My husband passed away 4 months ago. We had an amazing marriage for almost 30 years but I never dream about him, except for only once or twice since the accident. In However,  I have had 4 or 5 times a weird experience, which starts always in the same way.  I am lying in bed, waiting for sleep. I'm awake as I can clearly remember the time on the clock afterwards. And then, I fall in a kind of sleep/awake state. I can clearly think, I know that I am lying in bed and I'm aware of the position of my body under the blankets. I don't see him in my dream, it's not a visual experience. It's a physical one. I can feel him hugging me through the blankets. The last time I said to him "hold me" and he did it. I said again "hold me tight" and I could feel his arms trying to push harder through the blankets. It felt like a very "familiar" touch, I simply knew it was him! And then I wake up and the feeling of physical contact immediately vanishes. The first three of four times I thought it was just my imagination, but since the last time, about 10 days ago,  I'm not so sure that it is only a dream or a kind of hallucination. If it was a dream why should I feel the pressure through the blankets? I would probably feel the contact of his hand directly on my skin, but it was so clear that the blankets were an obstacle. This detail made the experience so real!

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

hugging through the blankets

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   familiar

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  a feeling of sadness

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  no I was alone in an empty bedroom at night

Did you see the deceased?         No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        just a few minutes. I could remember reading the time on the clock on the bedside table before the experience and I could see that it was only a few minutes later when I woke up

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         Sudden

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

Sadness, frustration for what happened to me and his children because of his death

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was probably real

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Very emotional to have contact with him.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Uncertain

A little, tiny hope that one day I will see him again.
 
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?   No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I hoped he would be happy but I can feel his sadness because he had to leave us alone. It seems he can not accept that just like us.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       I would like to be contacted by people who had similar experiences

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes