Mark N's
ADC
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My experience occurred
specifically in a dream. The day before, I had been preoccupied with thoughts of
someone who was an old school friend and who had died, I believe by suicide,
eighteen years ago. This person was female and I had last seen her six years
before she passed over when we dated each other briefly. I would say I had
'feelings' for her as well as happy memories from being in high school together.
During the day, I decided to talk out loud and also mentally, directly to this
person. I asked them to come to me in a dream that night. I was skeptical about
anything happening but before I went to sleep I again directed this question in
my mind toward this person. Whilst sleeping I had several periods of dreaming
and once I awoke, thinking that this person had not appeared to me in my dreams.
Then I slept again and had a further dream in which this person became a
presence. This was brief and surreal but I recalled clearly feeling their
presence in one part of my dream. It was not visually vivid and I did not
recognize the person visually in the dream but it felt uniquely like that person
and how I remember her in terms of ambience and personality. In the dream the
being, though shadowy, embraced me and 'told' me telepathically, they had also
thought of me (perhaps this explains my unusual preoccupation with thoughts of
her the previous day). When I awoke, I had a clear memory of this dream and a
strong, intuitive feeling that communication with a spirit presence I could
clearly identify with this person had taken place. Interestingly, I never think
of this person as being dead and gone i.e. though they are deceased their
existence is still somehow vivid to me.
Was this
experience difficult to express in words?
No
Did you ONLY sense
an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing,
feeling or smelling them?
Yes
Did you hear the
deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?
No
Did you feel a
touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?
Yes
An embrace.
Was
the touch familiar or unfamiliar?
Familiar. As I remember
from past experience.
Was
anything communicated by the touch?
It was a feeling of
caring/love.
Is
there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
No
Did you see the
deceased?
Yes
In this dream I saw
a shadowy figure; not clearly defined in terms of their physical features but
clearly communicated to me in terms of their presence and persona.
How
clearly did the deceased appear?
Not visually clearly.
How
much of the deceased did you see?
A bodily outline.
Did
the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?
Their apparition was
different from their physical appearance when alive. In other words, there were
not clearly defined physical features. Their characteristics were communicated
in an ambient way.
How
healthy did the deceased appear to be?
Physically, I cannot
comment. Otherwise they appeared not entirely happy whilst not decidedly
unhappy, as though they were in a state of transience, perhaps or emotional
limbo.
Is
there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
No
Did you smell a
distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?
No
How long did the
experience last?
Difficult to say
but it was brief.
Was the beginning
and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
In the context
of the dream, it was surreal.
Could you sense the
emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
See 7 above. I felt
a sense of emotional unease from their presence.
Did the deceased
give you information you did not previously know?
No
How do you
currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was probably
real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
I am inclined to think it was real because I have powerful intuitive feelings
about it.
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
Yes
It took place within
a dream.
Describe in
detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:
It felt strange though
familiar.
Was there any
emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
I felt that the
spirit of the person knew I cared about them.
What was the best
and worst part of your experience?
The best was feeling it
was a spirit of someone I knew in life. The worst was being uncertain that they
were happy.
Has your life
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Uncertain
Did you have
any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Uncertain
Did the experience
give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God,
etc.? Yes It helps to affirm aspects of my own searching and questioning
about afterlife.
Death Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a
compact?
No
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
What emotions
did you feel during the experience?
I felt it had touched
me on a deep level.
Was the experience
witnessed or experienced by others?
No
Did you have any
sense of altered space or time?
No
Did you have a
sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you become
aware of future events?
No
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?
No
Did you experience
a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
Did you meet or see
any other beings other than the deceased?
No
Did you see a
light?
No
The context and
surroundings were decidedly dim/dark.
Did any part of
your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described
above?
No
Have you shared
this experience with others?
No
Have you shared
this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?
No
Is there anything
else you would like to add regarding your experience?
No
Were there any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did you ever in
your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other
spiritual event?
Yes
I have in the past
experienced levitation of part of my body from the bed and of the bed itself
whilst in bed at night. I consider these to be paranormal occurrences connected
with psychic disturbance/turbulence.
Did the questions
asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes
Please offer any
suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
It seems quite
thorough.