Following 2 visitation dreams from others who had also passed, known both to me and my ex lover, who inferred to me that he was OK now and had passed successfully, and also 'hearing' from him clairaudiently reassuringly saying my name and 'please don't cry' on several occasions in my kitchen, he then came to me in a very strong visitation dream some 6 weeks after he had passed. (I had been distraught for some time but was beginning to feel a little calmer after reading about NDE's online although I still felt bereft at his passing). Over the weeks I had repeatedly asked him in my head for a visitation dream to try and ease my grief and was so surprised when it came through around 8.00 am in the morning. I had had a bad nights sleep, visited the bathroom and decided to go back to bed. As soon as I drifted back to sleep I had an extremely vivid dream that I was standing in what I could only describe as an 'observation room' similar to e.g. where onlookers would observe surgery. I was standing behind a glass window watching what was going in a room behind the glass window.  To my left, on the same side of the glass as myself, I was aware of another presence(s) (possibly spirit guides?), I saw no-one but I was told or somehow knew that I must remain silent and I was there merely to observe. I was overwhelmed with joy to see my ex lover the other side of the window, much younger than when he had passed, stunningly handsome in his 20's and fit and well. He was wearing a beautifully cut pale blue suit, white open neck shirt and gold cufflinks. He was in a rather run down dark wood living room/kitchenette full of clutter and interacting with what was very evidently a very poor family, of a different ethnic background to himself (it appeared to be their home). The parents were in the background watching him and smiling and he was having great fun playing the children and he was throwing the youngest children into the air and catching them as they giggled with glee, and he was crawling around on the floor playing various silly games with them. All were having a fun time including him, laughing and playing.  I was just mesmerized and so beside myself with joy to see him again although he wasn't aware I was there.  Then I was telepathically told by my/his guides? that he was there to learn to show empathy and kindness to those less well off than himself and that the 'lesson' was working and he was doing well. 

At that point I began to stir and felt myself coming out of the dream and wake up, but I was so upset, I said 'no, no, I want to see him more' and much to my amazement and relief I didn't wake and the dream went on into a second part! 

I was now travelling on the upper deck of one of our local double-decker buses (they are not just in London :-)) travelling through the countryside. I could see a beautiful blue sky through the windows and the bus was brightly lit by sunshine streaming through the windows. The bus seemed to be quite crowded, (but on later reflection I realized none of the other passengers seemed solid, more like transparent outlines of people).  My lover was walking down the aisle of the bus looking for a seat wearing exactly the same outfit of the pale blue suit I had seen him in earlier. Once again I was beside myself with joy to see him again and he beamed at me as I patted the empty seat next to me and said 'sit next to me'. He sat down and told me what a lovely time he had been having and attending lots of parties, where he was popular with ladies (he was keen to impress me!) and socializing :-) He made no mention of any career and I was left with the impression he was behaving more like an excited college student, he really was buzzing with excitement of his life now. He flirted outrageously with me and for a fleeting moment I was appalled to look down and realize I was still in my nightwear and realized I hadn't brushed my hair or done my teeth! So I guess I was aware I was dreaming? However he was smiling his gorgeous smile at me and I realized he couldn't care less, so I decided I couldn't look too bad and flirted back. 

I commented on the scenery as the bus began to descend a steep hill, but instead of seeing the little English town where I live instead lay a beautiful European looking town of brightly colored villas with terracotta colored roofs, more akin to Italy or the South of France, very picturesque and appealing. 

As our bus began to descend the hill, he again gave me the most overwhelmingly broad smile, and then moved his face really close to mine, so close that the main thing I could see were his extremely penetrating and lovely eyes looking deep into mine. (I am almost embarrassed to admit I was like a lovelorn teenage girl!) Then he asked (I couldn't tell if his lips moved we were too close) but in a serious tone 'Do you really really want ME?' (as opposed to any other man I presumed?) I blurted out 'Yes, yes!' I became very aware that the answers I gave him were really important now and he was testing me as to how much I loved him and that he would know if I lied. Then he asked 'would you do anything for me?' and I blurted out 'anything anything!'. I again feel almost embarrassed now that I had absolutely NO ego (although strangely he did as he was aware he was/is very handsome which he was in real life). I knew that he wanted to be sure I loved him 100% and once I answered him he knew that I did.  I cannot stress enough I knew the questions he asked and my answers were very important. Then I felt he was confident and assured by my replies and he just 'said' 'Good' and he kissed me so passionately it almost 'blew my boots off' :-)  We sank back against the seat of the bus still kissing and then slowly passengers and bus melted away and I was awake again. I tried to drift back into the dream, but it was no use it had gone. I did shed a few tears when the dream was over as I wanted it to go on and on, but I was also so relieved to hear from him, (as there is no guarantee of a visitation dream as you all know) and I was so happy to have such a beautiful, beautiful dream from him, I have to say it has brought me a lot of peace. Even though I am still sad, I really would like to think by his behavior that we will be meeting up again for sure, possibly reincarnating together? as I really did feel he was my soulmate and our time together had been suddenly cut short in this life. The dream was very very vivid, was logical, the colors were very intense and I could even feel his kiss.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?           No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?          No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes

           Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:          He had a conversation with me.

           Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?    I heard him, but it might have been telepathically.

           If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?     The same as his voice.

           Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No.

           Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?           Absolutely not.

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?      Yes

Passionate kiss on the lips.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? Very familiar!!!

           Was anything communicated by the touch?           Yes. See dream details.

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No.

Did you see the deceased?       Yes

As handsome as he was in his 20's. He was retirement age when he died. Interestingly he wore an expensive smart suit in a color he wouldn't have normally worn in real life, in real life he wore casual clothes like jeans and t-shirts and only very occasionally a suit.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Completely solid.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       All of him.

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?        Years younger than when he died.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            Very healthy.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?   No

How long did the experience last?      Can't tell as it was a dream.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?          Sudden beginning went into the dream immediately, the ending was gradual fading until I woke.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?   Yes

Full of joy and excitement.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  Sort of in that he told me what he was doing now.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was probably real

           Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:     The criteria for a visitation dream matches most of those I have read. The preceding dreams to the dream from my lover also made sense in preparing the way for my dream. I had gone to sleep many nights wishing so hard to hear from him I know there is no way I could have engineered the dream in my head, because I was just dreaming garbled rubbish. After taking some comfort from reading about NDE's and ADC's my grief lessened slightly as I had heard from him clairaudiently by then.

           Was the experience dream like in any way?           Yes

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: Sheer overwhelming joy. I thought my heart was going to burst out of my chest at seeing him again, just like a lovelorn teenage girl! No ego at all.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?         Yes

It has definitely healed some of my grief and I am pretty sure that if there is an afterlife we will be together again. So relief and peace.

What was the best and worst part of your experience? The sheer joy of seeing him again. The sadness at waking up.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain                 Describe:     Just more at peace.