Hali K's
ADC
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To preface this experience, I must say that I met my soul companion (whatever you choose to call it) when I was 24 and he was 17. We were very close- romantically, psychically, physically, etc. He died in 1998 but I was unaware of his death until 2005 when I had a series of very surreal and unusual "dreams" that told me of his passing. I confirmed his death with his mother a few months later.
The experience:
I was asleep and aware I was "dreaming." It was a normal dream until my soul companion suddenly appeared. We hugged and the instant we embraced I felt the most unconditional, all-encompassing love and acceptance I've ever felt in my life. I had the thought, "This is what it feels like to die." I was very happy and "in the moment." I didn't want to go back, wherever back was. But I knew this is where I belonged. I had no memory of my current life or people in it (I have a husband -and a daughter who was 2 at the time). I felt like no matter what I did, or what I will do in my current life on earth that it was all okay and I was forgiven and loved so immensely that I could do no wrong. I felt beautiful and loved and perfect and forgiven. It was so intense and more real than any feeling I've ever had in 43 years on this earth. The feeling is hard to explain in words alone. I kept thinking that I did not want to return to my current life. I wanted to stay where I was and feel these intense emotions.
When I woke from this
experience, which seemed like immediately after, I realized it was April 14,
which is my soul companions birthday.
At the time of
your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
No
Was the
experience difficult to express in words?
Yes The experience
was based on emotion and feeling and it was so intense and so REAL that it is
hard to explain in human words. There are no words to describe this. The words I
use don't even come close.
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness?
More
consciousness and alertness than normal The entire time after we embraced
It was so real and felt so intense that I have never felt that while on earth.
When I woke I tried to recreate it but nothing compared. I felt a little
depressed for days after this experience. I wanted to feel that intensity again.
It was the one experience that felt REAL in all my life.
Please compare
your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
More real.
Please compare
your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
I was unaware of
sounds with my physical ears. I only felt emotions.
Did you see or
hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your
consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
No
What emotions
did you feel during the experience?
unconditional and
intense LOVE, acceptance, forgiveness
Did you pass
into or through a tunnel?
No
Did you see an
unearthly light?
No
Did you seem to
encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable
voice?
No
Did you
encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
Yes I saw my soul
companion (whom I met when I was 24). He had died in 1998 and I was unaware of
this until a series of dreams in 2005 that told me. I confirmed his death with
his mother months later. And later found his obituary from 1998 in library
archives.
Did you become
aware of past events in your life during your experience?
No
Did you seem to
enter some other, unearthly world?
No
Did
time seem to speed up or slow down?
No
Did you
suddenly seem to understand everything?
No
Did you reach a
boundary or limiting physical structure?
Uncertain We were
on a boat by a dock surrounded by water.
Did you come to
a border or point of no return?
No
Did scenes from
the future come to you?
No
Did you have a
sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?
No
Discuss any
changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:
Large changes in my
life It has made me appreciate the experience and that I was lucky enough to
not "die" and still get to feel this intense love, acceptance, forgiveness.
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
Yes I don't believe
in the afterlife, I KNOW it's real. I know it exists.
Do you have any
psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did
not have before the experience?
Uncertain I've
always had a slight inclination towards "non-ordinary" gifts. After I confirmed
his death in 2005 my 'gifts' got a lot stronger and I experienced a great deal
more synchronicity and "knowing" in life. It's like we are still attached even
after his death.
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes Maybe a few
days. I only shared the experience with few close friends who I knew would
understand and not judge me or think I was crazy or "it was just a dream"
response. They were awed by the experience. I don't know if they were
influenced.
Did you have
any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes I read a lot
about NDE around 2000-2002 (which was about 10 years prior to the experience). I
don't know if it affected the experience. I know when it was happening I
thought, "This is what it feels like to die," and I never felt happier in my
life. I understood why NDE'ers don't want to come back when they experience
this. I just remember the next day thinking, "I have been given a gift." And it
changed me for the better.
What did you
believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real I still thought about it every day. I tried to
recreate it, thinking that maybe it was just a really vivid dream. I couldn't
recreate it. It was real. It was hard to wrap my mind around it but I knew it
happened and I knew I experienced it. It was not a vivid dream. I was so happy
that my soul companion cares enough about me to give me this gift.
What do you
believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was
definitely real It was a gift. I don't know why it happened to me
through "dream state." I know it was real. More real than me sitting here typing
these words on the computer.