Getting onto the freeway.. I had the music turned at zero. I wanted a sign from her passing. My iPhone automatically chooses a song from my list of songs (500+ songs.. Some I've never heard before) it selected a song with the title "I will protect you". While my g-ma was on hospice I asked her to protect me. I also asked her in the hrs before her death to protect me again. I had told her it was ok to leave and be with God. I left work an hr later I got the call she had declined.

I took a picture of the song on my speedometer and didn't realize there was a reflection of a face in it. A relative sent a picture later in the day that resembled the face. I didn't see the face until my mother pointed it out at the end of the night. .. Also the next day there was a silhouette profile in my rear view mirror of her. It looks identical to her. There was nothing in my trunk that could reflect an image like that.. Nothing at all

Was the experience difficult to express in words?     No  

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?   No                                   

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?   No                   

Did you see the deceased?   Yes    It was their profile silhouette.. It was identical to a picture I took before the deceased passed.

How clearly did the deceased appear?   Solid

How much of the deceased did you see?    Only the head shape

Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?   It appeared in the figure of the face on my speedometer of her when she was younger. The one in my rear mirror reflection off my back window was of her in old age perhaps?

How healthy did the deceased appear to be?    She had dementia for 13 yrs. She hasn't been able to remember how to speak English in the last 5-6 yrs. Spanish being her first language. She hasn't been able to communicate verbally For about 5 yrs. in the time of us finding out she was shutting down she became incoherent.. Almost like a baby state again. I asked her to protect me an she shook her head yes. My mother witnessed it. I also asked her on the day I said it was ok to let go to also protect me an my dirtier

children..

Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?    Not that I believe.. She has tears in her eyes shortly after her last breath. She was incredibly close with my mother, sister and I. I feel like I am mourning a loss of my mother cause she raised me. The tears were either of sadness or happiness to let go

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?    Uncertain

What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?    I kept smelling her prior to her passing. I would take showers after visits with her an I could still smell her scent. Afterwards not so much. But it's only been 3 days

Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?    The smell was of a lotion she used when I was a child. I was also rubbing that lotion on her body to massage her with it. The other smell was of her breath from her thrush. It had a distinct yeast smell.

Was anything communicated by the smell?    Not that I know of

Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?    Yes perhaps telling me I needed to spend the night with her? Not sure

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?   Yes     She seemed at peace an happy. We were told when asked if we wanted her cleaned up that she had tears in her eyes an on her cheeks

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?   No information. Just nodded once to answer my question to her

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?    Experience was definitely real    I just can't explain why they were happening..unless I want to believe they are signs from her or other family. I had ordered flowers for a client who was helping me cope with her phases of death. (She was a nurse an also lost her mother the yr before.. Her mother was on hospice too) I asked her for many suggestions to make her as comfortable as possible. She was guiding me. I sent her flowers as a thank you and she received them the exact time of my grandmothers passing. I ordered them the day before and they were supposed to be same day delivery. They were delivered the fallowing day

Was the experience dream like in any way?    No   

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?    Yes    The confirmation she is giving me signs she's there.. But still I won't physically see her even thought she didn't know I visited her or even if I was there

What was the best and worst part of your experience?    The best part was being surprised it happened so quickly. The worst part is doubting myself an thinking I'm crazy. I don't want people to think I'm seeking it constantly. I really feel like she is coming through to tell me she's there an ok

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?    Yes    Prob just my daily life.. I am going to mourning her not in my life forever. She was everything to me. I will probably constantly think of her.. I knew that when this day would come I wouldn't be able to get over her. I will miss her deeply    

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?    Yes    Well before I used to be afraid of wanting to see things.. Now I'm very open to the experience. I

Would prob be afraid of a physical shape..

Maybe

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?    Yes    I just was reconfirmed there are spirits within us an there is life after death

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   Yes The same song "I will protect you" kept coming on in the car even after I switched it to the next song. Only for the whole day after she passed

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?    No   

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?       No   

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?        No   

Did you become aware of future events?           No   

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     No   

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?    No   

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?    No   

Did you see a light?    No   

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?   Yes    I've had other little hints an things other than in the car

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes    My mother. She believes it cause she's experienced it as well. She too believe her mother is reaching out to me because she was the closet and I am the most affected. I was at the nursing home everyday. My sister is also a believer. She is jealous I am getting the most confirmations from her. An a cousin who was deeply close with her wants to be with me since she has come to see me.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?    No        

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?    No   

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   No   

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      No