Linda D ADCs
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There are two experiences and they are related. I will describe the first
experience and then below that the second experience and I will number them.
1.
At the time of this first experience related to my Uncle I was driving in my
car. I have had other experiences after my father died and I have submitted an
account of those experiences. This account will be primarily about my uncle. As
I mentioned, I was driving and it was a beautiful sunny day! It was April and
yet it was over 90 degrees. I was so happy and I can’t stress that enough. I was
listening to a classical station on the radio, and there were two classical
stations that I would switch back and forth from depending on the piece and
whether I liked it. I want to stress again that I could not have been happier,
and I could not have been in a better mood. I was just leaving work and driving
around a circle still very happy and then I changed the station on the radio. At
the time my uncle was in the hospital and I didn’t know it at that time but it
was the end. I had no idea about that because although we were very close for
many years at that time we were estranged. When I changed the station a piece
was playing that was a very important part of his repertoire. As soon as I heard
that piece a pall came over me. I can’t even begin to describe the sadness that
came over me. And it was such a contrast from the way I felt just a few seconds
before. Now I could not have been more sad. That would not be possible. My Uncle
was being kept alive on machines, something I didn’t know at the time but found
out later. I learned that he was flat-lining many times that week and most
certainly the day of this experience. So as I said I felt great sadness in
contrast to the happiness I felt a few seconds before. So getting back to the
piece I heard when I changed the station, at that moment I felt like I was
transported back to the time when I was eight years old listening to my Uncle
practice that very piece in my grandmothers dining room. It was as though I was
right back there in that time almost like I was watching a movie. It was at that
moment that I knew that he would not live. Then I drove a few feet further and
then something that I can’t explain happened. It was a beautiful sunny day
outside and yet it became very dark in my car and especially in the back seat.
And when that darkness happened I literally jumped from my seat and I gasped. I
felt a presence and there will never be any question about that in my mind! In
the meantime the piece my uncle played was still on the radio and I looked to
see what it was called because I couldn’t remember. I saw that the composer was
a Vaughn Williams and the name of the piece was The Lark. What I didn’t know at
the time was that that was not the complete name of the piece. The name of the
piece is significant because it was a prediction of when my uncle would pass
away. I still had this very somber and sad feeling as I continued driving, and
the blackness was still in the car even though it was very bright and sunny
outside. Then I arrived at my destination which was the cleaners. I couldn’t get
out of the car. I was so shocked by what I had just experienced and I just sat
in the car for about five minutes. Then I got home and I was still profoundly
sad. I knew for sure that my uncle would pass away soon. The next day I looked
the Vaughn Williams piece up on YouTube with the intention of listening to it
again. It was them that I saw the entire name of the piece which was The Lark
Ascending. My uncle passed away on Easter Sunday the day Jesus ascended into
Heaven. That is why I said that the name of the piece was a predictor of the day
he would pass away.
2.
This next experience I believe is definitely related to the experience I
described above about my Uncle.
About a month before having the experience described above about my uncle I was
getting very strong thoughts that I should write someone that I went to
music school with and I couldn’t understand why. I would get these strong
feelings to write him usually in the evening and while I was watching the news
on t v. I found that I couldn’t concentrate on what I was hearing on the news
because these suggestions that I write this man were so strong. I dismissed
those thoughts because first of all I though it would be very strange to write
someone after thirty years. I had no intention of writing him but these thoughts
to write him were weighing very heavily on me. And that describes it perfectly.
There was a feeling of heaviness inside my head. I continued to ignore those
thoughts until one day and I remember it so vividly, I was walking through my
bedroom and a voice spoke to me in my left ear but it sounded like it was
outside m6 left ear not inside my head. It was definitely not my trend of
thought. I actually jumped up when I heard the voice. I want to say that I have
never been diagnosed with a mental illness, and that was only the second time
that happened to me in my life. The first time I heard a voice in my right ear
that most definitely saved me from a fatal accident. The second time was the
time I am writing about here and it was many years later. And the second time it
was in my left ear. That command, and it did sound like a command was so strong
that I definitely wrote him the next morning.
Years before this happened, I met a woman completely by chance who when I first
met her in a store at the mall told me her religious affiliation! I thought that
was unusual because we met because we were both reaching for the same red wool
coat. We both said to each other you saw it first and back and forth. Then she
just said I am a ————. I want to make sure that I protect
the privacy of this person and that is why I don’t want to say which
Christian denomination. I will just say that especially at the time we had very
few members of this denomination in our area. It would be very unusual to meet
someone from that denomination. I told her that at went to school with a few
people who had the same religious affiliation and she was trying very hard to
get their names. I wouldn’t tell her. Since I went to a music school, she asked
me what instrument I played and at said the piano. She said my daughter is
looking for a piano teacher and she is right over there and I want to introduce
you to her. I met her daughter and she was just as lovely as her mother and we
arranged a time for her to bring her daughter for piano lessons. I taught her
daughter for nine years. Her grandmother the one I met initially used to come to
her lessons whenever she was visiting. Every time she came she would ask me
again who I went to school with from the same denomination as she. Finally one
day she got a name out of me! I had no idea that she would look him up and
actually call him on the
phone! I was so shocked when she called me one evening and told me that she had
just spoken to him and that he was no longer in music. I was so shocked to find
that out because he was such a great musician. I was a,so very embarrassed that
she called him because I was so afraid that he would think it was my idea that
she call him. The next day I e-mailed him because she gave me all of his contact
information. I apologized to him for that intrusion on his privacy. He sent a
very short response back which I don’t think was more than one sentence, but he
signed it With a thousand thoughts. I thought that was very unusual and when the
daughter of the woman who contacted him brought her daughter for her piano
lesson, I showed her his e-mail. I have to say I got a sad feeling looking at
the e-mail and I didn’t know why. I know that my students mother got the same
feeling because she just stared at the for the longest time. And what was there
to look at? It was just one sentence written in the smallest print I ever saw.
Then we just looked at each other and we were speechless. I want to say that we
both got a feeling from that note but we didn’t say one word to each other. That
was a very strange silence, and I moment I will never forget. Shortly after that
there was a week long reunion at our school and one of our classmates stayed at
my house with his wife. I told our classmate about having his phone number and
he said 'Let’s call him!' I said no but he insisted. It sounded like they were
having a great conversation, and then he insisted that I get on the phone. I
felt strange about talking to him because I was still so embarrassed about the
woman who called him out of the blue. I got no emotions from the call and I
didn’t think about it afterwards. I felt no emotion whatsoever. I do have to
mention something that I think is very unusual and that is that I gave this man
very fleeting thoughts spaced out by several years, and I know exactly where I
was each time. I remember each time very vividly. Usually I had a feeling of
sadness when that would happen and then ten years would go by and I wouldn’t
give him a thought. Then fast forward to right before my uncle died and I
remember that day that I decided to see if he had anything on YouTube. He did
and I listened to him in the car. This was a few days before we would meet for
dinner. I knew he was great but maybe I didn’t realize how great he was because
I was overwhelmed with emotion listening to him. I started to cry and it was
crying that comes from deep inside. I couldn’t stop crying and I was hoping that
no one would see me. The. I got home and I was still crying. I couldn’t stop but
I had to because I had a student coming in five minutes. They arrived and when I
answered the door I was sure that they would be able to tell that I was crying.
I had to explain to the mother of my student what I had just heard and she
completely understood.
There are many other significant points to be made about this reconnection
starting with the fact that I myself was not playing or performing myself! After
hearing his great playing I started to play again. Also, right after we
reconnected I felt led to your site nderf.org I was reading so many accounts and
it was only after this reconnection. I just stumbled into the site by accident,
but I know there are no accidents! It was through reading those accounts that my
own thoughts about religion changed drastically and I was reading more about
Eastern traditions even though I am still a Christian. My thoughts about
religion have expanded exponentially. Something else that is very strange is
that I constantly see repeated numbers when I look at a clock. I will see 1111,
222, 333, 444, etc.and only repeated numbers every time I look at a clock. Also,
I have had eczema on the palms of my hands for many years and I would say at
least ten. I went to see many dermatologists about it. They all have prescribed
steroid creams and none of them have really worked. But presently the eczema is
going away and it is completely gone on the right palm. I still have it only
slightly now on the left palm, and I believe it will be completely gone in a few
weeks. I recently saw the dermatologist for a routine cancer screening and I
showed her my right hand which doesn’t have a trace of eczema. She asked me why
I think it was gone. I was afraid to tell the doctor that I thought it had to do
with a change in my thinking because I know most doctors would frown on that
kind of thinking. But when I told her that I thought it was because my thoughts
are changing for the better she answered 'I think you are right' which totally
surprised me. It is also important to mention that my uncle seriously thought of
switching to the instrument this man played. There are many connections and I
know it is all related.
Thank you so much for the opportunity to write about these experiences, and
thank you for doing this research.
Was this experience difficult to express in words?
No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the
deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?
No
Did you hear the deceased or hear something
associated with the deceased?
Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was
communicated:
I heard a piece my uncle used to play and it was a
very important part of his repertoire. It was The Lark Ascending written by
Vaughn Williams. My uncle passed away on Easter Sunday which makes the word
ascending in the name of the piece a predictor of the day he would pass away.
Did the voice or sound seem to
originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice
or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?
No, I heard the piece he used to play on the radio
although right after he passed away I heard a voice speak in my left ear. The
voice was outside of my head and it was definitely not internal. It was not part
of my own trend of thought and it was completely unrelated to anything I was
thinking. It was a command that told me to write a former classmate of mine. It
startled me and I jumped.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar
from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?
It is so hard to
describe because it didn’t sound male or female. It definitely didn’t sound like
my uncle.
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other
source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?
Absolutely not. There was no other sound around me
at the time.
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time
of the experience?
No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical
contact from the deceased?
No
Did you see the deceased?
No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance
or odor associated with the deceased?
No
How long did the experience last?
The first experience
when I heard the piece he played in the car lasted about ten minutes. The second
experience when I heard the voice lasted a few seconds.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
In both instances it was sudden.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
I felt great heaviness and great sadness coming from the entity which I do
believe was my uncle.
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?
We had a falling out and we were not speaking at the time of his passing. I do
believe he wanted to visit me because he was sorry. I believe that is why I felt
such heaviness and such sadness
How do you currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
Because my uncle passed away on Easter and the
title of the piece I heard was The Lark Ascending
Was the experience dream like in any way?
Yes
I felt transported back to my grandmother’s house when I was a little girl.
I saw myself listening to my uncle play as though I was watching a movie. I was
right back there in my grandmothers house.
Describe in detail
your feelings/emotions during the experience:
During the first experience when I was listening to The Lark Ascending on the
radio I felt incredible sadness.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
In the experience involving my uncle I got a very strong sense that he was
very sorry and that he was trying to communicate that to me.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
The worst part was the incredible sadness I felt during the first
experience. The second experience was the best part and I reconnected with a
wonderful old friend. The second experience allowed me to grow in ways that I
never thought possible. I also forgot to mention that because of the second
experience I took a Transcendental Meditation Course. That was very important
and I am glad that I finally remembered that so I could mention it here. And the
best part about the second experience is that I believe that my eczema is being
cured as a result of it.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of
your experience?
Yes
Describe:
It has changed
especially after the second experience I wrote about here. I am playing and
performing again. My religious viewpoints have changed as well as my entire
outlook on life. Also, the eczema that I have had for so many years is going
away and I believe that is related to the second experience because I am playing
again. I am a pianist and I had a condition on my hands when I was not playing.
