It was very hard for me to except my loved and loving dad died so young so unexpectedly.  A few months after he died I had very realistic dream. I was looking for my daddy in a huge park, full of people (I knew it, but didnt see anyone), light was indescribably bright. I remember thinking, that its probably sun reflecting of snow or something; I was thinking that in a park full of snow and people I should see footprintsit was noonremember feeling of happiness and love there.

I found my father playing with little girl about 3-4years old, just like he use to play with me when I was little. I got mad and started yelling that he needs to be with us, I need him with me. and he smiled and said that hes always with us, hell wait for us as long as it takes, said that it will be easy for him because there is no time there, hes happy and feeling great, that he still can see us and proud of us, and everything will be ok.  He said that I dont need to be jealous of this girl because she was lonely and lost when he found her on the way, that she reminds him of me and even has same name.

 Girl run away and I wanted go look for her and my dad told me that I will never find her because she does not have a stone.. On my birthday (my first BD without my dad) I went to the cemetery very early morning. My daddys BD would be in two days.I was very sad, I started crying and asking my father to give me a sign that hes here.just for me.just because its my birthday and I need him. The man came to me and sit right next to me on my fathers grave, he was the father of little girl who died a few days before my father did, her name was Melanie, and everybody called her Leana (this is how my name sounds in Russian, very similar), he said that mom of his daughter doesnt never come to the cemetery and doesnt want to put a stone on the grave because she doesnt want to believe her girl is gone.( Till this day there is no stone, on that grave, but you can see its a small one, for a child)

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  Uncertain

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Uncertain

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           ABSOLUTELY NOT

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

IN A DREAM, BUT IT WAS NOT A DREAM

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            VERY!!!! YOUNG AND HAPPY

            How much of the deceased did you see?       WHOLE BODY

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       YOUNGER

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            VERY HEALTHY AND HAPPY

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           NO

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        I DON'T KNOW

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         DON'T REMEMBER

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

HAPPY

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  YES

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           IT WAS REAL, ABSOLUTELY!!!! UNBELIEVABLE!!!AND TOUCHED TWO FAMILIES THAT HAD NO CONNECTION BEFORE!

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Yes

IT WAS A DREAM

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I WAS VERY SAD, VERY....AND ANGRY9IN MY DREAM!) AT MY FATHER FOR LEAVING ME

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I KNOW THE ANSWER NOW

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      BEST? IT REALLY HAPPENED, EVERY SINGLE WORD, AND I CAN NOW GO ON WITH MY LIFE, KNOWING I SEE MY FATHER AGAIN

WORST?-IT ENDED

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     I THINK I UNDERSTAND LIFE AND DEATH BETTER

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            HAPPY

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   N0 comment

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

Did you become aware of future events?       N0 comment

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         N0 comment

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            Yes

Did you see a light?           Yes

AMAZING VERY BRIGHT LIGHT!!!! LIKE A SNOW IN VERY SUNNY DAY, BUT BRIGHTER

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            N0 comment

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     SAD, BUT CLOSEST PEOPLE (MY MOM AND BROTHER) DIDN'T BELIEVE ME, BUT FRIENDS AND OTHER MEMBERS OF FAMILY WERE AMAZED, SOME SHARED THERE EXPERIENCES

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

I'M HEALTHY AND SANE

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               No