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Since TC's death, I have had numerous experiences. The first was just after his passing - he came to me in what did not feel like a dream, but I was asleep. I was about to open the glass door onto my back porch when I saw his reflection in the glass. He was sitting in the passenger seat of my sister's jeep in the driveway. The top of the jeep was off so it was easy to see him. I instantly wanted to turn around, but he spoke to me before I could and said "don't turn around, you can only see me in the glass." I began to cry, and told him that I needed him and loved him. He very calmly said that he just needed me to know that he was okay and that he loved me so much. He went on to say that he would be with me and not to worry. I reached out towards his reflection and he reached out to me, that was it...his reflection vanished and I woke up. I remember feeling like it had really happened, and being very confused. I have only told a handful of people about my experience because I was afraid people would think I was crazy. I know it was him - without a doubt it was my TC.
Since that time, I have had numerous experiences with the last one being on the day after his death anniversary. I travel each year to his grave - this year it as in July. He is buried in South Georgia where his mom and grandparents were from. While I was there I picked several weeds from the grave site while I was talking out loud to him. I tossed the weeds over outside the grave and then something came over me that compelled me to pick up the weeds, place them in the cup I had in the car, and return with the weeds to Atlanta. When I got home I placed the weed in a flower pot. My husband, who is a wonderful and very understanding man, asked me what in the world I was doing. I explained to him where the weed came from and he just smiled. That was in early July. TC died on Labor Day in 1987. This past Labor Day came and went - 21 years since he had passed. It was the first time I had gone through the day without reliving the whole thing - somewhat of a sense of peace finally after 21 years. That night I sat in the bathroom and realized that for the first time in 21 years I had not cried for him on that day. I asked him to give me a sign - of course there was no lightning bolt or other immediate sign that we all expect, instead the next morning I woke up, went outside to take the trash to the street and there sat in the flower pot the weed I had picked with about 150 beautiful tiny pink blooms. I began to cry as once again I knew that was TC's way of connecting with me. I got my husband - he could not believe it either. Since that date the weed has never bloomed again. I get signs every day and know that if I accept them as communication and not coincidences I can feel his presence with me.
These are just a few of
my experiences...it is a wonderful feeling knowing he is my guardian angel...I
still miss and love him as much today as I did the last time I saw him but know
that he is at peace.
Was this
experience difficult to express in words?
No
Did you hear the
deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?
Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:
His voice, or
his guitar, or smelled his cologne just as I experienced something
Did
the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you,
or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was
communicated?
It was all through the mind
If
you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound
the deceased made when they were alive?
yes
Is
there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
absolutely not
Was
there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?
no
Did you feel a
touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?
Yes
no, I have reached
for him and him for me and it felt like we connected but no physical contact to
my knowledge
Was
the touch familiar or unfamiliar?
very familiar and so
wonderful
Was
anything communicated by the touch?
yes, it was if we had
spoken 1000 words without saying a thing
Is
there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
no
Did you see the
deceased?
Yes
He looked just as he
did at 19 when he died
How
clearly did the deceased appear?
it is always a
reflection or him passing by me - we never touch except through emotion
How
much of the deceased did you see?
all
Did
the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?
yes he was 19
How
healthy did the deceased appear to be?
no
Is
there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
no
Did you smell a
distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?
Yes
What
smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?
I have smelled his
cologne but there is no one else around
Was
the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?
Drakar Noir
Was
anything communicated by the smell?
No, just made me feel
like he was next to me
Is
there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any
other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?
no
How long did the
experience last?
seconds
Was the beginning
and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
don't know -
Could you sense the
emotions or mood of the deceased?
No
Did the deceased
give you information you did not previously know?
No
How do you
currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
It is just something I know and don't need proof - I mean I am a grown woman,
happily married with 2 kids - I have moved on with my life but know that the
loved I shared with Trey was beyond our years...
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
N0 comment
only because I was
asleep when the first experience happened - or at least I think I was. Since
that, I have had physical experiences with lights, movement, sound, etc.
Describe in detail
your feelings/emotions during the experience:
Sad because I realized
he was really gone, but at peace that he truly loved me.
Was there any
emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
I was devastated.
What was the best
and worst part of your experience?
knowing TC is with me
Has your life
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes
Death Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
sadness, confusion, but now peace that he is with me
Was
the experience witnessed or experienced by others?
Uncertain
I
have had several experiences that my husband has witnessed
Did
any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location
described above?
Yes
yes,
as there have been many experiences and many different ways he has connected
with me
Have you shared this experience with others?
N0
comment very few...only my closest friends and family, or others who
have talked to me about things they are questioning
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher
or web site?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?
I
share this with hopes it will make others realize they are not crazy
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect
the experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
never done any drugs or even smoked
Did
you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or
other spiritual event?
Yes
Well, I would consider this a spiritual event
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes