I lost my father 6 months ago after a long illness, he passed because of sepsis for a kidney infection.

After his death for the first two months I never dreamed of him.....total void.

I was grieving yet I could go on with my everyday life though that was hard.

One day, precisely after 4 months from his death, something happened, one morning as I was still dozing I heard my name called and as I was still sleeping I found myself in a very beautiful avenue surrounded with trees, and at the end of it I saw my father approaching me and he was enveloped by so intense and wonderful a light that in one second I found myself all engulfed by my father's warmth and his perfume.

He was much younger and without the sufferings that had accompanied him in his last months, and we spoke without resorting to words but just with our thought if I may say so, and I say to him that I miss him very much and that I feel very sick because of his death and he replied he knew very well how I felt but said that I had been very clever and that I still was clever..... he repeats this several times until I ask him how this encounter, that I felt wasn't a dream, was possible.

He made me understand I had to thank God to have allowed this..... I was crying at this point, I felt I could be about to wake and I realized I was drenching my pillow with tears until my husband shook me to take me to a full wake condition.

In the following weeks and months I kept dreaming my father but I can tell these latter are dreams ..... they are different from that meeting at the end of July, I was so strongly aware of myself, of him and of our dialogue , which is something that in normal dreams is kept into a state of confusion and without a clear pattern..... it wasn't a NDE however it was something that went beyond our reality, now I am certain that he is living in another mode ["modo", but may have meant: "mondo", world] and not all ends with physical death.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? No

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? always

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? normal

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. normal

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. normal

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? My husband was calling me

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Immense joy and longing at once

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? no

Did you see an unearthly light? Nice, warm, wonderful

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? my father

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? no

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? my father

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? no

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Very beautiful with no space or time, an avenue with green trees

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? there was no time

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? no

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? no

Did you come to a border or point of no return? no

Did scenes from the future come to you? no

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? I feel I am serene because of what I perceived

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? I understood it by the dialogue we had

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? don't know

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? do't know

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? No

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? No

What occurred during your experience included: Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. Wasn't much a believer.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?

I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

My experience directly resulted in: Moderate changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? I believe in life after death

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? no

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? love above anything else

Have you ever shared this experience with others? yes, immediately

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? books

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: perception was clear and certain

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? no

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? I pray more often

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? no

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? no

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? to keep studying this phenomenon