Cannot remember event. I do know through out my life I have felt separate from the world.  I did not care about money.  It is still not an issue for me. If I am comfortable and our needs are met I am fine.  I do not care to spend my time in the pursuit of money.  My children have always been my number one priority. My grandchildren are too.  Spiritual growth has always been important to me.  I know beyond doubt a spiritual world exists.  I know my relatives are waiting for me.

I have experienced a visit from my grandmother the night of her death.  I was in AZ, she in Ky.  I could not afford to travel at the time. My heart was heavy. I was in bed almost asleep. I felt my self overlooking a beautiful valley filled with gorgeous light purple flowers. I could see a forest on each side far away. No end to the flowers before me. I found my self inside a stage coach floating along the meadow.  My Grandmother was sitting across from me, beside her was my Aunt Marie. My Grandmother hugged me. She did not speak but I understand her goodbye and my Aunts. I woke up knowing my Grandmother had passed. Unknown to me My Aunt had passed a short time prior to my grandmother. I called Ky.  My Mom told me her mother, my grandmother had passed in the early hours of the morning. 

She also told me my dads sister, my Aunt Marie had passed two weeks before.  No one had notified us. I was able to say goodbye to both. My great grandmother passed shortly before my grandmother. I had an out of body experience. I was in my great grandmothers home looking for her. I was up high looking down. I could see everything. The house was gloomy. No lights on. The smells and her home were the same as always. My great grandmother had been taken to my grandmothers house the day before. I did not know it yet.  She was too ill to care for her self. My mother was now caring for my great grandmother and my grandmother. I believe I felt my great-grandmothers distress over leaving her home. Her greatest dread.  I spent a lot of time with both my grandmothers as a teenager.  I always felt connected to my elders. I wanted to know all they knew of our family. 

I have always been greatly interested in genealogy.  Who we are is very important to me.  I feel our connections are eternal.  My cousin died at age thirty-six of lung cancer.  Twelve years later I dreamt of Lucy, my cousin.  She was smiling and radiant.  Lucy held out a baby for me to look at.  I could not make out the babies face. I could see he had lots of hair.  I felt Lucy's thoughts. She was letting me know the baby would be well cared for, not to worry.  Shortly after we learned my step-daughter had delivered a son with lots of hair.  He passed shortly after his birth.  I knew Lucy had let me know the baby is where he is suppose to be.  I have had many experiences such as these.  I also have seen places before I get to them.  I recognize God has prepared me for this experience. This is how I know I am loved.  I feel loved. I feel everything happens for a reason.  We all have a purpose, a reason for being here.  The only thing I fear about death is leaving behind my family.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     I was to young to remember.  My Mother tells me I came very close to death. Says I was a miracle baby. My Dads prayers healed me.  The doctors were amazed I did not have any apparent damage due to illness.  I was told I could have been left with cerebral palsy, deaf and many other horrible handicaps.  God healed me.  My Dad was a healer.  I witnessed his prayers and seen the healing as a child.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     spinal meningitis.  I was in isolation and a very sick infant.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I wish I could remember. I know I have a sense of well being that stays with me.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            wish i knew

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Uncertain      I know when I experience visions seeing my relatives whom have passed it is extremely vivid, clear and beautiful

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Uncertain      I feel you do not actually speak in the spiritual realm

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I have felt this sense my illness.  Do not remember illness its self

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     Have seen tunnel or hall way like in temple in experiences concerning relatives deaths in passing I see them and feel the experience

Did you see a light?           Yes     Have sense experience

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     in witnessing passing of eight year old I saw her guide. I felt her pass through a four foot white wall I could not go through. She whisked by me like a butterfly giggling and happy to be free.  The guide looked just like her dad. Her face was light. His face was illuminated. The hall Elizabeth passed into was bright light sloping upward. All was light and white. The guide had his are extended showing Elizabeth the way to go. I knew Elizabeth had passed when I awoke.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Uncertain      I was too young

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           Yes            when my grandmother passed I was in gorgeous meadow.  When Elizabeth passed I was in hall of Temple.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     I have always felt protected.  I have always known God is real. I know we all will return to the spiritual world.  I am not afraid of the dead. I feel privileged to share in the passing experiences. I do not believe in hell as taught by most religions.  I know I am here for a reason.  It is our job to take care on one another.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events?       Uncertain
            I see places before I get to them.  I dreamt I had gone to a goodwill store.  While shopping I was attacke and raped.  Two weeks later I stopped at a goodwill store.  The storefront was exactly as the one in my dream. The window was set up exactly the same. I fled immediately.  I felt if i entered the store my dream would come true.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain      I was an infant at time of experience.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I have told my children of my experiences.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No            always believed in them.  I believe that is why the LDS church attracted me.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I cannot as I was an infant.  I know it was real

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?
How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I know it was real.  I see and feel to much to deny it

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Uncertain            Being an infant I was changed early in life.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes            Yes, I definitely believe it has affected my religious beliefs. I could not agree with all of any religion.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Uncertain      It is difficult for me due to being an infant at time of experience.  I know it was life changing.  I know if not for healing powers of my father I would not be the person I am today.  I was told I have an extremely narrow spinal cord.  About half the spinal fluid I should have. I also have myotonia.  A muscle disorder. I have been protected from both most of my life.