Gurm B's NELE
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This is more about Near Death Awareness than a Near Death Experience, so I hope
no one minds me posting a thread here as I'm not quite sure which part of the
forum it would fit in. These events took place during the final days of my
mother’s life and have provide me with further confirmation that there is more
to this world than just the physical. I have read about NDE’s and Near Death
Awareness for many years but to be with someone who was experiencing Near Death
Awareness over a period of nine-days brought these accounts to life.
To
set the context, my mother was 79 years old and a practicing Sikh for over 30
years. She also followed a spiritual saint from Northern India called ‘Maharaji
Raja Sahib’ who we refer to as ‘Maharaji’ as a sign of respect (he passed away
in India in 1939). She had emigrated from India to the United Kingdom in 1960
with my father. My father passed away in 1984 and she was living with my younger
brother whilst we lived just five minutes’ drive away.
The events started on Sunday July 23rd 2017 when my mother was rushed into A&E
at the local Infirmary due to excruciating pain. It was found that her thoracic
aortic aneurysm had grown from 6.5cm from 9.5cm within the space of about four
weeks. The A&E consultant said that there was a contained leak within the
aneurysm and that the aneurysm could rupture within the coming week or even
earlier.
On
Tuesday 25th July 2017, she was in severe pain at around 20:00 when I went to
visit her. When I spoke to her she said that she had heard her mother calling
her earlier and said 'Why is she calling me – has she come to collect me?’ – her
mother had died in India in 1955.
We
took her up to her bed and from this point to her passing away, she was never to
leave her bed again.
On
Thursday 27th July 2017 in the afternoon she said to my wife that the 'game is
finished on Saturday' and that Maharaji would be back on Saturday to collect
her. At around 17:00, she asked to be sat up, asked for her head scarf and said
her prayers for thirty minutes and then lay down again. Later in the evening she
started saying her goodbyes to everyone.
On
Friday 28th July 2017 at around 06:30, she started tugging on her bed sheet and
kept asking for a clean white sheet.
On
Saturday 29th July 2017 in the afternoon she said ‘that they had come for her.’
One of my aunts who was with her at the time asked her 'why are you in a
hurry?'. My mother then said
‘they're going back now’. She said also she saw my father in the group that had
come to collect her. Later in the evening she kept saying that she'd been asking
to go since the morning but why was it taking so long?
On
Sunday 30th July 2017 in the afternoon she said she was ‘happy everything was
done’.
On
Monday July 31st 2017 morning at about 07:00 I was talking to her and at one
point she looked straight passed my left shoulder and said 'Oh, Maharaji - I
didn't see you there'. She then asked them for a suit and raised her hand out as
if grabbing something. After this she started saying it was time she went.
After talking to one my aunts who is a retired nurse, we said to my mother that
she didn't have to worry about anyone here and that she had finished everything
she needed to. At around 9pm my mother started getting quite agitated and asking
‘Why are they taking so long?’ and also kept saying ‘Let’s go, let’s go’.
On
Tuesday August 1st 2017 at around 02:00 she asked for the ambulance to be called
as she was ready to go in it and asked me where my wife was and said to ‘tell
her to come here as she wasn't well and was ready to go in the ambulance’.
At
around 04:00 my mother put her hands in the prayer position and looked up
towards the ceiling and then around the room as if acknowledging something that
neither my sister nor I could see. After this my mother slipped further
downwards during the day and started to become less responsive.
On
Thursday 3rd August 2017 I was preparing some food at around 15:00 I mentioned
to my sister that it felt like my mother was wandering around the house even
though she was still in bed upstairs and hardly responding to us or any
stimulus.
I
had to go out for a couple of hours at 16:30 and came back at 18:30 to a strange
and unsettling atmosphere in the house – I can only describe it as ‘heavy’ and
‘claustrophobic’ with an eerie unsettling quietness – as if there was something
waiting to happen. It was like the house had become enclosed in a bubble and no
sounds from the outside could be heard – no birds, passing cars or dogs barking.
The house was usually busy till about 8pm with extended family members visiting
but everyone that day had left by the time I got back and there were only a few
of us in the house.
My
mother took her last breath at 22:30 on that day.
This is the best way I could think of writing the events up, so apologies for
them being a set of factual statements rather than prose.
Was this experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
How long did the experience last?
Over a period of nine
days.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
Gradual with a sudden ending.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
It was experienced by multiple people over this
period of time.
Describe in detail
your feelings/emotions during the experience:
My feelings were mixed - obviously sadness at watching a parent dying and
equally confusion around what they were experiencing and seeing that which the
rest of us could not.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?
No
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
The worst part was watching someone dying and the best would be the confirmation
of what i had read about for years - that there is a form of existence after
physical death.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of
your experience?
Yes
Describe:
It has greatly
affected my relationships as I have become less interested in the triviality of
life (which I accept is a subjective experience), so so relationships have been
left withering. A lot of my day to day life is spent going over the experience
and trying to understand the bigger picture behind it.