Joanna M's ADC
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The next grandmother experience was maybe 10 years later. My roommate and I had
moved into an apartment in a house that was being renovated. None of the other
apartments were rented except for one on the top floor. My apartment was on the
2nd floor. The day we moved into the apartment my dog refused to climb the
stairs to go into the apartment--she acted afraid and I had to carry her,
shaking, into the house. The apartment had been freshly painted, and one of the
closet doors was sealed shut from the paint. I tried opening it, but couldn't.
We didn't have any furniture yet, so we slept on the living room floor in
bedrolls.
The apartment felt creepy to me. Maybe it was because of my dog's reaction to
it. Maybe because I came home one day to find the closet door that had been
stuck was now standing open, or because a bar of soap that had been on the
bathroom sink was now in the middle of the living room floor. I don't know, but
I'll admit to feeling some fear inside the house.
One night, maybe the 2nd or 3rd night I was there I had been sound asleep on the
living room floor. I heard my name being called. The voice was my grandmother's.
She was saying my name with her Lithuanian accent. I looked up and saw her
standing in the open doorway beckoning me to follow her. She said, 'You have to
leave here. This house is unlucky.' Certain that I was dreaming I turned away
from her to continue sleeping. That's when she crossed the room and shook me.
'Listen to me,' she said. 'You have to leave here.' Still half asleep I looked
up at her, but still thought it was a dream. She was having none of my ignoring
her. She said, 'Pay attention to me. I'm not going to leave until you promise me
that you will move out of this house.' I mumbled that I would. She said,
'Promise me!' I nodded my head. 'I promise.' Then she disappeared. I was so
convinced that my grandmother was really there that I moved out of the house by
the end of the first week.
Was this experience difficult to express in words?
No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the
deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?
No
Did you hear the deceased or hear something
associated with the deceased?
Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was
communicated:
I heard her voice with
my ears.
Did the voice or sound seem to
originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice
or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?
Outside of me, as if the person was talking to me
through normal communication.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar
from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?
Exactly the same, accent and all.
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other
source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?
No.
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time
of the experience?
No.
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical
contact from the deceased?
Yes
She touched me on my shoulder when I ignored her attempt to communicate
with me.
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?
Like being shaken awake.
Was anything communicated by the touch?
Yes. She was communicating 'don't ignore me.'
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in
the surroundings at the time of your experience?
None whatsoever.
Did you see the deceased?
Yes
She looked exactly like she did in life. No shimmering light or anything
like that.
How clearly did the deceased appear?
Solid.
How much of the deceased did you see?
All of her.
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which
they died?
Same age as when she died.
How healthy did the deceased appear to be?
Same as before she died--no visible infirmities.
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other
source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?
No.
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance
or odor associated with the deceased?
No
How long did the experience last?
I'm not sure. Probably
less than five minutes.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
Sudden in the beginning and end.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
Frustrated that I thought I was dreaming.
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?
No.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
In both instances I heard a voice. In the first one
when I was 10 years old I was still awake. In the later experience I was
awakened from a sound sleep and thought I was dreaming until my grandmother
shook me awake and insisted I answer her. It was like no dream I'd ever had.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
No
Describe in detail
your feelings/emotions during the experience:
During the first experience I was somewhat confused because I had never had
anything like that happen. I was unafraid, and felt peaceful, but at the same
time I was questioning myself, 'Was that real?' That's why I immediately got out
of bed to ask my mother if she was in my room. The only reason I thought it
might be my grandmother was because I was praying for her at the time. During
the second experience, after being touched by my grandmother, I no longer felt I
was dreaming. I had no fear, but I wondered why she used the term 'unlucky.' I
don't know why she was so insistent that I leave, but I never regretted doing
so. The funny thing is that the landlord must have thought I was nuts because
when she asked me why I was leaving I told her the house was haunted.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?
No Response
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
There was no worst part. The best part was seeing that my grandmother was
still alive somewhere and could reach out to me.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of
your experience?
Uncertain
Describe:
Both experiences, and the one that I wrote about in a separate questionnaire
caused me to explore spirituality.
Experience description 2441:
My
friend's father passed away while hunting with his son on Thanksgiving Day.
Family arrived from out of town the next day or so and the house was full. I
slept on the living room sofa, and several of Joe's grandkids slept on the
living room floor. I don't know what woke me up, but I half sat up and turned
around to see if someone was coming into the living room. That's when I saw Joe
standing in front of the entrance door. He was looking straight at me. The room
was dark, but he was bright, as if he were lit up. He was dressed in his
Barbershop costume, a yellow jacket and dark pants, the same outfit in which he
was buried. I was frightened, so much so that I tried to scream, but I couldn't
make a sound. Joe never said anything or moved from the spot. I stared at him
for several seconds until he faded away. I then went back to sleep. I knew the
experience wasn't a dream because it was nothing like any dream I'd ever had.
Was this experience difficult to express in words?
No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the
deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?
No
Did you hear the deceased or hear something
associated with the deceased?
No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical
contact from the deceased?
No
Did you see the deceased?
Yes
He looked exactly like he looked any other day. He looked healthy and
peaceful.
How clearly did the deceased appear?
Solid. As if he was alive.
How much of the deceased did you see?
Full body.
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which
they died?
Same age.
How healthy did the deceased appear to be?
Very healthy. Had no infirmities before death.
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other
source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?
No.
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance
or odor associated with the deceased?
No
How long did the experience last?
Less than a minute.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
The end was more gradual--he faded away.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?
Uncertain
He was not smiling or frowning, but he had a peaceful demeanor.
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?
No.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
I know he was there. It was not a dream. Also, a
few days later I was having dinner with Joe's wife. She said Joe came to her in
a dream and told her that he was very happy, that the afterlife was beautiful,
and he described there being a school where he could learn many things.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
No
Describe in detail
your feelings/emotions during the experience:
I was very frightened. I had a very real fear of the dark and things that go
bump in the night.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
I felt less afraid of my own death because I saw with my own eyes that
there is life after death.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
The worst was how frightened I was. The best was that I knew Joe was still
alive.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of
your experience?
No