenly locations. I experienced beautiful tree's and greenery the first time. The second time, I experienced a dry and arid landscape and a building.

Did you see a light? No

Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes I met with my Son and other young people. Love was communicated between my Son and I. I was also allowed to sit in on a classroom experience.

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? Yes I witnessed a classroom lecture or learning situation.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Uncertain A feeling of extreme knowing about the love we share.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes, but I do not consciously know what it is now.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events? Uncertain I believe that I was told many things but I do not have awareness of what they are now. I believe I somehow know them on a different level.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes I had more emotional strength and well being.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? I have always lived a spiritual life and the experiences have reinforced this.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No

Have you shared this experience with others? Yes I have shared with some of my family and some of my students. People will often tell me about their experiences and feel safe to do so.

What emotions did you experience following your experience? Peace.

What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best part was seeing my Son. The worst part was leaving him.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I have only traveled to my Son twice. I am not sure if it will ever happen again but I feel that I was given something very special and it is not something that many people get to experience. I feel honored and privileged in this regard. Of course, I would love to go there all the time but I know it was a very special gift.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. It is wonderful to have a place to talk about this and be understood. Thank you!

Experience Description 1/27/2002