Quartny's
ADC
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I have had three separate experiences in the past three days. I suspect that I will have more in the future.
1. The first night I spent in my father's/my room after his death. I woke up at 4:30am and was wide awake. I was looking out of the window in bed and got many different "feelings." One was strong in that I need to contact and see my father's daughter from a previous marriage (10 yrs older than me), see her children. My father had a falling out with her when she was 20-21yrs old (about 13 years ago) and had not contacted her since. He seemed to really want me to repair the relationship. I also got a strong feeling that I was to help an illegal immigrant that had befriended my brother. Lastly, I was thinking about the age at which my father had died and how that wasn't such a bad age to go and I got an almost verbal response of "just wait until you're 56!" This response was like a thought in my head, but it wasn't my thought at all. I hope this makes sense...I didn't hear anything outloud...just internally.
2. I was again woken up at 6:30am, but I was so exhausted from the previous night, that I asked to be allowed to sleep, so I was able to relax.
3. This morning, he
helped me decide on a tattoo. I have wanted to get a tattoo for about 3 years,
but I was indecisive about what, and he guided me to a book in his room with a
picture in it. Later, I was out on a run, on a route that my father and I both
loved very much (me for running, him for biking). I saw a single great blue
heron on the lake, and then it flew off. I had just been feeling much grief
earlier in the run, but after seeing the great blue, there was a sense of peace.
Was this
experience difficult to express in words?
Uncertain
It was more
nonverbal communications between him and I; feelings and expressions rather than
language.
Did you hear the
deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?
Uncertain
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:
See #1 above
Did
the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you,
or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was
communicated?
Mostly, it has been a sense of knowing what was communicated, and a little bit
of internal communication.
Is
there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
No, it was nighttime,
and everyone else in the house was asleep. Plus, it was definitely internal.
Was
there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?
No.
Did you feel a
touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?
No
Did you see the
deceased?
No
Did you smell a
distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?
No
Could you sense the
emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
I sense a lot of my
father's feelings or emotions. He seems to be happier and stronger. I know he
suffered from depression off and on in the past few years, and I don't sense any
of that from him now (like i did when he was alive)
Did the deceased
give you information you did not previously know?
I think that
maybe he felt that he left too early...his comment about the age was pretty
strong. I didn't know really how he felt about death or when he wanted to go or
anything like that.
How do you
currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
I am a scientist, so I am not one to believe in things I do not experience for
myself. I was fully awake (I got up and went to the restroom at one point in
the first night I was awake), and was not overly distressed. I was not scared
or expecting any sort of communication at the time. I did not feel a strong
need for closure (I had seen him two days prior and was able to tell him that I
adored and loved him). It was a surprise to me.
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
No
Describe in detail
your feelings/emotions during the experience:
I was sad, in a way. I
was crying for part of it, in the beginning, because I really did miss him. As
it continued, I became more calm and felt like I was understanding more.
Was there any
emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
I think that my
sadness is less, though not gone, because I feel that he has connected himself
to me and will always be around when I need him.
What was the best
and worst part of your experience?
The best part was
mostly all of it. The worst part is that he wants to wake me up in the early
morning hours, but I think we are going to work on that.
Has your life
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Uncertain
Describe:
I think it is
too soon to tell. I feel some things changing in me. I think that my
relationship with my younger brother and mother will evolve. I hope to have a
relationship with my father's daughter. I think I will need to spend more time
spiritually listening to when he wants/ needs to communication with me.
Did you have
any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
I felt as though I had nothing to regret in my relationship with my father. We
had our ups and downs, but it was life and he loved me a lot and I loved him a
lot and there is nothing to regret or feel guilty about.
Did the experience
give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God,
etc.?
Yes
I remember believing since I was very young in an afterlife, particularly
reincarnation. My father was not a Christian, and I am. However, my father was
a good man and I cannot believe in a God that would send any sort of good people
to hell, whether they prescribed to the dogmas or not. I think that now that I
have had an experience; it helps to solidify what I previously had thought to be
true.
Death Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a
compact?
No
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
What emotions
did you feel during the experience?
Very peaceful, very
much loved by him, happy that he is in a place where he can be fully happy now.
Have you shared
this experience with others?
Yes
I talked to my mother about it. She was not surprised. Since my father and I
were close, it made sense to her that he would be communicating with me. I do
not think he has spoken to her yet, other than give her a sense of peace.
Have you shared
this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?
No
Is there anything
else you would like to add regarding your experience?
No
Were there any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did you ever in
your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other
spiritual event?
No
Did the questions
asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes
I think I pretty
much was able to cover everything
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. I can't think of anything right now.