EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION

I have written previously about doorbells ringing in my house after My Love died. I am convinced that he rings the back (working) bell to say hello.  But when I am in dire need of help and guidance, he will ring the front (Broken) door bell as to convince the skeptic in me Yes I am really here and am watching over you and our son. 

Brandon was diagnosed with Autism the Summer of 2010, 6 months after Paul's death.  Being human I often wonder if He would agree with my parenting since all this came about.  Asperger's syndrome causes swings in moods, combined with teenage angst and the death of his father at age 11. It has been difficult to say the least. 

I saw a psychic for the 2nd time when Brandon and I were vacationing in Shenandoah Valley.  Visiting the caverns for the most part we decided to hit the city of Harrisburg VA. While taking the walking tour of historic Harrisburg I began to cut through a street to get to the other part of the walking tour.

Realizing that I should go the other way I came across a palm reader.  I passed with no intention of going inside yet I came back and thought what the heck its 10 bucks for entertainment purposes.  The door was locked and I began to leave when she answered the door. 

I can reason the most of what she said could be said to anyone, yet for the most part if was quite a good fit for my personality and questions that rang through my mind at the time. 

She said that I had abilities too.  Though I get feelings/intuitions I scoffed this off, especially when she spoke of a third eye. Not actually knowing about this 3rd eye I said what do you mean?  She got angry and said "You know what I mean!" 

Again with logic kicking in I merely listened to her trying not to give clues. She asked if I ever feel Paul's presence.  I admitted that I did and asked if tingling fingertips was part of that sensation.  She said yes and asked if I felt him there now.  I said yes and held my hands out and my fingertips were indeed tingling at that time. 

I had been worrying excessively about my sons mood swings, wondering if I were doing all that I could as a parent, If Paul would agree with what I was doing, trying to raise our child alone.  You see Brandon was diagnosed with Attention Deficit for most of his school years.  Paul found this diagnosis difficult to accept thinking of his nephew that was hyper and that Brandon did not act as his nephew did while Paul was helping to raise him. 

The psychic told he without me asking that Paul was here and said "I was doing fine with Brandon but to spend more time with his and watch for his depression."  One day later Brandon opened up to me (again this is while we were in a motel room on vacation) and admitted that the cuts he had shown me before were done by himself to feel something.   

I had known something was deeply wrong with our son but needed some type of proof that it was not my imagination, or just being an overly protective mom.

here Paul told me to watch for depression just a day before I had proof that something indeed was seriously wrong. 

Now on to the present time, two weeks later... 

My neighbor Jimmy is in the process of dying.  I found out 6 days ago that he had 2 days to live.  Since that time I have been asking the great unknown, the divine above, Lord, Jesus what ever your beliefs are to Please help Jimmy see some of heaven so that he would not fear death. 

I also have been asking Paul daily to please help Jimmy into heaven so that he would not be so scared of the unknown.  Also insisting that he be there to greet him when Jimmy does finally go to heaven. 

The front broken doorbell has been ringing off the hook since I have asked for help for Jimmy.  Also asking for strength for Mary his soon to be widow.  I feel his presence often this past week.   

Just moments ago I was speaking to my sister asking in simple terms what the third eye is.   While speaking to my sister, I felt something wrap around my body as though it were a protective ? Pouch an ? aura of yellow and orange.

Being mid sentence talking to Sue I confessed this. 

I do not know what that was but the feeling was protection from Paul.  Last night as I lay on the couch totally relaxed despite the fact that I was waiting for Jimmy to die. I began to feel a numbing sensation for my whole body, it began to feel heavy as though ? something was about to happen.  This scared me as I thought it might be a physical thing, and I could not be in ill health at this point as so many people were relying on me.  I shook it off but, was I about to have an OBE?  Would I have had one if I not feared it? 

Perhaps next time if there is one I will just remain relaxed and roll with it. 

I know that Paul is near.  He know that I Love and Miss him as always, but feels some responsibility still for my son and I.  Knowing he is here to protect us and is our spirit guide by choice. 

My Logic and Spiritual self only keeps me from growing the way I was meant to.

There is more to life and death as we know it.  I am convinced of this but only need to allow my spirituality to grow instead of questioning it.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  Uncertain

Feeling that he is around yet being a skeptic wanting proof.  trying to trust my senses instead of the show me, prove it logic.

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

I could feel my fingers tingle when he was near.  I also felt as if he wrapped a yellow orange protection of Love around me in my time of need.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   familiar I have sensed this many times since his death.

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  Unfortunately I have not felt his touch yet.  Just a overwhelming sense that he is near.  Startlingly enough to make me turn my head or walk to where I sense him.

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  no

Did you see the deceased?         No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      Yes

            What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?           I have often smelled his scent.  I have also smelled honeysuckle when none was blooming.  A favorite fragrance of mine.

            Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?     His cologne, his smell or honeysuckle

            Was anything communicated by the smell?   that he was near.

            Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?        no

How long did the experience last?        moments, long enough for me to question my sanity.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         sudden

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

Protective, loving, caring, missing me as I missed him.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  When experiencing these sensations.  I am now beginning to realize that he is trying to communicate the truth in what I am reading, thinking or saying like "Bingo!" that is correct!

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           It has happened over and over trying to get it though my dense logical thinking that not all is a hear feel touch and see absolute way of thinking.  It is trusting an inner part of who we are, the instinct that we mistrust more than trust.  It is allowing ourselves to believe  what we only feel as truth.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

solid evidence even a skeptic can understand.       

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           the doorbell rings as I am in a cross road of emotions.  In the beginning it was only in severe grief.  Then later perhaps a year and a half in it was more of a way to go!  As I began to try to live the New Normal that was expected of me.  Trying to life life to the fullest.  Going to concerts museums and traveling.  Not to escape grief but to LIVE!

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

Being more certain as this life unfolds before me that I can go on without the Love Of My Life.  And that he is watching applauding me as I grow into the person I was meant to be.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      knowing that he is here with me but worst is that he is not physically here to life our golden years.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:            Yes I have learned to trust that there is a superior being out there guiding me.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I believe that those that have passed before us continue to affect our lives.  In ways that we do not understand but should try to trust.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     Just that there is so much more not known by mere mortals.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes People have heard the doorbell of course but unless they know it is broken think nothing of it.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            that I was indeed taking my life in the right direction.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           Yes

Many have heard the doorbell ring with no one there.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain

strange occurrence before a possible OBE

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Uncertain

I know that there is more out there than meets the eye.  A third eye of knowledge is necessary which I have not yet learned to use.

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes  

I have always had a feeling about things or people.  I need to trust that gut instinct and not question it.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

Perhaps had I not feared it.  It might have happened last night.

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?          Uncertain

Cannot be certain that this is my husband having both parents, sister and brother in law die before and after Paul.  But I feel it to be him.

Did you see a light?           Uncertain

More felt a light surrounding me an orange yellow ?aura? protecting me.

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            Yes

many possible ADC's else where but mostly provable in the home where we lived happily for 10 years.

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     I tend only to relate the doorbell experience with those who are equally spiritual.  Others would be skeptical or Christians would think it the devil.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

this experience? no

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       There is so much out there that we do not know about.  We need to trust out instincts and be guided by Love first and foremost.  Not be cynics and to know that there is good bad in everyone and to accept this as part of life.  We do need to spend more time on the here and now and enjoy today without thinking or worrying about thinking about yesterday or tomorrow.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            Yes

on prozac-like medication since fathers death 1/20/09

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Uncertain 

do not actually understand the question but am sure it is answered in the above Q&A.

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Uncertain 

Think that I scared myself out of an O.B.E last night.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    none

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION

This is one of the strangest experiences I have come across though not the usual "signs" that I get such as the door bell ringing with no one there.  I came home after a 10 day trip to Niagara falls with my sister-in-law and son.  Several months ago my son had knocked down the towel rack pulling on it.  Thankfully it was a simple job the screws had come loose.  A simple fast repair.  However I left a vest on the rack and now it was on there permanently until I unscrewed it again.  I had not done so, when I left for vacation it was on the towel rack as it had been for 2 months...When I came home, it was on the floor. No one would have had any reason to come into my home and unscrew the towel rack to get the vest off.  The towel rack was sturdy and not loose.  Just kind of strange to come home to.  I had been missing hubby during this trip and wished for a sign from him that perhaps he was with me and able to view the beauty of Niagara Falls with me through my eyes.  Was this a sign?  I do not know but I do know that it is one of the strangest occurrences though simple.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            Uncertain

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    But he was always one to fix things around the house.  Missing him as of late and tired of doing all the repairs that he would have done while alive.

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        not so much an experience as a happening.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         NA

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           This is not the normal wonder what that was kind of thing, it was definate and concrete as if to let me know YES I AM here and still looking out for you.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

What did you feel (while awake) immediately prior to your experience?            Relaxed                           

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Hmm that is strange...Asked his sister to check it out, she also thought it was strange.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

Yes that Hubby is still here looking out for me.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      As with others knowing that he is still around keeping an eye on me and our son.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:      as in above responses

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     Many experiences since his death little signs.  And Yes I do believe that there is some great big thing that is outside our present knowledge.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Uncertain      Just as stated above the usual signs can be explained away but this was unusual.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            wonder and amazement at the possibility that such a thing COULD occur.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           Yes

I pointed out the oddity of the experience

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

Only that since his death and the many little signs that I have had I know that there is life after death.  I only hope that I am not keeping him here on this earth that he may go on to do his work as the angel I know that he has become.

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

Just a sense on knowing the good and bad in people.  I have always been some what intuitive and it has strengthened with occurrences since his death.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     only those who may be open to such occurrences.  Others think that it is nonsense but I know what I know, have experienced what I have and know it to be true.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       How can such a thing happen?

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

On anti depressants for 2 years.  Should have no effect.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No 

But I was born at 5 months in 1960 before many of the life saving knowledge of a premature birth were known.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes