That day I was feeling very frustrated and very lonely and sad, because that day it would be normally her birthday. I ask to leave earlier from my job because I wanted  to be alone. When the night came (around 23.30), I put my little son to bed on the top floor (my house has two floors) and then I went downstairs to the kitchen to take my cigarettes and smoke in my private room. My husband was on a business trip and I had the time to be by my shelf and think.

Ever since my mother's death, I light a small candle which I put it in a small glass inside a small plate. This candle is in the kitchen. When I got down to take my cigars, I stared at the candle like "it was the soul of my mother" and started to cry. Then suddenly, the flame of the candle started to sparkle, and then a white-blue light (like a line) came towards me and RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES I saw it growing bigger in the shape of a television and then I heard I silent "boom" and it was disappeared.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?     Yes  

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? Yes 

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?   No                                                         

Did you see the deceased?   No                      

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?    No                

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?   Uncertain        

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?    Experience was definitely real    Because I was awake, not asleep and I saw it in front of my eyes  

Was the experience dream like in any way?    No   

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?    Uncertain    There are times when I think that she is near me because she has "proven" it, and there are times that I'm feeling confused because after that day I did not experience anything else

What was the best and worst part of your experience?    Half of them told me it was my mother. Others told me it was something physical or I caused it with my mind and a small number of them told me that it was something "evil"

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?    Uncertain    I feel more fearless of death            

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?    Uncertain    I am not sure about what was that, but I 70% believe that was my mother

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   No

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?    No   

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?       No   

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?        No   

Did you become aware of future events?           Yes    Sometimes

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     No   

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?    No   

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?    No            

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?   No   

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes   

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?    Yes                

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   No   

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      No