I had 3 pictures of trav and i had been looking at them and telling him i was on my way home to him.  I was looking in the mirror and so upset that i asked for a sign from him. All of a sudden my body felt like i was being pulled down and then all of a sudden it felt like something sharp went thru my heart and i gasped for air and i heard myself say "I know it wasn't your fault." Immediately i realized what i said and asked myself out loud "why did i say that?" after i just said that right in front of me in color it was travis. it was like he was right there. He was beautiful not what he looked like after the accident, he looked right in my eyes and told me he was sorry! then he was gone.  I know he meant it because travis would never of left me on his own free will.

Was this experience difficult to express in words? 

No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         

Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:  

i heard him say "I'm sorry" heard him say it as if was alive standing right in front of me.

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? 

outside of me heard his voice as if he was still alive

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?          

yes very similar

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?          

no, i was alone. no one around me. There is no way i could of imagined this i have never lost a loved one yet. travis is my first.

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?  

no way

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?           

No

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? 

no

Did you see the deceased?        

Yes

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            he was solid, colors as if he was standing right in front of me alive, he always wore headrags, he was wearing one i saw his black mustache and gotee, His headrag was black and i saw green behind him

            How much of the deceased did you see?       from the shoulders and up

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       appeared his age

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            healthy, he looked beautiful like always did, from the auto accident he got hit mostly the right side of his face and neck.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?     

No

How long did the experience last?       

about 10 seconds

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?        

sudden, all of sudden he was looking right at me and after he said the words i am sorry he was gone

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          

Yes

he looked sad and upset like as if he didn't know what else to say. the way he said it he knew that all the 4 yrs of struggling and we finally made it is now gone. I felt his words so deeply and that he meant it because travis would of never of left me on his own free will.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? 

no

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          

Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:         

never lost a loved one never heard of anyone else having experiences like i did and i couldn't of even imagined this
            Was the experience dream like in any way?  

No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          

it happened so fast it definitely caught me off guard i was speechless and shocked to see him looking right in my eyes

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          

Uncertain

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     

seeing his face because i was in ca and i had not seen him since Christmas

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?        

No      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Uncertain     

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Yes           

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            comforted, in shock thought about it on the rest of the train ride until i got back home in Utah so bewildered. I know i didn't imagine this

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

my body felt like it was being pulled down and then immediately felt like something went thru my heart and i had to gasp for air

Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes     his family and they believe i did experience it

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes