Renee R's
ADC
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My cat, Dexter, had a
sudden, tragic injury and had to be put to sleep. I was devastated and stayed
in bed grieving him through the second day of his passing, not able to get past
the suffering he endured and losing him that way. Some time that evening,
before my husband came to bed I was lying there and felt Dexter jump on my bed
and then curl up against my legs like he always used to do. I was shocked and
started to sit up. At that moment I got the message in my head, "Everything is
okay. It will all be okay." and it came from him somehow. I instantly felt a
peace and relief I hadn't since he died, and I laid back down and went to sleep
feeling him against my legs. I woke some time later and he was gone, but I
still felt that peace he had given me. After that I got out of bed and was able
to go about my life, still missing him, but much better in handling it.
Was this
experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
The communication is
hard to describe. I felt the words and their meaning as plain as if they were
spoken, but they weren't.
Did you ONLY sense
an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing,
feeling or smelling them?
No
Did you hear the
deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?
No
Did you feel a
touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?
Yes
I felt the body of
my cat curled against my legs, just like he did when he was alive. I felt the
weight and warmth.
Was
the touch familiar or unfamiliar?
Familiar, it was the
way he always slept with me.
Was
anything communicated by the touch?
At that same time, I
felt he was telling me he was okay. I felt it in my mind like it was
communicated to me and I remember being surprised and awed that it was
happening.
Is
there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
None.
Did you see the
deceased?
No
Did you smell a
distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?
No
How long did the
experience last?
For over a
minute until I feel asleep
Was the beginning
and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
Beginning was
sudden, ending was gradual because I closed my eyes and went to sleep still
feeling him lying against me.
Could you sense the
emotions or mood of the deceased?
Uncertain
Seemed to have kind
of an authorities manner, which is strange because he was a cat, but it's like
he had a kind of knowledge of things that I didn't and I knew what he was
telling me was right.
Did the deceased
give you information you did not previously know?
No.
How do you
currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was probably
real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
I think it was real. I'm almost certain it wasn't a dream. It's just hard to
believe, I guess because it was a pet and I don't know why I was lucky enough to
experience it.
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
Uncertain
I was groggy, but I
was awake.
Describe in detail
your feelings/emotions during the experience:
I was really surprised
that it was happened, and thinking, "Is this really happening?" I also went from
very sad, grieving to a much more comfortable feeling that it was all okay.
Was there any
emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
I was able to accept
and move on.
What was the best
and worst part of your experience?
Best was the feeling of
comfort and peace that I was given. Worst was that I didn't stay awake and
communicate more with him. I just relaxed and drifted off to sleep while he was
still lying there.
Has your life
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No
Did
the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death,
afterlife, God, etc.?
Uncertain I worry that I will never again see my pets after death,
and this experience helps me believe that they go on too.
Death Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a
compact?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Peace, and the realization that everything was okay. I was still sad I lost
Dexter, but the experience released me from the severe grief I was feeling.
Was
the experience witnessed or experienced by others?
No
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
No
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
No
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
Did
you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?
No
Did
you see a light?
No
Did
any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location
described above?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes My husband and a friend. My husband thinks I dreamed it. My friend
acted like she believed me, but I'm not sure she doesn't think I dreamed it too.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher
or web site?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?
I
wonder why I didn't look to see him and I wonder why I laid back down and closed
my eyes while he was there.
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect
the experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or
other spiritual event?
Yes
Sort
of an out of body experience when I was given nitrous oxide during oral
surgery. I saw strange colors and shapes and felt like I whooshed back into my
body 2 times during the surgery even though I didn't feel like I was out of it
until I whooshed back in. It was weird and scary. I will not have nitrous oxide
again!
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes