Margaret S ADC
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I
was so devastated by the news of his death, I ended staying up till 4am just
trying to grapple with the fact that he was gone. I was flooded with feelings of
regret, guilt, sorrow and loss. It had been quite a while since I'd seen him in
the flesh (about 10 yrs, hence the guilt and regret), but we did stay in touch
via phone calls, emails, texting, about once/twice a week during those years. I
was sitting on the couch, wiping my tears and blowing my nose, when I heard his
voice, clear as a bell, inside my head: “I knew it as soon as I hit the water” ~
he died trying to rescue his dinghy, which had detached from his sailboat, which
was moored to a log boom on Lake Champlain.
He
had no way back to shore without the dinghy. I know in my heart he didn’t even
think once about the temperature of the water. In mid-late October, the temp of
Lake Champlain hovers around 52 degrees. He looked at the dinghy, floating away,
but still fairly close. He thought “I can do this” - He stripped down to his
skivvies, and jumped in. <-This is actually speculation on my part, and on the
part of his family, but I’m sure what he has shown me is pretty much accurate as
far as the events of that day.
Was this experience difficult to express in words?
No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the
deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?
Yes
Did you hear the deceased or hear something
associated with the deceased?
Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was
communicated:
I heard his voice inside my head.
Did the voice or sound seem to
originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice
or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?
It was completely inside my head. And it was in his
voice.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar
from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?
Similar.
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other
source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?
No.
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time
of the experience?
No.
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical
contact from the deceased?
No
Did you see the deceased?
No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance
or odor associated with the deceased?
No
How long did the experience last?
Several minutes.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
gradual.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
He was explaining to me, like he was sitting next to me. Very casual.
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?
Yes.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
Because this is someone I have known for over 30
years. I KNOW his voice. I know who he is, what his personality is like. He has
continued to show me these signs and has continued to send me messages.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
No
Describe in detail
your feelings/emotions during the experience:
Shock, Surprise, but a knowing. A certainty. It was no one else but him.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
If he was going to communicate with me, I was going to make sure he had
every opportunity to do that. I wanted to hear from him. I wanted to know where
he was, what he was doing, what he was thinking.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
The best? The fact that he is still here with me. The fact that he is now
one of my spirit guides. The fact that I can talk to him everyday. the worst
part? I'll never see him again in the flesh. I'll never hear his voice in this
realm again. I'll never get a voice mail from him again. I miss his physical
presence, terribly. But our love binds us, through all our lives, not just this
current one we shared.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of
your experience?
Yes
Describe:
Luckily, my hubs
hasn't really objected to my new found direction. He can't really be jealous of
a dead guy now, can he? But it has significantly changed my daily life. I'm much
happier, I'm much less emotionally attached to trivial outcomes, I'm much less
attached to all worldly things. Material things. My primary goal now is
spiritual growth, connecting with the divine, channeling my purpose.
Did you have any
changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes I feel I've evaded
my higher purpose my whole life. Communicating with G has taught me to find my
higher purpose and start living it. No more wasting time.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life,
death, afterlife, God, etc.?
Yes It changed me. Once
he started talking to me, I felt I was either truly hearing him, or losing my
mind. I found a medium, and arranged a meeting. She was super. Told me I wasn't
crazy, that indeed, he was reaching out to me.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your
experience that could be verified later?
No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
curiosity, surprise.
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?
No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special
knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
A certainty that he was 'showing me' things. He pointed me to many, many
things since that first experience. My life is changing, rapidly.
Did you become aware of future events?
No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other
special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the
experience?
Yes
I've been told, for years that I'm a sensitive, a psychic, and an empath.
But I never focused on those things. I was too busy trying to make a living,
keep my head above water (hmm water reference there) and fulfill a few dreams
along the way.
Did you experience a separation of your
consciousness from your body?
No
Did you meet or see any other beings other than
the deceased?
No
Did you see a light?
No
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a
place other than the location described above?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes
Well, a few people. Some have reacted
favorably. Some have said 'don't tell anyone this' ~
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other
researcher or web site?
No
Is there anything else you would
like to add regarding your experience?
I've had many, many communications with him since that first one. I'm now
meditating daily, trying to hone my own channeling skills, connecting to my
highest guides, (him included) and discerning my own life purpose, so I can live
it NOW. I never, ever would have imagined, all those years ago when I met him
(1986) that he would end up being one of my spirit guides. This is not something
I EVER expected or even thought about prior to this event.
Were there any associated medications or substances with the
potential to affect the experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body
experience or other spiritual event?
No
Did the questions asked and information you
provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?
Uncertain