Laura D's
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Yesterday, March 14th.
Leaving in the morning to watch my 11 yr old dance, unknown to me it was a
surprise dedication to her grandfather, my husband. I could hear him say I
wasn't dressed warm enough. " Have to keep my baby warm", I could hear him say.
I turned around and changed coats. Returning to my car leaving the event our
song was on the radio. "I don't want to miss a thing". Then I was off to my 16
yr old granddaughters fundraiser. She is going to Costa Rica this summer to
learn scuba and study wildlife in impoverished countries, he was so excited for
her. "Tiny Dancer", the song I walked to my husband on our wedding day is on the
radio. I return home after a long day. I decide to open dreaded mail, I pray to
husband to please let it be good news. It was good news and I say out loud
"thank you baby'. I sit down on the couch,look at the clock, it is 8:20 pm.
My
dog starts to act up. Throwing toys, jumping on back of couch, but looks very
happy. Suddenly and swiftly, and I thought I heard a swoosh, I can smell and
feel my husband on my face. On my chest he moves right in. I can see his
freckles on his shoulders. I can see his damp hair right in front of my eyes. I
can't see him physically, but I see these things. It makes no sense to me, but I
can. I know at this moment it is making no sense, but can see, and smell him,
and feel him in my arms. I really am holding him. Closer than ever in real life,
like he is part way in my chest. My head rests against his. I am wide awake,
crying quietly, speaking to him quietly, as I don't want him to leave. I look at
the dog and I know he sees the same. This lasts for 5 minutes or more. I am so
afraid during this that the phone will ring or someone will interrupt this, at
the same time trying to not let myself be distracted by these thoughts. I feel
guilty that I was the one that let him go. He was not leaving. I was becoming so
physically exhausted I couldn't hold on anymore. Again, I felt spiritually
renewed, with a sense of safety and refreshed, but physically drained. My shirt
was damp when it was all over.
Was this experience difficult to express in words?
No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the
deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?
Yes
Did you hear the deceased or hear something
associated with the deceased?
Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was
communicated:
see above
Did the voice or sound seem to
originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice
or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?
a sense of communication. Externally but not
actually physically, if that makes any sense.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar
from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?
Always his voice
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other
source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?
No
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time
of the experience?
No, although I have suffered from a buzzing in my ears that sometimes lasts for
days. Dr cannot determine why.
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical
contact from the deceased?
Yes
Held his hand
Felt him pass by me, very close
Held him
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?
Familiar
Was anything communicated by the touch?
Safety
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in
the surroundings at the time of your experience?
No
Did you see the deceased?
Yes
Healthy
How clearly did the deceased appear?
Clearly, but not physically, cannot describe
How much of the deceased did you see?
Parts
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which
they died?
Yes age of death
How healthy did the deceased appear to be?
healthy
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other
source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?
No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance
or odor associated with the deceased?
Yes
What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?
Just "his" smell
Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?
Yes...him
Was anything communicated by the smell?
I am here
Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was
from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your
experience?
No
How long did the experience last?
November, I can't
determine
Yesterday 10 minutes?
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
starts out sudden with a swoosh, ends gradually
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
Greatest love
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?
No
How do you currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
I just do.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
Yes
First time in November I believe I was sleeping
March, yesterday, I was wide awake
What
did you feel (while awake) immediately prior to your experience?
Relaxed
Happy
Describe in detail
your feelings/emotions during the experience:
Relieved of news mail brought. Emotional happy day, knowing Larry must be so
proud of the granddaughters. Missing him, of course, every night.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
I know he loves me still
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
The best is feeling the the love.
The worst is it makes me miss him even more.
Saying goodbye again
Has your life changed specifically as a result of
your experience?
Uncertain
Describe:
These visits help me heal and keep me stable for a while
Did you have any
changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No
Did the experience give you any spiritual
understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?
Yes
They are all around us
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever
dies first will try to contact the other(s).
Have you ever made such a compact?
Yes
I promised him that I would visit him
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your
experience that could be verified later?
No
What emotions did you
feel during the experience?
contentment
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?
Uncertain
Our dog
Did you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes
In November
Did you have a sense of knowing, special
knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
I just was in awe. Indescribable.
Did you become aware of future events?
No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other
special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the
experience?
No
Did you experience a separation of your
consciousness from your body?
Uncertain
November I am not sureDid
you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?
Uncertain
I have in the past. Not during these times. I used to meditate, but stopped
because I believe I was starting to leave my body. I would start to see a line
of white transparent silhouettes, and it scared me. So I stopped.
Did you see a light?
Yes
In November, a great light
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a
place other than the location described above?
Yes
I know he took me places, I just know where and I don't remember it all.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes
I only tell people who will believe me
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other
researcher or web site?
No
Were there any associated medications or substances with the
potential to affect the experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body
experience or other spiritual event?
Yes
As explained above with meditation.
I had a visit from my mother 10 years ago. She actually had me
touch her lips.