Sara M's 2nd
ADC
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Robert, my brother, has been sending me Smiley Faces for almost a month now. Possessed of a unique brand of humor, a quick wit and a talent for mimicry, its just something he would do. What is most unusual about Robs humorous gifts is they began to arrive the morning after his death.
Rob died in the early hours of a Sunday, likely of a heart attack. At 46, he had been living for several years with heart failure brought on by a 26-year struggle with Diabetes.
The morning after Robs death, before I finally fell asleep, I asked him to visit me. I did however ask him not to come in bodily form because I was home alone and felt frightened.
Four hours later I opened my eyes and looking straight at me was a Smiley Face.
I had flowers on the nightstand and had placed stones in the bottom of the glass vase. One turned out to be a smooth black rock engraved by Nature with two eyes and a smile. I laughed and thought, Thats Roberts sense of humor. I fished the rock out of its glass house and carried it with me.
That evening my sister Lisabeth came out of Roberts room wearing his big, furry Koala bear slippers. She said they felt worn and turned them over to inspect their soles. To our happy surprise, we discovered that on the bottom of each slipper Robert had drawn a Smiley Face.
Five days later while walking home, I was deep in thought about Robert and his approaching memorial. I had just purchased a shirt to wear in his honor. I was thinking about how funny Robert would think it was if his four sisters showed up at his funeral wearing bright red T-shirts emblazoned with the words Stayin Alive. Just then I glanced at the ground. Something sparkled in the bright sunlight. Looking straight up at me was a blue bottle cap imprinted with a silver Smiley Face.
Laughing, crying and thanking Robert, I retrieved the Smiley Face and carried it with me.
The night following Roberts memorial my sister and I drove his son to a nearby town, to the home of friends where he was staying. It was a dark night and on the drive back to our mothers house I screamed! Not a good thing to do when youre a passenger in a vehicle traveling at 100 kilometers an hour. My frightened sister thought Id seen a dead body on the highway. No. High on a fence fronting someones property and glowing in the dark, was a giant Smiley Face.
My niece Cara moved home from another province only days after Uncle Robs death. Knowing nothing of the Smiley Faces, she presented me with a gift she had intended for Robert because it reminded her so much of him. It was meant for the end of a pencil -- sporting a cowboy hat, a bright yellow Smiley Face. I held it tenderly in the palm of my left hand and carried it with me.
Twenty-six days after my brothers death, I arrived home from work feeling very sad. I sat down, looked at the Smiley faces gracing my coffee table, smiled and said, Thank you Robert. Just then, in my head I heard his voice, Turn on the radio Sa. Ive got a song for you. I jumped up and turned it on. It was playing some jazzy music but no words. Next song, I thought.
I settled down on the couch to listen to the music and then I recognized it. Put on a happy face.
Was this
experience difficult to express in words?
No
Did you ONLY sense an
awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling
or smelling them?
No
Did you hear the deceased or
hear something associated with the deceased?
Yes
Describe what
you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:
I had just arrived home from work
and was feeling very sad, thinking about Robert and looking at the Smiley Faces
he had sent me since he died. I smiled and thanked him. Then suddenly, in my
head, I very clearly heard him say in his voice, Turn on the radio Sa. Ive got
a song for you. I jumped up and turned it on. It was playing some jazzy music
but no words. Next song, I thought. I settled down on the couch to listen to
the music and then I recognized it. Put on a happy face. Robert was known all
his life for his wacky sense of humor. He loved entertaining people. He also
loved music. As for calling me Sa, that's what only my siblings have called me
since our childhood.
Did the voice or
sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not
hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?
I heard his voice in my head.
If you heard a
voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the
deceased made when they were alive?
It was my brother's voice.
Is there any
possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings
at the time of your experience?
No.
Was there any
possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?
No.
Did you feel a touch or
experience any physical contact from the deceased?
No
Did you see the
deceased?
Yes
I didn't see him, but one
sister, one niece and his girlfriend all saw him in the days following his
death.
How clearly did
the deceased appear?
They told me he looked just like
he was standing right there. My sister said he had long hair (like he did when
he was younger and healthier). This particular sister said she never believed in
these things until our brother's death and she experienced them for herself.
How much of the
deceased did you see?
My sister and niece saw all of
him, standing in familiar poses. His girlfriend saw the outline of him in her
bedroom door and she felt his presence.
Did the deceased
appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?
He appeared younger with long hair
like he had before his health declined. In the last few years of his life his
beautiful, long, naturally curly hair became sparse, straight, dry and coarse,
like doll's hair.
How healthy did
the deceased appear to be?
He looked healthier, the most
visible barometer being his hair.
Is there any
possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings
at the time of your experience?
No.
Did you smell a distinct
smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?
No
How long did the experience
last?
The Smiley Faces started arriving
the morning after his death and have been coming for a month now.
My sister
and his girlfriend saw him briefly the night after his death. My sister was
sleeping in his bedroom at our mother's house and dreamed she saw him standing
over the bed looking at her with his arms crossed, a pose he often used. His
girlfriend was trying to fall asleep the same night in another city hundreds of
miles away when she saw his outline in her bedroom door. She said, "You're here,
aren't you?" He didn't answer. My niece saw him at my mother's house when she
was trying to fall asleep the night before his funeral. She said he was standing
in the porch, which is off the sunroom where she was sleeping. He was wearing
his cowboy hat, long white shirt and black jeans, and holding a beer. She was
scared so she went under the covers. Then she peeked out and saw him turn and
walk out the porch door. In the morning she checked the door and it was locked.