Now that I am playing the condition is healing.
Did you have any
changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
I am much more open
to Eastern thought although I am still a Christian and I believe that I will
always be a Christian.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life,
death, afterlife, God, etc.?
Yes
In the case of my
uncle, the fact that he passed away on Easter to me was a definite message. In
the case of the second experience When I heard the voice that commanded me to
write my former classmate, I grew so much spiritually and I almost feel that it
was my uncles gift to me and that it was his way to make amends. I will always
believe that both of these experiences are related. And they happened at the
same time.
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever
dies first will try to contact the other(s).
Have you ever made such a compact?
No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your
experience that could be verified later?
Yes
The piece that played on the radio was called The Lark Ascending and my
uncle passed away on Easter Sunday.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
After the first
experience listening to the piece my uncle played I felt incredible sadness.
During the second experience when I heard the voice it is difficult for me to
describe how I felt but I was somewhat frightened by it. It was startlingly to
hear a voice that was definitely not inside my own head.
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?
No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes
Time seemed to slow down. And I felt like I was in a different time. I was
eight years old again.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special
knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you become aware of future events?
Yes
I did believe very strongly that my uncle would pass away. But it is
important to mention again that he was being kept alive on machines and he was
flatlining many times. That is why I think it was entirely possible that he
could leave his body.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other
special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the
experience?
No
Did you experience a separation of your
consciousness from your body?
Yes
During the first experience I felt like I was transported to my
grandmothers house and that I was right back in her dining room listening to my
Uncle practice. And he was playing the piece I heard on the radio at the same
time.
Did you meet or see
any other beings other than the deceased?
No
Did you see a light?
No
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a
place other than the location described above?
Yes
I felt like I was transported to my grandmother’s
house.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes
I have not shared the second experience,
only the first experience. People looked somewhat frightened and uncomfortable
hearing this story and other events that I have written about on your sites. I
have never had an NDE though. I did submit an account of an OBE that I had on
oberf.org I have had about three out of body experiences.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other
researcher or web site?
No
Is there anything else you would
like to add regarding your experience?
No
Were there any associated medications or substances with the
potential to affect the experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body
experience or other spiritual event?
Yes
I had three OBEs but one of them was very 'dramatic' as you called it when
I wrote about it on oberf.org
Did the questions asked and information you
provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
Please offer any suggestions you may have to
improve this questionnaire.
I have no suggestions and I think that you are providing a
wonderful service to people who have had these very unusual experiences. I
appreciate all that you are doing to advance research in these very important
areas.
EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION 2621:
There were several experiences which I will list below:
1. The experience I described above that occurred two days after my father’s
passing where I felt a sense of resolve that everything would be fine.
2. This next experience was amazing! As I wrote above I
am a piano teacher. It was two weeks before my father’s birthday and it was
at least twenty years years after he passed away. I was teaching a lesson
and a thought came to me that said, 'Something is going to happen on daddy’s
birthday.' Then two weeks later it was the day of my father’s birthday
December 16th. My father and his brother’s were well-known and they formed a
string quartet which was a dream of their father’s that came to fruition. It
was a Saturday on my father’s birthday that year and since it was right
before Christmas the mother of one of my students brought me a present. This
is the amazing part of the story. The book was a book about the orchestra
that
my father and his brothers were all members. They were
well-known. The woman that gave me the book was from Chicago and she had
just moved here. She was not familiar with the family. She said that she was
at Borders Books and she saw the book about the
Orchestra. She said, 'I opened the book to a
page with a picture of this family and they look like you.' She said she
just opened to the page. I have tried to just open to that page many times
and it never just opens up to that page for me. Yet it opened right to that
very page for her. This happened on my father’s birthday, but the story is
not over yet. I had a habit of going to a farmers market on Saturday after
teaching to get a rotisserie chicken. I went as was my habit right after I
finished teaching which was after five. The market closed at six. After
getting the chicken in the market I went next door to a bread store. I
bought the bread and went home. When I got home I had the bread but not the
chicken. I was not very happy! I then called the farmers market but at that
point it was after six so the call went into voicemail. I told them that I
might have left the chicken on the counter and that maybe they could keep it
in the refrigerator for me if they heard the message figuring that they
would probably still be there cleaning up. I didn’t think to go back there
because the doors
would be locked. Next I called the bread store
and I left them the same message. I said 'You are probably closed but I
think I left a chicken on your counter. I probably won’t come back for it
because I am sure you will not be there.' Then I decided to just go to get a
rotisserie chicken at the supermarket right down the street from me. As I
was driving down the street to get the chicken at the supermarket I got a
strong message to turn the car around and go back to the bread store. I said
to myself they can’t possibly be there anymore since it was around 6:45. But
the communication was too strong. When this
happens to me I feel a heaviness especially in
my head. I felt like there was a giant magnet on my car. I could not go
forward and I had to turn around. Then I got to the bread store and it was
about 6:50. I parked in front of the store and all the lights were shining
very brightly in the store and I saw a lone woman standing in front of the
counter holding a bag. I approached the door and she came right to the door.
She said 'This is your chicken?' I said 'Yes!' Then I said, ' How did you
know that I would come back for the chicken since I said on the message that
I probably would not come back. She said, ' I told everyone in the store, I
know she is going to come back for the chicken and I am going to wait for
her!' They were closed for fifty minutes already, and I don’t know of any
employee that would wait that long for someone on a Saturday evening right
before Christmas. Especially when I said that I probably would not come back
that evening. I expressed that to her and I also told her that this was the
second unusual thing that happened that day and then I told her about the
book earlier in the day. Then she said something that totally shocked me.
She said, 'Your father wants me to let you know that he is thinking about
you.' I said to her, 'Are you psychic?' She answered, 'I am.' The whole
while she looked somewhat spooked herself'.She had an almost otherworldly
expression on her face like she was someplace else. I will never ever forget
that experience but there are many more. None of the other experiences top
that one but one in particular comes close.
3. The next experience happened two years later but it
is related to the experience I just described. As I mentioned I am a piano
teacher. One of my very talented students was playing chamber music at a
well-known music school. He needed to find the music for the Dohnanyi Piano
Quintet. His father looked for the music and he could not find it. I went to
the music school that I graduated from and when I was a few blocks from the
school I said to myself, 'Nothing ever happened again like what happened
that time on daddy’s birthday. The date was December 14th so it was not my
father’s birthday but it was two days before. I parked the car and then I
entered the school library. I told the librarian what I was looking for and
he told me exactly where I could find the piece. It was up on the third
floor and I entered the door to the room where I would find the music.
I am very particular about the editions my
students use and I never played that work. So I was looking down on several
copies and I would
say there were over a hundred copies of that
piece and the binding was facing up. I could not see the covers of the
books. So I looked
down at them and I randomly picked up a copy of
the piece. Then I walked towards the door to leave but I could not go
through the door. Again it was like a magnet was holding me back! I couldn’t
leave! Then I went back to look over the copies of the piece again. I put
back the copy I had and I randomly picked up another copy of the piece. This
copy was very old!! Then I was at peace and I could leave with no problem. I
walked out the door without the slightest bit of hesitation and proceeded
down the steps. As I was walking down the steps I for some reason opened up
the book and looked in the back to see who checked it out before! Why would
I do that? I never did that even once before in my life. It had my fathers
name there with a date that would be exactly when he would have taken that
book out. The school library retired the book, called me and said that they
were giving me the book.
The next experience involves moving my father from one
burial ground to another. My father was buried in a Roman Catholic cemetery.
There was a family issue involved with the burial site and we had to move my
father. Because we were moving my father to a Protestant cemetery, we needed
a Roman Catholic priest to bless the grave at the cemetery where my father
would be moved. The Roman Catholic Cemetery would not allow him to be moved
if we didn’t have the name of a Roman Catholic priest to bless the grave.
Since as I mentioned above I am an Episcopalian I didn’t know any Roman
Catholic priests. I was filling the form out with my mother and I told her
that I would find a priest. I was going to have to ask around, and I didn’t
think it was going to be very easy. So I said 'We will just fill the answer
to that question later. I went to the bank right after I said
that. The bank is literally two minutes from my
house. I parked the car, got out and started walking towards the bank. When
I was right in front of the bank I saw a black streak with a white collar
run by very fast. I called the man and said, 'Are you a Roman Catholic
priest?' He said, ' I am.' I said, 'Father can I talk to you?' He said,
'Sure.' I explained the situation to him and that we needed a Roman Catholic
priest to bless the grave. He answered, 'I would be happy to do it!' Within
five minutes I found the Roman Catholic priest! He asked me to call the
office of his church to schedule a time to meet there. He mentioned the
secretary’s name and it was the same as my sister’s. We met at the cemetery
where my father was moved to and it was a very moving ceremony. We met at 12
p. m. and we had a moment of silence waiting through the chimes to finish
the hymn they were playing (it was a churchyard cemetery).
After that the priest read the ceremony that was
appropriate for the occasion. Then he turned around and proceeded to bless
the entire burial grounds. It was a very moving experience and I believe my
father was there and that he knew what was happening. I have been given
permission to make a garden there for my father and I work very hard on it.
I also bring a Christmas Wreath there every year on his birthday December
16th. One year I bought the wreath and I had an older car at that time. It
had a portable satellite radio that at that time had not been working for
about two weeks. I remember opening the door of the car to put the wreath
into it and I am positive that the car was not turned on but it seems so
unbelievable that let’s say I am not remembering correctly. Maybe the car
was on but that doesn’t make what I am about to write any less strange. The
satellite radio that was not working all of a sudden starts playing a piece
that I played with my father. It was a Beethoven piano and cello sonata. It
was coming out of that radio and it sounded very far away and there was
quite a bit of static in the sound. As I am writing this I just now thought
of something else that is very unusual. December 16th is Beethoven’s
birthday also!! The radio was playing a piece at that moment by Beethoven! I
know there are even more experiences I could think of but I will stop here.
I will write again with experiences involving other family members and
friends.
Thank you so much for the important research you are doing, and thank you so
much for the opportunity to write about these experiences.
Was this experience difficult to express in words?
No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the
deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?
Yes
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated
with the deceased?
Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard
it and what was communicated:
I heard a
Beethoven piano and cello sonata coming out of a satellite radio in my car.
A sonata that I had played with my father. The radio had not been working
for to weeks before that then all of a sudden I heard that sonata coming
from the satellite radio.
Did the
voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you,
or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was
communicated?
No. It was music
I heard and it was external. It was coming from a satellite radio. That had
not been working for two weeks.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or
dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?
I
did not hear a voice
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any
other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?
No
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at
the time of the experience?
No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact
from the deceased?
No
Did you see the deceased?
No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or
odor associated with the deceased?
No
How long did
the experience last?
The first experience was a few minutes. The second experience happened over
a period of two weeks. The third experience lasted about a half hour.
Was the
beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
The first experience was sudden. The second experience was gradual. The
third experience was also gradual.
Could you sense
the emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
I got the
feeling that my father was present when these experiences were happening but
I couldn't see, hear, or smell anything.
Did the
deceased give you information you did not previously know?
Yes, because I didn’t know that my father was in the book I received.
How do you currently view the reality of your
experience?
Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your
experience as real or not real:
I believe that
it was real because I had evidence. I received a book in my second ADC story
and in the third ADC story I borrowed music from a music library and saw
that my father had borrowed the same book from that very same library over
seventy years earlier because I saw his name and the year that he borrowed
it in the back of the book. He borrowed it in 1943.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the
experience:
Whenever I have these experiences I feel a heaviness especially in my head.
