Pat L's
ADC
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Was this
experience difficult to express in words?
No
I can easily describe what
happened. It's harder to describe the feeling--the sensing of what it really
was.
Did you ONLY sense an
awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling
or smelling them?
Yes
Did you feel a touch or
experience any physical contact from the deceased?
Yes
As described, I felt a whoosh
of very warm "air" and a strong sense that it was my father trying to let me
know he was there and that there was life after death. (That would have been a
surprise to him!
Was the touch
familiar or unfamiliar?
As described--very familiar.
Was anything
communicated by the touch?
Yes, as described, I felt
psychically that he was trying to tell me "What do you know, there IS life after
death. I'm here with you." It felt loving and gentle and happy--like he was
having fun with it. I think he knew I wouldn't be frightened by it. I was
surprised by it, but not frightened. I was not expecting anything like that to
happen.
Is there any
possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings
at the time of your experience?
As described, I tried to find
another explanation that fit--ie. the heat vent, but there wasn't one.
Did you see the
deceased?
No
How long did the experience
last?
A Seconds--less than a
minute--well, the whoosh did--a slow whoosh. It took several minutes to process
what I instantly and instinctively knew it was. And to look for other causes in
case I was fooling myself. I don't believe I was fooling myself.
Was the beginning and end of
the experience gradual or more sudden?
The beginning --I was
thinking about him and on the side, felt the warm "air" coming up and over
me--yet it took a second for my to shift my attention to it and consciously pay
attention to it. I could feel the energy, though I didn't describe it that way
to myself at the time. (I have since become more sensitive to feeling the
energy fields (chi) of people, trees....) As I was shifting my consciousness
from an intuitive knowing to a more conscious/rational knowing and telling
myself that this cannot be--I must be imagining this--it dissipated off to my
left. (It had come from the right of me.)
Could you sense the emotions
or mood of the deceased?
Yes
Yes, as described. It seemed he
was happy, surprised that there was life after death and having a good time with
it. He wanted to send me a message that he had discovered this--share it with
me and to let me know he was ok and having fun (something I'd rarely seen in his
living life.)
Did the deceased give you
information you did not previously know?
Yes, in the sense that I,
like him was not making assumptions that there was life after death, a god....
(I got no sense he was telling me of a god as the religious describe it--just
that he was alive and having fun and thought he'd let me know so I could know.
How do you currently view the
reality of your experience?
Experience was probably real
Please explain
why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:
I have an ongoing inner conflict
with --if this makes sense--believing what I know in my gut is real--I've grown
up with people of both intense skepticism and pessimism, and a "Yeah, right;
prove-it" , science only mentality and others who are more liberal and
definitely believed in god in various ways.... I was also taught early to
ignore my own experiences and opinions and to follow the teachings of others--ie.
the version of Christianity of my mother....and that she knew best.... and later
of other version of Christianity.... I was taught that playing with my psychic
ability....was inviting Satanic influence..... that people no longer have that
ability unless it was of deceiving spirits..... It has taken me years to shed
these influences and learn to trust my inner self--which has often been more
accurate. (ie. Sept 9 and 10, 2001 getting an overwhelming and sudden empathetic
depression--not knowing what it was about--saying There is so much pain in the
world! It's so intense....On Sept 11, I knew what it had been about.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
No
Describe in detail your
feelings/emotions during the experience:
I felt surprised, neutrally
observant, then I "understood" what it was and felt pleasant and happy--serene
Was there any emotional
healing in any way following the experience?
I guess the sense of that came
later. I had felt no particular need of "healing" at that time. I had in years
prior and while it was pretty much resolved, there had been some things left
incomplete. I hadn't thought of it until this question, but yes, I'd say since
then, I've felt ok with it all--no unfinished business.
What was the best and worst
part of your experience?
The best part was having an
unexpected contact from my father and to know he was not only alive and ok, but
it was heartwarming to know he was having fun and thought to let me know.
The
"worst" part is that I believe it real, but struggle with "living that out loud"
for fear of being labeled a crackpot and not being taken seriously. I am slowly
getting over this fear. Some people in my life vicious.
Has your life changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
Uncertain
Describe:
More open
What other attitudes and
beliefs about your experience do you currently have?
It wasn't life changing. I was open to the possibility, and knew intuitively
that it's likely, yet mentally felt it unlikely. This was another piece of
experiential evidence to add to my list about trusting these things as likely to
be real. I believe them to likely be real, but I am aware us humans can fool
ourselves. However, I've had so many other experiences now, that my "belief" is
solidifying.
Did you have any changes
of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
Became more open and more
confident that what I know intuitively is in fact real.
Did the experience give you
any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God,
etc.?
Yes
As I've said, it helped to move
my beliefs forward re. these things.
Death Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a
compact?
Uncertain
I think I may have, but forget
for sure or with who. (Too bad, eh!) (Hey, maybe it was with my Dad!)
Did you observe or hear
anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
felt contented, happy to know he
was happy and still existed though in a different way
Was the experience witnessed
or experienced by others?
No
Did you have any sense of
altered space or time?
No
Did you have a sense of
knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
With this experience, I got a
sense that he was affirming for me what I had suspected possible, and that he
was surprised about it--life after death--and that it was pretty good.
Did you become aware of future
events?
No
Not with this experience.
Did you have any psychic,
paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have
prior to the experience?
Uncertain
I've had various experiences
prior to and after this experience.
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
N0 comment
Not with that experience. I
have had an out of body experience in my teens. Again, I "know" I had it yet I
fight inside with internalizing external teachings that it didn't happen....
Did you
meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?
No
No, not in that experience. I
have experienced other beings at other times. And PS, talking about it with
people who are open to this stuff is helping me face that my experiences are
real.
Did you see a light?
No
No, not with this experience.
I did with the meditative experience I mentioned earlier.
Did any part of your
experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described
above?
No
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes
If they were skeptical about
the possibility, they assumed I was a head case and if they were open to the
possibility or already believed it, they accepted it accordingly without judging
me. Of course, I have become increasingly uncomfortable sharing my "reality"
with those who put me down for having it.
Have you shared this
experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?
No
Is there anything else you
would like to add regarding your experience?
I'm glad you're doing the
research. I'd like to see your website and results. I am not very
knowledgeable about using the internet and don't know where to find it.
Were there any associated
medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Following the experience, have
you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which
reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did the questions asked and
information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes
You asked good questions and I
answered them as best I could
Please
offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
You might ask about other related
experiences, but then you're researching this specific type of experience.
You're welcome.