I heard the sound of bells ringing, and I knew that I needed to put my children to bed, and light a candle, and some zen incense, and await something. I don't know why I knew the bells were directing me in this way. But the air in the rooms of the house thickened in some way I can't describe. There was whirling energy from a far away place swirling and gathering in my bedroom. So I put the kids to bed. My husband was traveling. My mother appeared to me, at the end of the bed, while I was sitting up in bed, with the lights off, and just meditating, with a candle lit. (I am a mild Buddhist). When my mother appeared at the end of the bed, she was in a full figure form, but made of of a kind of purplish light, in a web like fashion, like a hologram. I was buzzing and full of energy from her presence.  I became very nervous. She had died more than two weeks ago, and I was panicking that she would leave if I got nervous.

Suddenly, she telepathically started talking to me. She said so much. It was beyond earth language, in a way. Since then, I've observed newborn babies, and they telepathically speak like this, too! We can hear it if we're quiet inside. So my mother spoke, and as she spoke her lips moved, but there was no sound. And she also gestured with her body and arms a great deal of harmonious, soft movements, expressing deep love. She told me that she had never said how much she loved me. She was a very devoted, solid mother, but very cold, and truthfully, our personalities were so different, that we didn't really like each other, and had a hard time being together, although we never fought. I often felt her disapproving of what I wore, what I said, who I was, and she really wasn't very warm with me or my grandchildren. She had favorites in the family, and I was the least favorite. Anyway, she beamed love at me! It was more LOVE than I have ever felt--ever--in my whole life. It was like a light that she transmitted to me, and it caused me to stream silent tears of joy...From there, she moved into describing through pictures where she was, with places of learning, Elders, Love and Healing and the pursuit of Beingness, all hard to describe. From there, she told me to tell my brothers and sisters that she had come to me, and that they should also get quiet, and then she could come to them, before she went onto the next level, which I did not understand. Then, she said she would send a RAY of herself down, in the form of a pet dog. I would know the dog when I saw her. Then she started to fade...saying good bye, but also now smiling and full of mirth...

The next day, at a dinner party, a friend said he had seen the most AMAZING golden retriever puppies. We went to see them, and of course, the destined female dog came up to us. She was different from the rest, smarter, more developed. We were told she was taken! But then when we came to pick up another dog, the first she- dog we wanted was suddenly not take anymore. This dog, Gemmi, is now the cornerstone of our home. I feel my mother's presence in her. I also feel how healing it is to have the love of a dog!

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No      

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     There aren't words for the emotions.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Extremely alert.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No      

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Extreme agitation in the beginning, and panic, followed by bliss, and longing to be with my mother there.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           The bells in the beginning.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No           

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I was sent many images...there are Elders, Teachers, Guides, Friends...family. There are lots of different people and beings. Some without real faces, more energetic faces.

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          No response      Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     Hours passed, but it seemed like minutes to me. I always thought that it would be opposite.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes     I felt that there was so much LOVE! Since then, I've always just given money away, or helped people I didn't know. I am still full of love. I have had other experiences, too.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             No      

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      No      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I still have a great deep love for all of humanity, and am overly generous. I just KNOW about the other side.  I have a much higher tolerance for selfish or narcissistic people.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I am training in hospice. I do wish I had more access to people who would be interested in the myriad of experiences I've had! It hasn't affected my relationships, except that perhaps I'm more loving.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     No one thought it was a big deal. In the first few days, I told lots of people, and my family. I think they wondered why I was chosen for this experience, because I'm a pretty average person, and I smoke cigarettes and drink beer on the weekends!! I don't think anyone was influenced by my experience at all.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Extreme bliss and happiness. I was also confused, because I really had a difficult relationship with my mother!

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best was the imagery of the worlds on the other side, and the unity of life, teeming with other consciousnesses, and hierarchies of souls evolving and the JOY. The worst part...there was nothing bad about it.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes