Leslee B's
ADC
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Integration experience
Experience description March 2012:
I
had been spending most of my time in bed, about a month. My family was getting
worried that I was giving up on life, and I was. This was my twin, my best
friend, and the love of my life. As I sat up in bed crying with my head face
down in my pillow, I felt a comfort come over my body. As I pulled my head away
from pillow I saw my Twin sister Roslee standing in front of me, SOOO beautiful,
wearing a white gown, with a beautiful light around her. She smiled at me and
said, "I love you very much and you must go on, you are not finished here there
are things that you will need to complete. Then when you pass on from this
world, I will be here to take your hand." She then said "I Love You.", and she
and the light faded away. I believe that she new that I was giving up and that
she needed to let me know she would be back for me.
Was this
experience difficult to express in words?
No
Beautiful is what comes
to mind.
Did you ONLY sense an
awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling
or smelling them?
N0 comment
Did you hear the
deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?
Yes
Describe
what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:
I heard every word and
could see her beautiful face and red hair clearer than anything I have ever
seen.
Did the
voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or
did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was
communicated? I
heard every word as she spoke her mouth moved.
If you
heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the
deceased made when they were alive?
Exactly as when she was
alive.
Is there
any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
No Way
Was
there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?
No, I was young
and in very good health
Did you feel a touch
or experience any physical contact from the deceased?
No
Did you see the
deceased?
Yes
She stood beautifully
in a bright light, in white; smiling at me
How
clearly did the deceased appear?
crystal
How much
of the deceased did you see?
all of her, in a white
gown
Did the
deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?
she died at 24, and she
looked that age
How
healthy did the deceased appear to be?
she looked extremely
healthy. My sister and I were very athletic and she looked very healthy.
Is there
any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
No way
Did you smell a
distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?
Uncertain
How long did the
experience last?
About 1-2
Minutes
Was the beginning and
end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
Sudden in the
beginning, then she faded with the light when she left
Could you sense the
emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
She was very happy to
see me. We absolutely loved each other.
Did the deceased give
you information you did not previously know?
She told me it
was not my time, there were things I needed to do before I would be with her
again
How do you currently
view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
definitely real
Please
explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
I saw her as clear as day and no one could tell me different. I no she was
there, and I have felt her with me over the past 25 yrs
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
No
Describe in
detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:
I wanted to die I felt
that I could not live without her. If someone could die from grief it could have
been me. I lost my dad and this was different it felt like part of me was gone
and I wanted to die.
Was there any
emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
She came so that I may
live.
What was the best and
worst part of your experience?
There was no worst. She
looked amazing, and I new we would be together again
Has your life changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Describe: I
am very happy and not afraid of death.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes I knew that I could go on.
Did
the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death,
afterlife, God, etc.?
Yes Our loved ones know when we are in trouble or too much pain to go
through. God lets them comfort us so that we can move on.
Death Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a
compact?
No
No
but we would have if we new this was going to happen. We were more than
close-TWINS we looked and sounded alike
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Yes
I help women who suffer from Drug/alcohol Dependence
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
I
felt like living, I was happy and excited about living, and dying
Was
the experience witnessed or experienced by others?
No
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Yes
I
knew that my life had meaning and I would do things needed to be done. I also
know for sure that she will be back when I die.
Did
you become aware of future events?
Uncertain
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes
We
were very close and aware of each others feelings and emotions. Even when we
lived apart
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
Did
you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?
No
Did
you see a light?
Yes
Beautiful and bright
Did
any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location
described above?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes Yes, but very few. This was very personal
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher
or web site?
Uncertain
Is
there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?
There is life after death..
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect
the experience?
No
At
that time I stayed in my room; in bed only eating food about 1 time a day. No
substances/ no alcohol
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes
Experience description July 2007:
My twin sister
contacted me about one month after she passed. I was in my room crying and she
appeared to me in a beautiful white light. She told me that I had to go on with
my life, that there were things in my life that had to be done. She told me that
she loved me, and that when I passed on she would be there to take my hand. then
she was gone. She looked like an angel.
Details of
location of experience and your activity at the time of experience:
The night that she died
I woke up screaming that something terrible had happened to my sister. I
immediately called my mom and she told me that she had just passed on. no one
new she was sick. the second time we communicated was about one month after she
passed. I was in my room crying and I looked up and Roslee was standing in front
of me in a bright light, dressed in white. She told me that I needed to go on
with my life, that there were things that I needed to do and that she would be
there when I passed on to take my hand. she told me she loved me, and then she
was gone. this visit helped save my life because I felt that I could not go one
without my twin. I was almost suicidal.
Was this experience
difficult to express in words?
No It saved my
life
Did you ONLY sense
an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing,
feeling or smelling them?
No
Did you hear the
deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?
Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:
what she said to
me was clear and direct.
Did
the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you,
or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was
communicated?
She talked to me
If
you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound
the deceased made when they were alive?
It was her voice.
Is
there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
NO!
Was
there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?
NO!
Did you feel a
touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?
Yes
I was in the light
with her.
Was
the touch familiar or unfamiliar?
beautiful is the only
way to describe it
Was
anything communicated by the touch?
that she was there and
she was beautiful and angelic
Is
there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
NO!
Did you see the
deceased?
Yes
She was in a white
light and looked more beautiful than I have ever seen her
How
clearly did the deceased appear?
clearer than anything I
have ever seen
How
much of the deceased did you see?
her whole person
Did
the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?
same age
How
healthy did the deceased appear to be?
she looked absolutely
wonderful
Did you smell a
distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?
No
How long did the
experience last?
about 2 minutes
Was the beginning
and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
I looked up and
she was in front of me and when she left she faded away. Like the energy , the
light faded
Could you sense the
emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
straight LOVE
Did the deceased
give you information you did not previously know?
that I would do
good things in my life and I had to go on.
How do you
currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
My sister (twin) came to save my life. She knew that I needed her.
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
No
Describe in detail
your feelings/emotions during the experience:
I only felt love. MY
sister and I were almost as one and she was more close to me than I can explain
twins are closer than other family members. They are connected, mind and body
and soul-Identical twins
Was there any
emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
She gave me the will
to live
What was the best
and worst part of your experience?
I have missed my twin
sister, and my best friend
Has your life
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Describe:
I love life and
look forward to every day that I am blessed with
Did you have any
changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
life and death are beautiful. Live life and make a difference
Did the experience
give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God,
etc.?
Yes
we all have a purpose that needs to be fulfilled.
Death Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a
compact?
No
I never thought in a
million years that she would not live and be in my life- we were twins we are
suppose to live our lives together
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
Just the fact that I am still alive-she saved my life
What emotions did
you feel during the experience?
I knew I had to go on,
and I know that when I leave this world, she will be waiting for me
Was the experience
witnessed or experienced by others?
No
Did you have any
sense of altered space or time?
No
Did you have a
sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
I will go on to help
people that live in the pain and suffering of drug addiction.
Did you become
aware of future events?
Yes
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?
Yes
I lost contact with
her children and she guided me to them. I am now involved in there lives and am
helping the youngest one with his addiction issues
Did you experience
a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
Did you meet or see
any other beings other than the deceased?
No
Did you see a
light?
Yes
the brightest light,
the whitest light I have ever seen
Did any part of
your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described
above?
No
Have you shared
this experience with others?
Yes
They do not understand
Have you shared
this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?
No
Is there anything
else you would like to add regarding your experience?
life is about loving,
not judging
Were there any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No I was
totally aware of my surroundings
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did you ever in
your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other
spiritual event? I
felt I was dying when my sister was dying
Did the questions
asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes
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