Experience description:
Jan. 18/11 approx. 9:30
a.m. surgery (hysterectomy) for the next 24 hrs. a severe reaction to the drug
hydro morphine. I have memories of the experience but in my mind the time frame
was shorter, in reality it lasted approx. 12hrs. My memories are as follows:
Coming to on the stretcher in the recovery room on all fours like a dog ready to
jump, then the nurse yelling right in my face to lay down. It shocked me, I
looked around the room to see many doctors and nurses. Apparently I was coded
as a medical emergency therefore the race team came to the rescue. That little
stunt caused them to restrain both my arms. The next thing I remember was
squeezing my legs thru the rungs of the stretcher right down to the waist trying
to get out, that as well caused leg restraints! When I came to next it was
approx. 12:00 a.m. Jan 19/11, I found myself in the step down unit and a nurse
24/7. From then until morning I was very aware but in and out of sleep.
By morning I was as
good as new with a blazing desire to walk. So I talked the nurse into removing
my catheter and I walked to my knew room on another floor of the hospital. They
were so impressed they called me a rock star! For the next 24 hrs I couldn't
stop, I walked continuously around my floor. On the morning of Jan. 20/11, I
got up, showered and dressed before the nurse came in to do my first set of
vitals. I was sure I would be going home that day. Unfortunately that was not
the case the nurse did do my vitals only to announce I had a fever. Within 2
hrs. I was projectile vomiting as well as diarrhea which landed me in isolation
for 9 days. As well, my incision abscessed which required reopening and my
potassium dropped to 2.8 along with crazy blood pressure and electrolytes.
Next came a head ache
like I've never experience before and it lasted at least four full days. I was
finally released with a bucket load of pills, many eating and drinking
restrictions and a nurse every day to pack my belly.
I thought I was in
heaven and that first afternoon I was walking my neighborhood
listening to the rolling stones just as I do on every work out. This time
something different happened when I turned my iPod on to the stones I couldn't
quit listening to the song that was playing (tumbling dice) over and over and
over. I didn't know why I just kept hitting repeat and by day 2 I was up to 3
walks a day for 1 hr each walk. I was getting blisters on my feet that would
disappear or just not hurt. Then on day 3 first thing in the morning the
spirits started coming. First my grandmother came with a few messages which I
delivered. Then my brother in law came with a few messages which again I
delivered. Then my mother and father in law came and again the cycle repeated
enough times that I found myself asking for validation less and less.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes Unbelievable/overwhelming
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes After surgery my experience started with a animal like reaction to the
drug "hydro morphine"
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
Always, they started when I was walking and listening to the stones but now they
come whenever.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was
different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please
explain:
Always, they started when I was walking and listening to the stones but now they
come whenever.
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
No
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
Yes I would hear spirit talk, I knew who it was and I would
immediately visualize them in my minds eye.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
None
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did
you see a light?
No
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes I would hear their voice then visualize them they were all deceased from
my current life. Then I heard a voice I didn't recognize, I had to ask who is
this then I new it was my sister that was still born 2 yrs ahead of me her name
is Tracy we have the same voice that's why I didn't recognize her.
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
Yes When I was a three year old child I witnessed a cat get hit by a car and
killed. There was blood and it scared me but it taught me to teach my little
brother not to ride his bike down our driveway and onto the road. Or that is
what I thought until now since my hospital stay that spirit has come to me and
told me a different story. Her name is Theresa and she was my first husbands
sister that died in a car accident when she was eighteen, I never met her in
this life.
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Yes Most of the messages I've given people have already proven right yet I
still have people questioning my sanity.
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
No
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes I believe this was drg induced and the only time it happened.
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes I was given the reason why to many of my lifes questions. As well, I
was told the role of many of the people connected to me in this life. Along
with the solution to their problem.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes I was told by a spiritual mentor which I had never consulted in the past
that I needed to have theaputic touch done, I needed to be grounded.
Did
you become aware of future events?
Yes
I was told to call my son which I had a conflict with and had not
talked to in six months. I did only to find out he tried to commit suicide the
day before. He is now back home where he belongs doing very well.
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes Messages which i've given and have proven correct.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes I shared immediately but only to those involved then I tried to slowly
communicate to the people closest to me but some feel in losing it!
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real I've had to ask for validation to prove to
myself that this is real and I get it!
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
They
all are linked now I feel I know how and why.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real I'm still proving it thru the messages I get.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
Non
believers find it easier to think your insane.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
The
word that comes most often is "overwhelming"
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes I could describe many more experiences since then they just keep coming
but so far the questions are perfect according to my experience.
Are
there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?
I thought it was excellent!!