I feel like time is slowing down.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following
the experience?
Yes
I felt great
comfort because having those experiences was confirmation that my father was
going on.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
The best part was knowing that my father goes on.
There was no worst part. The experiences were
entirely good and very comforting.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
Describe:
Definitely
religious practices. I was raised a Roman Catholic but not in any strict
sense of the word. But I never deviated from Christian traditions. After
these experiences I am completely open to Eastern thought and traditions. I
am still a Christian, but I am much more open and accepting of other
traditions.
Did you have
any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
I possessed a greater conviction
that there is a higher power. That is even more
true today.
Did the experience give you any spiritual
understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?
Yes
The experiences made me
realize that there has to be something very powerful. I knew that there was
a reality that exists that is not of this world.
Death Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever
dies first will try to contact the other(s).
Have you ever made such a compact?
No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or
events during your experience that could be verified later?
Yes
In the case of the second experience after I received
the book, the woman who I saw after that seemed to know about
the book. She wasn’t surprised. When I told her
about the book she immediately said 'Your father wants me to let you know
that he is thinking about you. In the third experience when I borrowed the
music out of my former school library which was also my father’s school, I
saw his name in the back of the book. A book that he had checked out over 70
years earlier.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
I felt almost
removed from every day reality. I felt like I was in some kind of a time
warp. I felt almost disconnected with present reality.
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?
Yes
I was standing
with my mother looking out a window and I communicated my feeling of
conviction and resolve to her. I felt strongly that we would get through it
and come out fine. I have a younger sister as well so it was just the three
of us.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes
Everything
felt slower and disconnected from this reality.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge,
universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
I knew there was something far greater than anything I
had ever experienced controlling the events. It felt as though it was
planned. By that I mean that the succession of events in the experiences
seemed already set. I just had to be willing to listen and respond
appropriately. If I had resisted these events would not have transpired in
the same way,
if at all. I listened to what I was feeling and
I let it take me where it wanted me to go.
Did you become aware of future events?
No
Did you have
any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that
you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes
I would say my
psychic abilities are very minimal. But I do get strong feelings that have
kept me out of danger. I sometimes get feelings when someone is going to
pass away. That doesn’t happen when I am in their presence. And most of the
time I don’t know the persons name. I just feel someone is going to pass
away.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness
from your body?
No
Did you meet or see any other beings other than the
deceased?
No
Did you see a light?
No
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a
place other than the location described above?
Uncertain
I did feel
removed from present day reality during the second and third experiences
(when I described the experiences earlier in this form I numbered the
experiences.) Time definitely seemed to slow down.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes
People seem
uncomfortable discussing subjects like this. I have told very few people.
Only family and my closest friends. Some people have been completely amazed.
Others seem to look uncomfortable.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally
with any other researcher or web site?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?
Yes. I believe that these events were planned and they convinced me that
there is a Divine Plan. If I didn’t have these experiences I would not feel
as convinced that there is a higher lower.
Were there any associated medications or substances
with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events
in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the
experience?
No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience,
out of body experience or other spiritual event?
Yes
I have had many other experiences. I plan to submit
another form right after completion of this form describing these
experiences. I had an OBE more than once. I sent an account of one of the
strongest OBE’s that I had to oberf.org and I submitted the account on that
website. I also mentioned other OBEs that I had that were not as dramatic in
that form. You published it on that website and I was able to read it there.
You called it a 'dramatic experience'. I don’t know if I could ever find it
on that site now and I wouldn’t even
know how to
look it up, but I am sure it is still there for
others to read if they find it.
Did the questions asked and information you provided
accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve
this questionnaire.
I think this questionnaire was excellent! I have no suggestions. I
appreciate the opportunity that you provided because I feel that I am not
alone in this. I feel that there are people that don’t think it is strange
or odd in any way. That is a great comfort to me. Thank you so much! And
especially thank you for all of the important research that you are doing to
shed more light on this very important subject.