She's 18 and describes her experience as "freaky".
Was the beginning and end of
the experience gradual or more sudden?
My experiences with the
arrival of various Smiley Faces is sudden and unexpected.
Could you sense the emotions
or mood of the deceased?
Uncertain
He's sending Smiley Faces, so
it makes me think he's enjoying himself. It's just like him to be a prankster
and also, to show us that he loves us because we are a very close and loving
family, especially the seven of us siblings.
Did the deceased give you
information you did not previously know?
If I had seen the Smiley
Faces my brother had drawn on the soles of his slippers first (none of us knew
about them before he died), before any of the other Smiley Faces showed up, I
would have thought that I was perhaps "creating" the occurrences of Smiley Faces
in my life following his death -- just like when you buy a new car, and
suddenly, it seems as though everyone is driving the same car as the one you
just bought. But I didn't see the slippers first and in fact, the first Smiley
Face appeared the morning after my brother's death after I asked him to
communicate with me. For me, the slippers verified that the communication I'd
had from my brother was real.
How do you currently view the
reality of your experience?
Experience was definitely real
Please explain
why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:
The number of Smiley Faces that
have come into my life since my brother's death and the timing of their arrival
(i.e. when I was thinking of him and grieving, whether alone or with my family)
tell me it's more than mere coincidence.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
No
Describe in detail your
feelings/emotions during the experience:
A mixture of sad and happy, crying
and laughing, very emotional, sad because he's gone, happy because he can still
communicate with us.
Was there any emotional
healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
I'm still grieving, but it's
wonderful to have love and hope.
What was the best and worst
part of your experience?
No worst part at all. Best part --
messages from my brother after I was so sad at his passing. I still cry but it
makes grieving so much easier on my heart and soul. And he's still making me
laugh, like he did in life.
Has your life changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Describe:
I pray more. I spend much
more time alone.
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
Re-affirmed my past
experiences. I've become more spiritual.
Did the experience give you
any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God,
etc.?
Yes,
Reaffirmed my belief in God and life after death.
Death Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a
compact?
Yes, With
my twin sister. Our brother was not included in the compact.
Did you observe or hear
anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
Yes
Upon leaving the funeral home
after viewing our brother's body, one sister said she was so startled, she
jumped back from the coffin because she heard him breathing. It was then that I
told her I too heard breathing but I attributed it to his energy or soul that I
sensed about a foot above his body.
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
Following these experiences, I
felt elated.
Was the experience witnessed
or experienced by others?
Yes
When my siblings, his
girlfriend and I viewed our brother's body at the funeral home, each of us very
distinctly "felt" his presence. One sister told us she heard him breathing and
jumped back from the coffin. Only then did I tell her that I thought I heard him
breathing, so I looked long and carefully at his body. I sensed energy, his
soul, about a foot above his body to which I attributed the sound of breathing.
Sensing him, I talked to my brother. I was not upset at seeing his body because
I knew he wasn't in it.
Did you have any sense of
altered space or time?
Yes, Altered space as described above.
Did you have a sense of
knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
It's very exciting to know that
our lives continue after death, that we continue to love, learn and grow, that
our personalities are still intact. It's very moving to have these after death
communications from our loved ones.
Did you have any psychic,
paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have
prior to the experience?
No
Did you meet or see any other
beings other than the deceased?
Yes
I was home one night sitting on
the couch thinking about my brother. I said a prayer, closed my eyes and there
was my deceased father's brother, whom I had never met and who died 18 months
ago. I've never seen a picture of him, so I don't know what he looks like. But I
know that my father and another of their brothers looked very much alike whereas
this brother who appeared to me, though he definitely bears a family
resemblance, is different.
I asked him how Robert was. He said he's resting -- sometimes he's happy to be there, other times he wants to be back here. My uncle told me that it takes a period of adjustment. I asked him how Dad was. He said he's busy working.
My uncle
appeared to me again a few days later. He and my brother were very troubled in
life, the same troubles. My uncle said he had found his calling. He is a guide
who meets people when they die, people who have experienced the same troubles as
he did on Earth. (Up until this time, I thought that when we die it was just
deceased family members who met us. I never really thought about being met by
anyone else, other than the Light.) My uncle said that he would be training my
brother to be a guide. He also showed me a photo of what he looked like just
before he died (I plan to contact my uncle's family for the first time and hope
to see photographs of him). My uncle turned to walk away, then looked back and
said, "Thank you for writing the family history." (I did it just this year.) I
thanked him for helping me.
Did any part of your
experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described
above?
Yes
When my uncle appeared, it
seemed as though he and I were somewhere in-between here and there. It was dark,
but I could see him clearly.
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes
I shared mostly with my family,
some of whom had their own experiences with Robert after he died. I shared with
one friend who listened but seemed a bit skeptical, perhaps because she grew up
in another culture. Her reaction makes me reluctant to share with others, though
eventually I will because I'm a very open person.
Have you shared this
experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?
No
Following the experience, have
you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which
reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did you ever in your life have
a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual
event?
Yes
I reported other experiences on
this Web site
https://www.adcrf.org/sara_m's_adc.htm
Did the
questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes
Please offer any suggestions
you may have to improve this questionnaire.
Lots of questions, very thorough.
Thank you.