I've submitted here before. My friend and I are still in contact after his
death, although sporadically. It began with him forgiving me for the way we had
lost contact in life. And he had contacted me throughout the initial years of
grief through very, very specific songs at choice times (the first time
coinciding with his name being repeated throughout the cafe I was in on a
significant day, and another time after visiting his grave and a song came on in
the car about laying flowers on his grave and not to come back again nor cry and
then passing a car with a skeleton and a daffodil hanging from the rear view
mirror - which is the exact flower I left on his grave whilst acknowledging as a
baby he couldn't say his surname correctly, identifying as bones) as well as
three dreams. At the beginning of the grief period, I was in a dream where he
was waiting to pass through a doorway blockaded by a mattress. I had to tell him
I was sorry, and he, too, before he was called to pass through. We were both
awkward about it. The next dream, later on in the grief process, was a dream
where I saw him walking in the valley where he grew up and showed me a couple of
times. I visited here to pay my respects at his grave. This time he was walking
with a friend who was still alive and known to us both, but smiling at me in
passing, with a scarf around his neck. Some time this year, I dreamt of him
coming with me to the US, where I was reunited with my living family, but there
was so much happening on the streets - protesting with torches (this was not
influenced by recent protests as it preceded them). He couldn't stay with me but
we hugged and kissed goodbye. Recently, I had been feeling low about everything
happening when I was sitting in the garden talking about him for the first time
in a long time. There hadn't been any messages/signs from him for some time and
I thought maybe he had moved on, went somewhere else, reincarnated, I don't
know. But the instant I said his name out loud, a monarch butterfly flew in
front of my face and around me before fluttering off. Many times before, a
monarch butterfly appeared on extremely significant days.
Was this experience difficult to express in words?
No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the
deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?
Yes
Did you hear the deceased or hear something
associated with the deceased?
No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical
contact from the deceased?
No
Did you see the deceased?
No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance
or odor associated with the deceased?
No
How long did the experience last?
So quick. Fleeting few
seconds.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
Sudden.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
Peaceful. Assuring me it's ok and I'm not alone.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
Because the monarch butterfly came up to my face
and circled around just as I said his name aloud. A symbol I associated with him
before.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
No
Describe in detail
your feelings/emotions during the experience:
Like a hug from the universe.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
That he's there.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
It felt like being on the mountain again. The breeze. The sunlight. I got
to be in another place by being in the place I was in.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of
your experience?
Yes
Describe:
Will keep going.
Did you have any
changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No
Did the experience give you any spiritual
understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?
Yes
Just the regular affirming/confirming
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever
dies first will try to contact the other(s).
Have you ever made such a compact?
Uncertain
But we did talk about death before he passed and had very similar
philosophies
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your
experience that could be verified later?
No
What emotions did you
feel during the experience?
Calm.
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?
Yes
They were in the garden with me.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special
knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you become aware of future events?
No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other
special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the
experience?
No
Did you experience a separation of your
consciousness from your body?
No
Did you meet or see any other beings other than
the deceased?
No
Did you see a light?
No
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a
place other than the location described above?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes
The one person who was there with me when
it happened.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other
researcher or web site?
No
Is there anything else you would
like to add regarding your experience?
Keep looking for the signs.
Were there any associated medications or substances with the
potential to affect the experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body
experience or other spiritual event?
Yes
I have already submitted them.
Did the questions asked and information you
provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
Please offer any suggestions you may have to
improve this questionnaire.
Can you please make a podcast with all these experiences? It's
so comforting to hear others' experiences.