Jos G's
ADC
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It was a time when because of my different "life style" my brothers had agreed to give me a beating (something that was told to me by the wife of one of them). Although I was already a grown individual and had lived in the USA for a few years on my own the pain caused to my mother and the sadness caused to me by my brothers attitudes forced to think one night between choosing a good career opportunity in my home land or get back to the USA where I could be again my own self.
One night
while thinking about the problem laying in bed with my arms behind the back of
my head and trying to find the solution to the situation my father suddenly
appeared at the end of the bed. Although the room was in darkness there was a
light that every time I try to remember now it always seems to have been with a
beautiful green cast rather than a bright yellow or golden light. He (My dad)
looked as old as he was when he died but even though at the time of his dead his
legs had already been amputated due to diabetes the way I saw him was with his
two legs, standing before me. I did ask him why I saw him the way I did, again,
his answer could not be expressed in words since it embraced the meanings of
"that it the way you would recognize me" to the extreme that "it did not matter
the look in which I perceived him". Our conversation which went on with
questions and answers seem to happen in a micro second and yet there were things
told to me that would have gone against his character when he was alive. One of
them was to confront my brothers and talk to them with the truth in my heart.
There were other questions that I asked and answers that left no room for
doubts, again, it was not a conversation with words but with "thoughts" that
fulfilled all my questions and left no room for doubts. He also told me that I
would never be alone and even though my moral state was so depressed at the time
I feeling of calm and peace filled my mind and my heart. Needless to say,
following his instructions was the best thing that I could have ever done in my
life. When his image was gone I stayed in a sort of shock, awake with my eyes
fully opened and with a sense of joy in my heart. Although I have tried to call
my father many times for advise on decisions in my life I've never had the
experience of seeing him again. I know that he is somewhere watching over me and
that some day I will be able to see him once again when my time comes.
Was the
kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes The experience was that my dead father appeared to me and a conversation
took place between us without the use of our voices. It was rather a
communication with thoughts whose answers were so fulfilling that it would be
impossible with any language to encompass the same meaning with words. The
answers left no room for doubt even though some of them were against what my
father used to believe when he was alive.
At the
time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
At what
time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and
alertness?
Yes, I was fully awake in bed but sitting up against the wall.
How did
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare
to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your
highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different
from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:
I felt I was taken to a different level of consciousness much different than the
physical world. It is hard for me to explain the sensation of the experience, it
is difficult to find words that can fully tell the sense of like not being there
with in reality I was sitting on my own bed in my own room. There was nothing in
the world that could interrupt our conversation. It was that clear and focused.
Did your
vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such
as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes My light in the room was turned off and yet my fathers presence and a
"glow" cast by a beautiful yellow-green light made me see his image very clear.
Although at the time I was not aware of the items that surrounded me. There is,
items like tables, my bed, etc.
Did your
hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect,
such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Yes There were no sounds only thoughts were exchanged.
Did you
experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Uncertain
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
Peace, joy and the resolution of doing what I had been told to do.
Did you
pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did you
see a light?
Yes There was not a yellow light but a yellow-green light with a beautiful
cast that seemed to envelope our bodies.
Did you
meet or see any other beings?
No
Did you
experience a review of past events in your life?
Yes Yes, what I learned has helped me find more peace within myself and gave
the knowledge that no matter how we are there is a mission to do and a lot of
"learning" to be achieved.
Did you
observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that
could be verified later?
Uncertain I guess the best way I could verify the experience is by doing
what I was told to do and finding results that I was too faraway to imagine.
Did you
see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Yes I cannot say that I experienced a beautiful place. But definitely a
different dimension.
Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
Uncertain I feel that the conversation I had with my dead father should have
taken quite a few minutes but somehow it seemed like it all happened in one
microsecond in time if that is possible.?
Did you
have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes I came to be more understanding with other people and more tolerant with
different levels of knowledge in our physical world. I understood that human
quality is equal to all human beings. I understood that we all can learn from
one another and that one life time (as we see it) is not enought to understand
the reasons for our being here and other sensations or feelings in general.
Did you
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Uncertain I felt no boundries at the time. No travel through a tunnel I
seemed to stay were I was, although, everything around me either did not matter
or coud not be perceived.
Did you
become aware of future events?
Uncertain
The only awarness I had was that if doing was told to do the future
would be better and the road would be easier.
Did you
have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you
did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain I can't say after the experience, I had other experiences in my
life since I was a little boy that had no relation to the experience I had with
my father.
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes It was only years later that I shared my experience (not fully) with some
members of my family and friends. Their reactions have been different in all
instances. I am sure that some of them have been influenced by my experience and
others found my experience unreal.
Did you
have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
How did
you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real An experience like mine cannot be forgotten.
Ever. If anything at all in time some details may seem fuzzy as time goes by but
the presence and the reality of what happened remain within me.
Were
there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
The entire
experience was meaninful in my life. It took forever fears and feelings of guilt
that I had carried for a long time. It also gave me a sense of security from
that point on in my life.
How do
you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real To the present my life has been affected
on a daily basis with the experience that I had. It makes me think more positive
and in more constructive ways about my peers.
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I basically
found that my sense of people became sharper. I can tell if someone is truly
honest or if there is something that they are hiding. At the same time I have to
understand that many of these things are part of our human nature and cannot be
change but by the individual himself.
Have
your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
Only
that these type of experiences change one's life, the way we perceive things in
our world and the knowledge that there is another place or dimension where we
continue to exist after our pysical presence cease to exist. A place where time
and space do not matter.
Did the
questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes There is
much to explain, to the best of my knowledge I have explained my own experience
but to relate this with words is somehow akward.
Are
there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?
No all questions are aimed to tell about the experience although I do not
consider my experience as a Near Death.