Jess S's
ADC
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My wife and I lived together by ourselves in our own house for more than 10 years after my two children got married and had lived in their own houses.
My wife had a sudden death due to pneumonia in midnight of June 1, 2007 (pronounced dead at 12:02 of June 2). No goodbyes were said; no last words. In fact, hours before her death we (with my daughter and her husband) were joking and planning to convert our big house into a boarding house as soon as she gets well. But death came unannounced.
After her funeral (June 10) my daughter allowed her 11 year old son (my grandson) to sleep with me so that I could have a companion every night. I always had a lampshade with a low-power bulb switched on so that my grandson could find his way to the toilet just in case he would like to go there in the middle of the night.
On our third night together (June 12), my grandson deliberately switched off the light because he said the lamp was too bright during that night and he could not sleep.
I woke up about 4:00 a.m. (I checked my timepiece) to find that the room was very dark. I thought there was a power failure during that time. I looked towards the switch of the lamp near the door with the intention of switching the lamp on. Just then I noticed a very white mist (like a cloud) forming and becoming bigger. In a few moments it had covered the entire wall where the door was situated. I got up and stared at it attentively because my attention was caught by several figures in it, all dressed in white. I can see only their faces because their white clothing blended with the white cloud in the background. Then I began to recognize the face of my wife in the middle of the other faces. I then realized that she was accompanied by several angels! I can clearly see the tips of some of their wings (our usual idea of angels!) as they were flapped outside of the cloud. Then all of them began to raise one of their hands and started to wave (as if in goodbye) to me. I Stared at the sight for as long as five minutes(?).
After this period of time the cloud and the figures slowly dissolved into the darkness, and again the whole room was in total darkness. I got up and switch on the light. I felt a very strange feeling of happiness (although I was in grief) and my body was very light> I did not know by then what the vision as all about. Then I began to look for a meaning or message in what I saw.
After a while I checked my timepiece again. It was 4:30, and in a few more seconds my alarm clock (which was set on this time) went off.
Was this experience
difficult to express in words?
No
Did you ONLY sense
an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing,
feeling or smelling them?
No
Did you hear the
deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?
No
Did you feel a
touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?
No
Did you see the
deceased?
She was very well, no
sign of illness. She was smiling a bit.
How
clearly did the deceased appear?
Somewhat transparent
How
much of the deceased did you see?
The face
Did
the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?
No. She was at that
age that I always picture her to be - about mid 40. This was the picture we
placed near her coffin during the wake and the funeral.
How
healthy did the deceased appear to be?
Her picture of being
weak and sickly were not noticeable. In fact she appeared very healthy.
Is
there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
No. She had no mounted
picture in the room
Did you smell a
distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?
No
How long did the
experience last?
For about five
minutes.
Was the beginning
and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
Both end and
beginning of the experience were gradual
Could you sense the
emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
I can sensed mixed
emotions. She appeared happy outwardly but I can sense that there was something
she would like to tell me.
Did the deceased
give you information you did not previously know?
Yes. But not in
this experience. It was from the experiences of my son-in-law. She indicated (by
scratching his foot in his dream) that their was something in the foot of her
bed. Surely, at the foot of the bed, under the mattress, statements of bank
deposits (in huge amounts) in my my and those of our son and daughter.
Likewise, she made
available to my son-in-law the document need for the enrollment of her grandson.
My son-in-law previously asked her help to locate the document (which could not
be located before).
How do you
currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
It was real (in the higher realm of existence) because I believe it was a case
of a spirit (of the dead) communicating with another spirit (of the living).
Physically
(scientifically), there is NO explanation for this.
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
No
Describe in detail
your feelings/emotions during the experience:
I felt warm, very
light, and happy.
Was there any
emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
I can control my
emotions. I do not cry often.
What was the best
and worst part of your experience?
No worst part, except I
started to wept when the vision disappeared.
Has your life
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Describe:
I become less
aware of people surrounding me because concern about their feelings, especially
their problems. I become indifferent to many things. I AM NOT AFRAID OF DEATH.
Did you have
any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No
Did the experience
give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God,
etc.? Yes We grieve because of separation; we must be happy for the
departed because she is happy with her Creator.
Death Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a
compact?
No
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
Yes
The experience of my son-in-law (see explanations above)
What emotions did
you feel during the experience?
Still grieving but can
control my emotions now.
Was the experience
witnessed or experienced by others?
No
Did you have any
sense of altered space or time?
Yes
I could not tell
whether it was daytime of nighttime.
Did you have a
sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
I knew instantly
that I should not cry during that time because my wife was with a perfect
company.
Did you become
aware of future events?
No
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?
Yes
When I was a kid I
felt that I dreamt of traveling into far away places which became familiar to me
later on.
Did you experience
a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
In my deepest grief
I could physically feel my body sometimes. I did not also care whether my body
was there or not. At time I forgot to breathe.
Did you meet or see
any other beings other than the deceased?
Yes
One time (in the
past, when I was seriously ill) I saw my father inside a jeepney. The jeepney
stopped and waited for me. I did not take the ride.
Did you see a
light?
Yes
My wife (in the
above explanations) was surrounded by a bright light. In the still pictures that
we took several blobs of light were seen hovering above the alter during her
funeral.
Did any part of
your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described
above?
Yes
I could not tell the
exact location but I am sure they were outside of the location I was in during
those times.
Have you shared
this experience with others?
Yes
They believed because they (my son and daughter and their spouses) were also
waiting for signs from their mom.
Have you shared
this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?
No
Is there anything
else you would like to add regarding your experience?
I want to have a
face-to-face contact with my departed wife.
Were there any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did you ever in
your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other
spiritual event?
Uncertain
Sometimes I felt
floating in the air. Many times I felt strange emotions of being very happy for
no reasons at all.
Did the questions
asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes
It was a very recent
experience. (I want it repeated)
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