I woke at 4 o'clock in the morning , Conor was talking to me, he said, "Here-------I am.  All the pain is gone, only a faded memory [I must say at this time that, when Conor was born,  a blood vessel burst and flooded his brain. This meant that he was totally incapacitated had no speech and also had no sight.]" But the good memories are there all the time. They flash by again and again until one of them stops and stays with me."

             "Don't mind the way I jump my thoughts around , because it is all new to me.".

              "I can walk and talk and think, but I can't see just yet, I am not worried about it because I know it will happen".

               "I am very happy and content, I missed chewy tube for a while. I couldn't bring stuff with me. What I do have are beautiful memories and thoughts."

               "I had so much love and gentleness during my life and could tell who was with me most of the time".

                "Sometimes I would get very frustrated but didn't know what it was all about". Some of my love and happiness I tried to pass on to Sarah, I hope it works". "I have no form as such, I know I  can walk and talk and run if I want to, but all I have to do is think of somewhere --------and there I am".

                      "When Daddy would lift me up and up and up and cuddle me, it made me so happy and then he would trick with me------giggle---I couldn't stop. Strange thing, I know I had terrible pain,  but it is away in the background."

                  "My bath, now that was one of my best times, it was comfy".

                 "Wind in my face, especially if there was some rain in it, that was exciting, It's amazing how much I understood but couldn't do anything about, now all I want to do is talk and talk"."

                   I used to get a great kick out of you granddad, when I did a huge pooh---the relief was great and you used to say "you little devil you". It used to crack me up--it was brilliant."

                   "My memory of all the love and care that I got was lovely I will treasure it always".

                   I am only getting started here and it will be quite a while before I get everything together, but I am working hard at it".

               " I am bigger than myself".

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing,  hearing,  feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard,  how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    AS above , sorry I put Conor's conversation in the wrong place.

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you,  inside you,  or did you not hear a voice or sound,  but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  A voice talking as if beside me.

            If you heard a voice or sound,  was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           Conor could not talk when alive

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   no

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         No

Did you smell a distinct smell,  scent,  fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        Hard to tell maybe 15 minutes or so

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         Complete

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

Happy and positive

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  I have no form as such

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           When Conor was alive he never spoke , but in my contact with him it was so real

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No     

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Delighted that Conor had contacted me I felt it a great privilege

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I had contact

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The words from Conor. When he stopped talking

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No      

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life,  death,  afterlife,  God,  etc.?            Yes     Afterlife possibly

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes Speaking with Conor's mother

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Extremely happy I couldn't wait to tell some one about it

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing,  special knowledge,  universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic,  paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?      Yes     Very positive

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       I dream about Conor very often and they are always happy and often funny dreams

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience,  have you had any other events in your life,  medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience,  out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

It was perfect 

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    At the moment I am happy to put all the above into print----I have only recently got a computer so I am very slow at the typing etc!