I was visiting my cousin in California, and sleeping in her guest room with the door shut.  It was early in the morning, maybe 6:30 a.m., and I woke up because I needed to use the washroom which is out in the hallway.  I could hear that she and her husband were already awake and talking in the washroom while getting ready for work (...having a shower, shaving, putting on make-up, etc.)  I decided to wait for them to finish and leave for work before I went to the washroom.  I was only in a short night shirt, and I had bed-head, smudged make-up from the night before, morning breath, etc.  I didn't want to bump into her husband and have to make conversation while being so yucky.  Furthermore, I was too tired to get dressed and brush my hair.  I was getting impatient because they only have one washroom and I had to go really badly.  I knew they should have been leaving any minute but they seemed to be taking forever.   

I say all this as "proof" (to myself and to you) that I was definitely awake.  This was not a dream. 

I started to get up because I thought I heard them leave the house.  I almost opened the bedroom door when I heard my cousin's husband talking again so I went back to the bed to lay down.  (Yes, feeling frustrated!) 

I laid down on the bed and rolled on one side to try to get comfortable with my full bladder.  Almost immediately I had the strange feeling I was being watched.  I thought I must have left the door ajar and that my cousin or her husband were peeking in to see if I was awake.  I opened my eyes to say good morning, but the door was still shut. 

There was a transparent figure of a punk-rock / Cindy Lauper looking girl, perhaps about 20 years old, standing at the foot of the wrought iron bed.  I couldn't see her lower legs because of the foot board and my duvet being bunched up at the end of the bed, so I don't know if she was on the ground or not.  I can't really recall the details of what she looked like, but I think her hair was kind of pink, she had a lot of piercings and dark denim or leather 80's style ripped clothes.  I was blinking repeatedly because this was a crazy sight to behold, especially when I was fully expecting to see my cousin. 

Before I could speak or scream, a calm feeling came over me and I didn't panic. 

The girl said, "Why don't you believe in ghosts?" (This is weird, because I do, despite a tiny bit of self-doubt which everyone likely feels).    Then she gestured with her head by lifting her chin and looking behind me toward the wall, as if she wanted me to follow her gaze. 

When I looked toward the head of the bed there was a ball of ultra-violet light, about the size of a small soccer ball, rotating in the air behind my left shoulder.  It was sparkly and changing / morphing shape, looking like it had electrical energy.  It was silent, beautiful and peaceful.  It hovered.  For a moment I tried my best to ask every question possible, thinking it was my father who had passed about a year earlier, and wanting validation.  I don't know if I asked questions and got answers which I was not allowed to remember, or if I didn't get time to answer the questions.  Either way, I don't remember the questions or answers but I felt totally enlightened and full of radiant peace nonetheless. 

Then it all faded away.   

I laid in bed for quite some time and finally heard my cousin and her husband leave for work. 

I told her about the strange experience that night. She was not surprised at all because she believes in ghosts, supernatural events herself.  The interesting thing is that she said one of her friends died in the 80's, in a car crash when they were in high school.  She was a punk rock girl with pink hair who loved Cindy Lauper.  My cousin couldn't find a picture of the girl to show me, but I think the coincidence is significant enough! 

Perhaps the friend knew that my cousin totally believes in ghosts, but sensed my 1% of uncertainty? 

That 1% is now gone!

This is interesting because my father died at Christmas. People told me that was such a sad time to lose him, but I said "I believe he will be in the Christmas lights every year, shining in their electrical energy" and ever since, I find Christmas even better because I know that he is a Christmas angel.  So, it was interesting that I saw a violet light with electrical energy, rather than my father's figure.  Violet is my favorite color so it seems like a fitting way for him to present himself.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Uncertain

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    Heard the punk girl, not sure if I heard anything from the violet orb.

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  The girl seemed telepathic.

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           I didn't know the girl.

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           NO

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   NO

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         No

I didn't see my father, but I saw the violet orb which I identified as my father.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            A floating violet orb with electrical energy.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        Unsure, felt like only 1 or 2 minutes.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         Started suddenly, ended gradually.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Uncertain

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  I think so, but it is like I wasn't "allowed" to remember.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           I know I was awake because of listening and waiting for my cousin.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No        

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I loved it and didn't want it to end.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I felt closer to my father.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      I hated that it ended.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:      I believe my dad is OK in heaven.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes My cousin knew the punk girl.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Calmness and relaxation, total peace.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain

I can't say how long this lasted.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

I feel like my questions were answered, but that I am not allowed to remember.

Did you become aware of future events?       Uncertain

I think so, but not permitted to remember.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            Yes

The punk rock girl who acted as a messenger.

Did you see a light?           Yes

A violet orb, rotating and floating with electrical energy.

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     My cousin validated the punk rock girl dying in the 80s.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Uncertain 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes