My son in law passed away by suicide. His daughter, my granddaughter was staying at my house that night. She is a preschooler and did not know he was deceased. It had been a very distressing night for our family and we were in a terrible state of shock. I had got into bed with her in the effort to try to get her to go to sleep. She was sitting up in the bed and I was lying down but fully awake. She pointed with her first finger at the wall in the corner of the room directly in front of a mirror hanging on the wall. She had a huge smile on her face all of a sudden and said "Dad". Then "Dadda" all while she was pointing her finger. Then she looked confused and disappointed and looked away and just carried on with not going to sleep. I didn't see anything but she clearly did. She wasn't told he was dead until 2 days later and she was very upset. I didn't ask her if she saw him - it felt wrong to ask her. I felt like I had witnessed something I cannot explain.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No    

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?      When she said "Dadda"

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      Normal consciousness and alertness   I was under extreme stress and acute grief.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   I was wearing glasses as per normal I had not taken them off.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Hearing as normal

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Horrified, confused, privileged  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   No  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Yes   Son in law was confirmed deceased that afternoon by the Police visit to our home. This event happened that night at 11pm. His daughter pointed him out in the room. She behaved like he was really there, like he had just appeared in the room. She was happy to see him and was not frightened by his presence.

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes   My granddaughter recognized and pointed out her father in the room hours after he had died. Before she knew he was dead.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   This is not an experience anyone else I know has had. It was very specific.

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I consider myself agnostic. I cannot be certain that there is an afterlife because I need to be dead to find out. This experience has made me question my agnostic beliefs.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience     

My experience directly resulted in:   Moderate changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   I now believe we have the ability after our death to show our image to our important people who are still alive. I felt like my son in law was either having a bit of fun or sending me a message.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No  

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     My daughter and I had been discussing the afterlife weeks before her husband died. My agnostic beliefs and her beliefs that something exists. She felt her daughter had been playing with her deceased father in law. I was skeptic. This was a conversation on messenger.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  I immediately told my partner who was in the house at the time but not in the bedroom. Co-workers. They are mystified too.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Yes   What I have read about online - general stories that have similarities.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   I was disturbed by the experience and felt it has impacted my life since.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   I have become a bit obsessed with the stories of others on the internet. I know its grief but I can't forget that experience.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?      No

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No     

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes   I have given all the information to the best of my knowledge