Larry M's
ADC
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I was woken up at about 6:15 am in Los Angeles. I had an overpowering external sense of loss, sadness, regret, and some feeling of affection or connection. "External" meaning I did not feel that these feelings were mine, but rather were given to me by some other source, some other person. The feelings lasted about one or two minutes. During this time I was crying. I don't cry, in my memory this is one of two times I have cried since I turned 20. I also had the strong sense that the feelings came from someone female.
During this time I was a graduate student in theoretical physics. Later that same day I attended a lecture on Quantum Field Theory at Caltech.
The previous December I had gotten my girlfriend pregnant. While I was fine with her pregnancy, she was strongly ambivalent, excited at the notion of starting a family and terrified that she would make a lousy mother. Her own mother had been hospitalized during her youth due to mental illness and she feared the same would happen to her.
I learned two days later that at the exact time I was woken up with these feelings, she was in Pittsburgh PA undergoing an abortion - the abortion apparently started at 8:30am EST.
There were no effects on my normal senses, nothing visual, auditory, tactile.
I
was not able to ascertain the sex of the fetus, sorry.
At the time of
this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
Was
the experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness?
The entire time.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?
Normal consciousness and alertness
Did
your vision during the experience differ in any way from your normal, everyday
vision (in any way, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth
perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
No
Did
you have any visual impairment during your normal everyday life immediately
prior to the time of the experience?
No
Did
your hearing during the experience differ in any way from your normal, everyday
hearing (in any way, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound,
pitch, loudness, etc.)?
No
Did
you have any hearing impairment during your normal everyday life immediately
prior to the time of the experience?
No
Did
you experience consciousness / awareness apart from your physical / earthly
body?
No
Did
you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring at a time that your
consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
No
Did
you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during the time that your
consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body that you
later (after your experience) verified really happened or was real?
No
Did
you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during the time that your
consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body that you
later (after your experience) verified did not really happen or was not real?
No
Did
you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during the time that your
consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical body that were located
far beyond any possible physical sensory awareness of your physical / earthly
body?
No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
sadness, loss
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel?
No
Did
you see an unearthly light?
No
Did
you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who
are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha,
etc.)?
No
Did
you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth, but
whose earthly lives had ended prior to the time of your experience (they were
deceased)?
Yes My daughter.
Did
you encounter or become aware of any earthly beings who were alive at the time
of your experience (they were not deceased)?
No
Did
you become aware of past events in your life?
No
Did
you suddenly seem to understand everything?
I
must say, were I to have one of these NDEs I would quickly try to learn as much
physics as I could. I'm deeply disappointed that so many say they suddenly
understood all of life and science, but bring nothing back to us.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
scenes from the future come to you?
Neither
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that there
is
continued existence after earthly life (life after death)?
Yes My daughter was clinically dead at the fetal age of roughly four months,
but had no problem communicating with me.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that there is
no
continued existence after earthly life (no life after death)?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that God or a supreme being really
does
exist?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that God or a supreme being really
does not
exist?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that some or all of us currently living our earthly lives
did
have some type of existence prior to our current earthly lives?
Yes Life clearly does not start at birth, but sometime shortly after
conception. For the record, I'm now against abortion but I'm not at all an
activist or proselytizer.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that some or all of us currently living our earthly lives
did not
have some type of existence prior to our current earthly lives?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that there
exists
a mystical connection, oneness, or unity that connects some or all of us
currently living our earthly lives with something else, such as other being(s)
or other thing(s)?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that there
does not exist
a mystical connection, oneness, or unity that connects some or all of us
currently living our earthly lives with something else, such as other being(s)
or other thing(s)?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly lifes meaning or purpose?
No