After my husband died, I stayed at my parents for a week. I cant describe my grief. My husband and I were very close, no child, we lived for each other. I was asleep one night and I know this was no dream, I felt something, somebody laying just next to me and holding me very tight. Then I realized it was him, he used to hold me this way at night. He was there just against me. I remember holding his hand, I actually felt it and hold it very tight against my breast. I felt his breath on my neck and his particular smell. He was there Im certain. Since then I feel well, even if I still grieve and burst in tears sometimes, but he came to comfort me. I know he is o.k. Since then I got the feeling he still is with me, he stands by me and protects me night and day. I still feel him against me at night. He is not dead, he really is alive under another form.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

The feeling and the well-being

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

When he laid against me, I really felt it. Also one night he sat on my foot. This awoke me, I saw his shadow which vanished swiftly.

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  Yes, that he still is here.

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  No, it actually was my husband.

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

His shadow next to the bed, as if I would see him in darkness, but I recognized him, the way he sat, his attitude.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Solid, full body

            How much of the deceased did you see?       All

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       Yes

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            My husband had kidney cancer for 2 years. He just underwent quite heavy surgery twice and was recovering when everything went wrong. Bad gas and blood parameters which showed inflammation and infection.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           NO

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      Yes

            What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?           My husbands skin smelled raspberry. For 22 years I used to tell him so. This occurred several times while working in the house, or in the garage, or while watching TV. There was some kind of draught/ breeze which smelled raspberry/his skin for a split second.

            Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?     Very familiar

            Was anything communicated by the smell?   Yes, that he was there all around me.

            Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?        No

How long did the experience last?        A few seconds, even one minute maximum

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         Sudden

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           I am somebody very grounded, I never take any medicine and I actually felt it

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No         

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Indefinable well-being, comfort, the feeling my beloved did not abandon me.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I shall need time to get used to physically lacking my husband, but I feel well now I know he still is here even if I cannot touch him, see him, kiss him.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      There is no worse part. The whole experience is something wonderful.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:      I am more at peace

What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have?
             
Life-changing            Joy    

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I believe I got closer to Jesus and God, even if I am a believer. The feeling is even stronger.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            No comment            Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?     No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Happiness despite grief.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I told my parents and they believed me. I told a friend also, she did have a NDE and she said he is well and happy where he is.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

Questions are really thorough and allow for good answers.