Madi M's
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2) I was sitting in our home about two weeks after my husband's death feeling miserable and knitting a blanket I had started for us while he was alive - he had chosen the colors and it was to be our forever blanket. I was just sitting watching TV and knitting away, for several hours. Suddenly I felt a warm, heavy presence settle on me starting at my ankles and slowly as if laying down on top of me I felt the heaviness spread to the top of my head. My whole body tingled and I suddenly felt an amazing love surround me. The TV - which has never done this before or since - suddenly lost signal for about 5 seconds, then the signal came back for 5 seconds then it was lost again, this happened for several minutes about 6 times total. I turned off the TV and went to sleep, hoping to have a dream about him.
3) About 2.5 weeks after my husband died, I had an incredible dream. My husband was a trained physicist who studied deep space events and had a determined belief that there is no afterlife. He explained to me many times that the physics of it makes such a thing simply impossible. In the dream I had (clear, vivid and each detail I can remember, voice tones, colors, clothing, smells, sounds, facial expressions etc.) my husband came rested next to me in bed, took my hands and gently tugged me out of my body. He smiled broadly at me, looking like he had just a few years before with his hair style. He asked me where I wanted to go to which I responded the happiest place in the world - he took me threw the window, holding my hand the whole time and we flew to a tiny village just across the border of northern Italy. There was a wedding party and we danced and danced to the folk music together, laughing and smiling and hugging, cheering on the bride and groom along with the rest of the village. We danced just on the edge of the 'real' guests. After this he took me to an apple orchard in full bloom just behind the village, he explained to me that he was living in 'space-time' and I asked 'in between space and time?' and he said sort-of, not exactly but that is close enough. He then said here, let me show you and suddenly he made all of the apple blossoms come into fruit, he stopped and smiled at me, then he made the orchard being to ripen after which he picked an apple and handed it to me - smiling the whole time. Isn't this beautiful my love? he asked me, often as he had while alive. It was magical and then the dream ended. I haven't had a dream about him since though I often feel his presence, I think he told me what he wanted to share and is busy enjoying himself.
4) Another experience was with our 1 year old puppy. I was sad and making myself tea in the kitchen one night, the puppy was standing in the kitchen watching me. out of the blue I just felt like saying 'Quinn? (our puppy) Where's Daddy? Where's A-----?" Our puppy turned around and looked at the dinning room table where one chair was pulled out and had nothing in front of it except a small case of CDs from my husband's car. Thinking this was strange I said again Where is he? Our dog turned all the way around, trotted out of the kitchen and sat at the foot of this chair, ears up staring intently at the empty chair, then turned to look over his shoulder back at me - as if to say - right here silly, but he looked very serious, mouth closed and sad eyes, which is not part of his average playful puppy character. I stood next to the chair a long time, I told my husband I miss him deeply and I got the feeling of "yes, I know" back.
5) Finally. My husband
wanted to be cremated. I told him I am still your wife and you have to
compromise with me a little bit. I had him buried without cremation. I woke up
one morning to the strong smell of formaldehyde and what can only be described
in my mind as embalming fluid. I think he was expressing his displeasure with my
choice, but I didn't feel like he was angry, I just felt like he was saying 'how
would you like it?' but that he understood my choice and didn't care too much.
Was this
experience difficult to express in words?
No
Did you ONLY sense
an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing,
feeling or smelling them?
No
Did you hear the
deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?
Yes
Did
the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you,
or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was
communicated?
Outside.
If
you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound
the deceased made when they were alive?
No it was exactly the
same. My sister says it was identical to my husband's voice
Is
there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
No.
Was
there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?
No.
Did you feel a
touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?
Yes
It felt like a
heavy, warm hug that covered my whole body.
Was
the touch familiar or unfamiliar?
Both familiar and
unfamiliar, I've never had a hug that felt like it wrapped around my whole body.
But the touch was not foreign - it felt familiar.
Was
anything communicated by the touch?
Love. Warmth.
Is
there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
No.
Did you see the
deceased?
Yes
In a dream. His hair
was the way it was a few years before he passed away, he had told me he wanted
to grow his hair to be like that again.
How
clearly did the deceased appear?
In the dream he was
living, 100% solid.
How
much of the deceased did you see?
All.
Did
the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?
He was about the
same age, he died at 37, he appeared 37 maybe a year or two younger.
How
healthy did the deceased appear to be?
100% healthy and very
happy.
Is
there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
no.
Did you smell a
distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?
No comment
How long did the
experience last?
between 5-20
minutes
Was the beginning
and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
Gradual. A fade
out or a gentile goodbye and I felt like his presence simply faded away.
Could you sense the
emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
He is usually very
happy and jubilant, he is a little sad sometimes but often trying to cheer me
up.
Did the deceased
give you information you did not previously know?
He spoke to my
sister in his native tongue. She has no knowledge of the Italian language and he
told her certain things in quite a complex vocabulary - words that anyone with a
basic knowledge of the language would not know or recognize - the conjugations
were perfect. I believe he did this on purpose, so we would be sure.
How do you
currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
There are things that only he could say that came through my sister when I was
deeply traumatized. She was visibly and significantly disturbed by this,
questioning herself. The dream I had was exactly like him, it was beautiful, he
was attempting to explain things to me and seemed a little frustrated when I
thought I understood but did not completely - his emotions were very real every
detail was present. Our dog could NOT understand that I was asking where our
husband was and leave the room to sit by a chair... the one he turned around to
look at the first time I asked the question. I've never seen anything like this
in my life. The smell of formaldehyde-like substance could not have come from
anywhere and it was so strong it woke me up.
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
Yes
Only one dream
experience - the rest were waking.
Describe in detail
your feelings/emotions during the experience:
I was happy to see him
mostly. Sad and missed him more when the dog alerted me to where he was. And a
bit of regret and feeling sorry when I smelled the formaldehyde-like smell.
Was there any
emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
A little bit.
What was the best
and worst part of your experience?
Wonderful sense of
comfort and that my husband is still in some ways with me. I miss him so much
and wish things could be different.
Has your life
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Describe:
Certain of the
afterlife, I feel in some way I am able to still have a relationship with my
husband though it is most probable that it will be many decades before I join
him.
Did you have
any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
I am now certain of the afterlife.
Did the experience
give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God,
etc.?
Yes
I know that he really is happy, that we go on after death.
Death Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a
compact?
No
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
Yes
All described in the experience page.
What emotions did
you feel during the experience?
peace, sadness,
longing, love, happiness and comfort.
Was the experience
witnessed or experienced by others?
Yes
Personal experiences
only witnessed by myself. Second hand experiences that could only be explained
as ADC were experienced by my sister while I was in a state of shock.
Did you have any
sense of altered space or time?
Yes
He sped up time,
then slowed it down, then went back again.
Did you become
aware of future events?
No
Did you experience
a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
Yes, in the primary
dream I had he gently pulled me from my body and asked me to come with him.
Did you meet or see
any other beings other than the deceased?
No
Did you see a
light?
No
Have you shared
this experience with others?
Yes
My sister. She is apprehensive about these experiences. She believes them but is
questioning.
Have you shared
this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?
No
Were there any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did you ever in
your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other
spiritual event?
No
Did the questions
asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes
Please offer any
suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
A bit shorter would be
nice :)