My first experience was in the garden of the house we were living in (Chicago area). It was early afternoon and Craig appeared to me about 40 feet away. I was alone and fully aware. He said nothing but appeared to be ashamed. He refused to look at me. He was dressed in a blue long sleeve dress shirt with the sleeves rolled up, as he always did, and beige pants. His hands were in his pockets. He stood still while looking down. He was clearly there and just that quick he was gone. I never second guessed myself of what I saw that day.

The second time was in a dream. He came to me in a dream and said that I was the way I was because of the way he loved me.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?

No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         

Yes

          Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:     

It was very clear. It was unmistakably his voice. He said I was the way I was because of the way he loved me.

          Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?        

It was his voice from him.

          If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?        

His voice as like when he was alive.

          Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?     

No

          Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?

No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?         

No

Did you see the deceased?       

Yes  He was as though he was still alive.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Clear as day.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       All of him. Head to toe.

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?            Appeared as same age.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            Healthy

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?  

No

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?         

Yes 

A sense of remorse. Perhaps guilt.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? 

no

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?        

Experience was definitely real

          Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:  

It was real to me. I believe it was real.

          Was the experience dream like in any way? 

No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:        

A second of disbelief followed by a feeling of "at least he feels bas about it"

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?         

Yes

Minimal, as this experience did offer any relief at the time. When my husband passed away I worked for him as his private nurse and we were 2 months pregnant. I lost my job and family.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?   

I do not fell there is a best/worst part. I was simply something that happened to me

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?      

No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?          no strong emotions.

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?         No

Have you shared this experience with others?        Yes    They seemed to believe me, that I actually had an experience.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?      No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?  No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes