I was sitting on my bed with one foot on the floor and the other on the bed, I had only been home for about 10 or 15 minutes after leaving the hospital.

My mini blinds were closed but the blackout curtains in my bedroom were open. At that time I was also living alone in a 3 bedroom house.

I had spent a couple of nights at the hospital with my mom that week and had came home just to kill some time and pay a few bills on my computer.

I had paid a few other bills and was in the middle of confirming my payment of my Lowes credit card and it was like something spoke to me, but in what I can only describe as in a telepathic manner..like hearing without the sound going into my ears.

The sound seemed to come from someone that seemed like they were 1 to 2 miles away but inside of the room at the same time

The sound or source of the sound also seemed to be directional which caused me to look towards what I would later discover was a NW direction from my house.

I then began to see what I can only describe as a vibrating point of extremely bright light which seemed to be coming towards me from more than a mile away.

Something like a (portal) began to form and slowly spread outwardly from the bright light which was at the center..kind of like the opposite of what a person sees when they are about to pass out and start losing their peripheral vision.

If you can imagine it was like reverse tunnel vision.

The surfaces layers of the doors and walls started to suddenly disappear until I could see into my kitchen and then the dining room and through the left rear corner wall of the house..until I could the sunlight and the trees outside.

While all of this was happening the bright vibrating light was coming closer and appearing to get larger..then the trees started to disappear.

The light was coming toward me and a telepathic voice called me 'son' in my mother's voice but it was in a way that I had never heard her voice.. My mother had a very raspy voice which was caused by 40 years of smoking 2 packs of Winston cigarettes per day.

Her voice was extremely clear, soft and she sounded so excited and happier than I had ever seen her. She had suffered from post-partum depression after I was born and had suffered from depression for most of my life.

Then something happened to me which I can only describe as an out of body experience, although I've looked for ADC/OBE reports since that day and I could only find one that was almost exactly described as my own.

It seemed as if my own spirit, consciousness was outside of my own body but still tethered to my physical body somehow. We were suddenly both in what seemed like another dimension and we're completely surrounded by what seemed like the darkness of outer space but I couldn't perceive any points of light or any object other than her own spirit or light.

I couldn't see anything else, I couldn't feel the sensation of anything, I couldn't hear the sound of anything..it was as if I was out of my own body and didn't have a body to experience any of my 5 senses.

In that seemingly empty black darkness with only my mother's light, I was overwhelmed and surrounded with the greatest feeling of love that I've ever experienced.

I've never experienced feeling loved that much in my entire life, if all of the love I've felt and received my entire life were combined it would only be about 2% of the love that my spirit felt in that place or dimension.

It was as if I were being loved by what I can only describe as being loved by a great (ALL).

It was so beautiful that I wanted to stay there forever...there was no anger, no hate, no loneliness, no fear, no sadness, no pain, no grief and no suffering there.

She was happier than I had ever seen her in my entire life as if all of her burdens had been lifted.

I can't remember all that she communicated to me in that place but I do remember the most important things that she said to me.

She told me that she was  'going back to where we all came from, don't be to be sad for her because she free from all of the pain that she experienced during her life, that we will all be together again someday, she thanked me for forgiving her and for loving her as much as I did during her lifetime'.

Then it was like I was suddenly pulled out of that place and sucked right back into my body..as if I had only blinked my eyes for a few seconds..only to see a bright light suddenly pass the the opposite corner wall of my bedroom.

Her spirit/ light seemed to be moving extremely fast in a southeastern direction and then it was all over.

Then I started to question my own sanity and mental health..mainly being worried that I might have Schizophrenia although I've never heard of anyone on either side of my family having it.

Then I tried  to deny what had just happened and thought maybe all of that was just my imagination, because my mother was fine and even laughing shortly before they were taking her back to the ICU for observation and the doctor even said it wasn't anything serious.

I was very conflicted after that because it all seemed really, no matter how illogical and irrational it all seemed.

I couldn't deny it and I became extremely afraid that my mother had just died at the hospital and that she was somehow able to say goodbye and communicate some secret knowledge or forbidden knowledge to me about the afterlife.

I actually began to pray that no one would call my phone before I got back to the hospital, but deep in my heart.. I already knew there was no reason to go back there because she wasn't there any longer...only her body and my grieving sisters.

I felt really bad for my sisters because they never got a chance to forgive my mother or hear her give a real heartfelt apology to them for things that had happened to them.

The day before she died I had a disagreement with my oldest sister and had tried to tell her to delay mom's minor surgery because she wasn't strong enough to survive even minor surgery.

She had fallen into a deep depression several weeks earlier and had stopped eating and taking her heart medications.

Which is why she had a minor stroke a week earlier.

I'm my mother's youngest child and her only son..so my older sisters have never listened to me or taken my advice.

When mom did survive the minor surgery that morning and the called us to the recovery room I was so happy that my intuition was wrong.

My sisters were in the recovery room eating, laughing and joking but for some reason I couldn't be in the same happy mood that they were in, my complete attention was on mom, I couldn't stop trying to comfort her by holding her hand, kissing her forehead, stroking her hair and telling her how much I loved her.

My sister's stayed in the recovery room after they start to roll mom into the ICU for observation but I stayed with her until I wasn't allowed to go any further, I kissed her and told her that I loved her for the last time that day, not knowing that she would die less than an hour later.

It took me a couple of years to find the courage to share my ADC experience with anyone and since that day..almost 16 years ago I have probably only talked about it to 6 or 7 people.

I really don't know if my experience was a blessing or a curse, my life has been extremely difficult since that October day.

Within a month after my ADC I started having severe daily headaches and stroke-like symptoms that continued daily for the next 11 years.

Doctors couldn't find the cause of the headaches or any solution.

During the following 11 years there were several other paranormal experiences that happened in that house but there was never another ADC w/OBE.

My father died almost 5 years later.. in my arms at the our local hospice.

There were no other ADCs that ever happened when I was fully awake after that day but I do have regular vivid dreams about my father where we spend lots of time together that seem almost real.

Immediately after my father was dying.. while I was holding him in my arms, there was a moment when he was still there in his body and then he wasn't.

I felt the presence of his spirit and another being behind me in the hospice room..watching me holding him.

The feeling was so strong that I actually turned around and looked to see If I could see anything and then they were both gone.

It also seemed to open the door to other positive and negative paranormal experiences which I never thought I would ever experience.

I honestly think that such experiences.. such as communicating with the dead, break universal, religious and dimensional laws in some kind.

It's not something that I intentionally tried to do or cause to happen..it seems more like I was just open to experiencing  it or invited to experience it.

It wasn't something that I thought was possible until it happened, I also didn't think such experiences were impossible.

Time actually seems to be slower there

The whole experience seemed like it lasted for about 10 minutes

Was this experience difficult to express in words?     Yes

Because the experience was real to me but completely conflicts with any and all logic and rationality at that moment because my mother survived the minor surgery.

I had left the hospital around noon, she had been in recovery for about 2 hours and seemed fine and in an unusually happy and cheerful mood.

They said that they needed to take her back to ICU for observation but it wasn't anything serious.

I have no history of any hallucinations or any serious psychological problems or disorders. After the ADC I was really in denial about what I had just experienced and there was no way that my mom could be at the hospital and my home at the same time.

I kept trying to tell myself that none of it really happened but it seemed so real.

After trying to understand what just happened, how and why it happened..I tried to tell myself that it was just my imagination but immediately became worried that my phone might ring before I got back to the hospital to see her.

About 10 minutes after the experience my phone rang, my sister was trying to talk normal and told me to come back to the hospital but refused to tell me why.

That's when I began to believe that what I experienced really had happened.

I had never heard of ADCs at that time and didn't know how to tell anyone and feared that anyone I told would think that I was crazy because that what I would have believed if someone told me about the same experience.

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?      No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

          Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:   I heard something in a telepathic manner say the word 'son' to me.

          Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?     It seemed to come for the outside and the inside but not through my ears

          If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?     Similar but as if the person had not been a smoker for more than 40 years

          Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   Absolutely not, nothing was on except my compute..which only had the web browser open on the Lowes credit card payment website. When I heard the word 'son' I actually looked up and away from the computer because the sound seemed to be coming from my bedroom wall and doorway

          Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   Only during the beginning, throughout and to the end of the OBE portion of the experience

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?         No

Did you see the deceased?       No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No

How long did the experience last?      The OBE part of the experience seemed like 10 to 15 minutes but the non OBE Part seemed like a few seconds

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?       It was sudden and gradual, time or my perception of time seemed to be very different..slow during the OBE part and fast during the non OBE part

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          Yes  extremely happy, full of joy, love and gratitude.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  Yes, that she was going back to where we all come from, that she was grateful that I forgave her, she loved me and the we would all be together again one day.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

          Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   Because I can't forget it,I've tried many times, it was the most amazing and astonishing thing that I've ever experienced. I would doubt my experience if it hadn't happened immediately after she died and while I felt certain that she wasn't at risk of dying.

          Was the experience dream like in any way?  No           

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  Happy for my mother, extremely loved and reassured by my mother and the universe, not wanting to come back to my body and my life without my mother, sad at the end that couldn't stay in that place surrounded by love

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes

Many of the wounds and scars from my own childhood trauma and wounds were healed, I finally learned to love and accept myself

What was the best and worst part of your experience?          Knowing that there is life after death and feeling love like I've never felt before.

The worst, was knowing that my mom had died but not wanting to believe or accept it before anyone told me that she had died. 

What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have?

Sacred
Life-changing  
           
Other belief  
I lost my need to have faith and feeling uncertain about the possibility of an afterlife   

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?      No     

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Yes    That there is a purpose to our lives, the more that we suffer the closer we become to God.  Also..that there is a creator that is one and a many that are also one

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?    No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes When my oldest sister called me 5 to 10 minutes later and told me to come back to the hospital early but refused to tell me why.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Confusion, excitement, denial, fear, grief, certainty and uncertainty

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes  A second here seems to be a whole minute there in that other space or dimension.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Yes

Yes, it seems that we are sent here for our souls to be tested, to see how much we can love and continue to love ourselves, our creator and  all others, including the stranger, while experiencing greater and greater suffering and pain without inflicting that pain and suffering onto others or killing ourselves.

Did you become aware of future events?      Yes

Only through symbolic dreams and sometimes conscious 'flashes' that I usually don't understand until after those event happen.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      Uncertain

I was able to tell people about their own tramatic experiences without them giving me any clues about their past.

Many people say that I'm psychic but I don't believe in psychics..it's mostly an increased ability to see patterns, pattern recognition and being very empathic.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   Yes

It was like being detach or detached but tethered to my body and not being able to use any of my bodies 5 senses.

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?       No

Did you see a light?        Yes

I saw the approaching vibrating light when the experience started which looked similar to what I would imagine viewing horizontal vibrating lighting that was white to yellow in color.

During the OBE part the light was calm white and stationary but glowing brighly.. similar to a single bright white star viewed through a telescope.

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?     Yes

It seemed to be in space but I didn't see any planets or stars, the passing of time also seemed to be different there.

I couldn't understand how I could be surrounded by so much love but not able to see the source.  As I said before it was like being loved by an 'All' or the 'All'

Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?          No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.       None