In the sitting area we always shared to watch the deer and listen to the birds, sitting in my chair, his now empty with my heart breaking......two yellow butterfly's with none other around flew in front of me and then one landed on my arm and the other one on my leg and they stayed that way for a long time, at least five minutes. Never once in my lifetime has this happened.  It made me quit crying and I started to smile and then I laughed and I knew it was from Gordon. It was so comforting. 

One other time shortly after his death and I was in a wheelchair recovering from a very badly fractured leg ( yes, it was quite a bad year ) with the door open reflecting on losses and crying my eyes out with the big door open, a hummingbird flew into the garage, all the way into the middle and hovered in front of my face and stayed that way forever it seemed. Just looked at me in the eyes unafraid as if it were studying me. It had the same effect as the butterfly's.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         Uncertain

I've only ever seen him once in a dream and it was so real that I was amazed to realize I'd dreamt it, not lived it. He was sitting in the front room with our cat who had also passed on and was his favorite. They both looked incredibly healthy and content.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           It happened and the level of feeling it brought with it was so powerful.

there was comfort and love with both the butterfly's and the hummingbird.

I felt loved. It was the closest thing to getting a hug from the other side there can be.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Wonderment. Gratefulness, thankful, love, relief.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

Yes and no. It's so hard to not miss the one person in the world that made you a better person and loved you despite yourself. six years later and the grief still exists.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The comfort that came with it.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?   No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            The same as above.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

I have dreamt things or thought things that have come true. My sisters death and my husbands death in roundabout fashion that later when thought about was a sense of impending death.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     Some people believe it is a sign and others look at you funny.

I choose carefully whom I tell.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes 

After a c-section and apparently bleeding internally and losing blood pressure I drifted away with a feeling of warmth and comfort. i wasn't afraid of dying and thought I was. Actually I was pretty close to dying until the nurse caught what was going on.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

As close as one can get without somebody actually being there to ask.