Also, tonight as I was dialing the phone to call my friend, I felt a light tapping on the right side of my head. It was hard enough for me to call my husband downstairs to take a couple of photos of me. At my 30th birthday party on 10/19/02 almost all of the pictures of me have very visible orbs in them. I know he was here with me.

I also had a dream 2 weeks before my birthday that my dad was in my aunt's kitchen with me and my mom, who was divorced from him. He was healthier and happy. He was running his hand over an open flame, and when I told him to stop for fear that he'd burn himself, he turned to us and said "Nothing can hurt me because I'm Really not here." With that I just knew he was telling me that he was no longer in pain and that he was happier than he's ever been.

             Degree of bereavement for deceased immediately prior to the experience (choose
            best response):              

No sadness and/or grief feelings

            Degree of alertness immediately prior to experience (choose best response):          
           

Fully alert

Have you had multiple experiences?  

Yes  ,  2

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?

No  

Did you ONLY sense an awareness or presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? 

No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?           

No comment ,           tapped on the right side of my head.

Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?  

unfamiliar. He was not a real affectionate person

Was anything communicated by the touch? 

no

Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?             

no

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?     

No

How long did the experience last?       

3 seconds

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?        

sudden A light tap, tap, tap on the top right side of my head

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          

Yes    good.  just wanting to get my attention i guess

Your beliefs immediately prior to the experience regarding your fear of death.                      

Moderately fearful

Your beliefs currently regarding your fear of death.

Slightly fearful

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          

Experience was definitely real 

Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:         

Because I know he felt guilty when he died about not being there for us in our life.  He apologized on many occasions to us. I feel that he's closer to me now more than ever and wants to let me know. He also told me on several occasions that I was his favorite.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  

Uncertain     the dream was obviously dreamlike. The tapping was not.

What did you feel (while awake) immediately prior to your experience?                      Confused    

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           scared

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          

Yes    It made me happy to know he's watching over me now kind of like an angel

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     

To see my dad healthy and happy was great. To know that I'll never get to have a good living relationship with him makes me sad.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?   If Yes or Uncertain, describe how.  (For example:  Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?)               No      It's made me feel more love for the people who are still in my life.

What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have?             
Life-changing,  Fear,   Joy    

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?              

Yes     I fully believe that there is a way to communicate with loved ones after they have gone.  And there is a way to get closure to a situation that you felt unsettled about.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            

Yes    It made me have a higher understanding of life and how it never REALLY ends. 

It's also shown me that people can be happier after death than when they were alive.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  confusion.  although, the dream I had made me feel at ease

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     supportive.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?  

No    

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?             No    

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?        

No    

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?          

No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  

Yes