DAD:  The night I learned of his passing, on July 14,2011 I cried so hard in my bedroom.  My bedroom door slammed shut.  There was no storm or wind that could have caused this. Since that time to the present, I had dreams of him. Trying to explain to him (as I did when he was alive) how to use my remote.  Another time was I was sitting in the very back of a van or a jeep.  No one would sit with me.  But he climbed in and sat beside me.  Every now and then I would see a license plate on a car with his initials "FMF."  When I could not find my attorney ID, I remember thinking "Dad please help me," as I retraced my steps. When I gave up, as I crossed the street back to the Courthouse, I looked down and saw it on the crosswalk in the middle of the street. 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?     No  

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? Yes 

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?   No                                

Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   no

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?   No                   

Did you see the deceased?   No    pretty much the same                  

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?    No                

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?   No    

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?   no

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?    Experience was probably real    I never dreamed about them before.

Was the experience dream like in any way?    Yes   

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?    No   

What was the best and worst part of your experience?    Best:  Seeing them again.  Worst:  waking up.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?    No        

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?    Yes    That I am not alone and am loved.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?    Yes    That our loved ones live on in some other way.  And still care.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   No

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?    No   

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?       No   

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?        No   

Did you become aware of future events?           No   

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     No   

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?    No   

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?    No   

Did you see a light?    No   

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?   No   

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes    My Mom wonders why she doesn't

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?    No   

Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?    I want to be able to communicate with them while I am awake.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?    No   

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   No   

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      No