Jennifer L's ADC
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Experience description:

I don't know if this would be classified as an OBE or more of a lucid dream. but I felt that I truly connected with my little brothers spirit for a moment. spirit to spirit.  He passed away suddenly last year in his sleep at the age of 29.  The loss has been tremendous and I've been struggling to deal with the loss of him.  I had a dream I was with my family just sitting around chatting.  Both my little brothers were there, including the one that passed the year before, he was on my right side.  I'm not sure where we were, I didn't recognize the surroundings but it was like a family gathering with all of us around. just like the good old days before he passed.  Suddenly in this dream it was like I snapped out of the dream. I took full conscious awareness of my surroundings and told myself that this is just a dream and that in real life my brother had passed away. quickly I knew I had only a moment with him and that I had to make this quick.  All I could think to do was hug him. I hugged him so tight.  I felt his arms hug me back, just like we used to every time we saw each other. it felt so real and I was very conscience and fully aware that I was dreaming and perhaps that my spirit was with my little brother for this moment for real, I felt so much love, and I knew I had to hurry so I just hugged him.  It's like my mom and everyone else that was there kind of froze or faded out, it was just me and my bro for a moment and after we hugged for maybe 5 seconds I woke up in bed. I had the strangest sensation that I had given him a real hug. I know many would call that a lucid dream but I believe that somehow I actually connected with his spirit if even for a moment.  The weirdest thing was a couple weeks ago I again took control of a dream where I just saw him looking down on something, it looked as if he was watching a movie.  he had a relaxed expression on his face. And he was nowhere in particular.  just suspended just there in front of me. he looked content. not sad or upset.  he was leaning over resting his head on his hand. if I had to describe it, it really looked like he was just watching a movie or something. so vividly, I just saw him there, I approached him. and I didn't even walk. it was as though I floated toward him or even just though of going to him and boom I was there! .and I put my arm around his shoulder as he watched. and I telepathically asked 'what are you watching there bro?' And as I asked that question I was turning to see what he was looking at, almost in slow motion. and before I could see what he was looking down on. and as quickly as I had finished asking him what he was watching. I woke up.  Right away I knew for a fact he was watching down on us. on my family. watching the story of our lives just like in a movie. I just knew right away that is what he was watching, I just felt it as I started to wake up. I felt extreme happiness but wanted so bad to go back into the dream but I just couldn't.  I am trying to have more of these experiences so maybe I can connect with him for longer.  Both times he didn't say anything and they were brief visitations. perhaps because he's a new spirit so he doesn't have the energy to project himself for long.  It was so amazing to hug him again and this experience made me believe that I will see him again one day!!  I truly believe that I left my body these two times and connected spiritually with him. And it changed how I see life now.
   

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?    Extremely high, like right now. I was absolutely fully conscience and aware

           
Was the experience dream like in any way? At first it was but quickly it became more real than real life. if that makes sense.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?         Yes    I felt myself float over to him and hug him.  It was like a light switch flicked. it's hard to explain.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?           Extremely happy, so loved and I felt he had total understanding of every thought I wanted him to know about. and that he's watching down on us now definitely

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           No I don't recall hearing anything except my own thoughts which seemed to have been projected out somehow.  almost like my thoughts were no longer private and that anyone around could hear what I was thinking

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?           No     

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes           My deceased brother

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?  Yes    It just felt like everything was so intense and so vividly real.  more real than reality. it's hard to explain but it felt like if I wanted to go to someone I would just think it and boom I was there.  I didn't have to put any effort into It, I felt free, like not weighed down by gravity. it's hard to explain

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?           Yes    Time didn't matter. to me it seemed like it happened so fast but at the time it was like time didn't exist

Did you become aware of future events?      Yes    I did before this experience as a child.  I was badly electrocuted and should have died as doctors could not find an exit wound and it was a shopping malls voltage that surged through my little body. Since then I've been very sensitive and intuitive.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?     Uncertain     I had no say in the matter but when it happened I knew somehow that I had to make it very quick.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?        Yes    As stated above I was badly electrocuted as a child and I believe that is why I'm sensitive to things.  I have extreme sensitivity with all my senses all the time which has been annoying because everything always seems so loud, I can't go to movie theaters because I get headaches from how loud it is etc.  My eyes are very sensitive and my smell is very sensitive too.  I don't like it.  I also feel radiation if that makes sense. cell phones, cordless phone and microwaves are the worst.  I can feel the radiation if that makes any sense.  It's kind of like a zap around the body or an energy or kind of like static all around.  again it's hard to describe especially in writing.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?         Yes    I truly believe that my spirit left my body and connected with my brother. I was writing on his memorial wall how much I missed his smiles and his hugs and then this dream made me feel that he was saying there would be more hugs and this is not the end.  No words were spoken but it's like you just know.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?    I am more spiritual now. I am trying to induce an OBE through medication.  I believe I will be able to do this with practice.

Have you shared this experience with others?           Yes    Only close family and my best friend.  I know things like this are hard to believe for most people.

What emotions did you experience following your experience? Sadness that I woke up and that it ended so quickly but immediately I felt happiness that I was able to connect with my little brother again.  I miss him every single day.

What was the best and worst part of your experience? Best part was seeing my little brother again and the worst part was not having enough time.