Paula
C's
ADC
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The night before the
burial of my son before I went to sleep is when it started. I was laying in bed
and heard some clanking at the end of my bed. Rees loved to lay on the floor and
play with the hanging knobs on my dresser. They made a clanking sound when he
moved them he played with them while I would be folding clothes. I realized
what the sound was and went to the end of the bed and said "Rees it's nite nite
time, I love you" and it stopped. My husband didn't hear me so when it stopped
I thought I had just been hearing things. I laid down and went to sleep and
ended up in this room that was all white with other people sitting on benches as
I then realized I was sitting on a bench also. I was looking around turned to
my right and realized there was a basket sitting next to me. I looked in and
saw my son. He opened his eyes and smiled that beautiful smile he had. He was
always a very happy boy. I reached in and picked him up. He was a very healthy
boy so he was heavy. I sat with him and he talked with me our lips did not
move it was only with thought back and forth. He told me he was okay and he
loved me. We sat for a long time and then he said it was time to go. I gave him
a hug and kiss told him I loved him and placed him carefully back in the
basket. Rees said "Please don't cry mommy" and then the baskets were all gone.
I realized the other people around me were there to say goodbye to their kids.
I woke up it was morning and my arm hurt so bad and I cried. Nothing else
since. But I know my daughter also had an experience with their brother yet
another story.
Was this
experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
Yes didn't think
anyone would believe me
Did you hear the
deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?
Uncertain
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:
It was a voice
but it was not possible for and 8 1/2 month old to speak and it was through our
thoughts.
Did
the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you,
or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was
communicated?
inside
If
you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound
the deceased made when they were alive?
it was a child's voice
Is
there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
No it was night and
everyone in the house was asleep
Was
there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?
no
Did you feel a
touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?
Yes
the weight of him in
my arms
Was
the touch familiar or unfamiliar?
very familiar like he
had never left.
Was
anything communicated by the touch?
no
Is
there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
no
Did you see the
deceased?
Yes
He was very much
himself no difference in his appearance except he looked very much alive.
How
clearly did the deceased appear?
solid as I said like he
had never left
How
much of the deceased did you see?
his face his chubby
arms and fingers and his dark soft hair
Did
the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?
same age as when he
died
How
healthy did the deceased appear to be?
he was a healthy boy
and looked just like he did before he died.
Is
there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
no
Did you smell a
distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?
No
How long did the
experience last?
I went to bed at
around 10 at night and work up to my daughters getting up around 8am
Was the beginning
and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
gradual
Could you sense the
emotions or mood of the deceased?
Uncertain
Did the deceased
give you information you did not previously know?
no
How do you
currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
I have had other experiences with a couple of other family members that passed
so I believe it to definitely be real
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
No
Describe in detail
your feelings/emotions during the experience:
relaxed, loved,
relieved, sad
Was there any
emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Uncertain
felt I could move
forward when I knew he was safe but still missed him terribly.
What was the best
and worst part of your experience?
Best- holding him again
and getting to kiss on him
worst - saying goodbye.
Has your life
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Describe:
Yes with my
daughters and I can't figure out what it is if that makes sense.
Death Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact?
Yes
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
What emotions
did you feel during the experience?
loved, sad
knowledgeable, felt I could go on and give to my girls what I thought I had
lost.
Was the experience
witnessed or experienced by others?
No
Did you have any
sense of altered space or time?
No
Did you have a
sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you become
aware of future events?
No
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?
N0 comment
Did you experience
a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Uncertain
I felt I was there
but never saw myself just my son and I was holding him.
Did you meet or see
any other beings other than the deceased?
No
Did you see a
light?
No
Just a white room
Did any part of
your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described
above?
No
Have you shared
this experience with others?
Yes
My daughters when they got older. My now husband and my son Keenan. All of
them have shared their experiences with me. They were all pleased that I shared
it was an emotional time.
Have you shared
this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?
No
Were there any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes
My stepson-
different things happening around the house when I talk out loud to him. things
moving or falling like he is trying to tell me he is here.