The second time was 10 days later when we were staying at my elder daughter's home in England. This time I saw my son come into the room with a beautiful smile on his face and he said "Dad ba-hebak" Dad I love you, one of the few expressions he knew in Arabic, my maternal tongue.  He had asked me to teach him the phrase a few weeks before his death, I answered him back and then the image disappeared and I was in a dark room again.

All the times since then, I can see his face up at the ceiling and as he comes closer to me and I put my arms out to hold him I am wide awake and the image disappears, and I call out please stay, to no avail, I find these incidents very frustrating in their shortness.

Before his death we talked about his approaching death very openly, and had read  with him a number of books on the after life.  He, his mother and I agreed that we shall all be in contact for the rest of our time on this side, and on the other side, For a number of years I felt his presence all the time first thing in the morning and last thing at night, and right through the day, but slowly i began to feel he was less and less present, I felt he was moving to another plane.

He has been our guardian angel, whenever we ask for his help he always does, in so many cases, absolutely incredible things.  For example, I had lost my keys for three days. I looked day and night everywhere I could think of.  Finally I said to Joe, "please help me." The next time I went to the WC there were the keys next to the wash hand basin. It was mind blowing, this has happened so often in so many different ways, that we can't believe it is coincidental any more.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:   As described already Joe's voice came loud and clear in my half waking and sleeping state, but during the day its in my head, I talk to him all the time, its a two way conversation, but its telepathic on the whole.

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  As before

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           Identical

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

In the half waking State I feel his touch.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   Very familiar

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  Love

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

My son lost all his hair when in treatment five or six times, in the last six months when he decided that he wanted no further treatment as his doctors had informed him that all that was possible had been tried.  His hair and beard grew, and at the time of his death it covered finely his face and face, and of course he was crippled and could not walk, when he appeared to me his hair and beard were long and wild, and he was playing the clown, and pulling faces.  And he was no longer crippled.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            At the beginning solid and I could see all his body, but when latter I saw him floating above me in bed, I could only see his head, shoulders and arms, they seemed solid yet incorporeal.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       See above

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       He appeared at his age of 20

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            Perfect health

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No

How long did the experience last?        seconds

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         sudden

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes, Joy, Peace

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:          Because its alive in me, and more real than life itself

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Enormous Joy

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

Enormous peace from my grief, and grateful to the Lord and his angels that I had the opportunity to see my beloved again.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Joy of seeing my boy, the worst was the fleeting period of the experience

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

            Describe:      My life has completely changed not only due to my experiences but especially in the period of watching my son suffer and die in my arms. The pain was the greatest I have felt, and I have undergone my share of physical and mental agony.  But the moment of death of Joe was unlike anything I have felt, and the need to have an answer to the eternal question, "Why him?" We came to understand that God had put an angel in our midst, and had taken him back. The reasons are not for us to understand, and that the separation is very temporary. During his illness and for a long time after I prayed all the time that the Lord take me instead of him, he deserved to experience life, I had my share of life.  But Joe said to me so often, "dad your time has not come, you have still a lot to do", you still have Mummy, my sisters and their children to look after". I have come to accept this, and live my life accordingly. Faith has become central in our life.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

It has returned me back to my faith, and made it remarkable

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes, Reinforced my faith in Eternal life, and our spirit is from God and a part of God.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Frustration and anger that it ended, and that its always so fleeting, But always great gratitude that it happens.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

With my wife who had great faith and capacity for love, and my daughters, and for the past year with members of our Church community. Reactions have always been always completely positive.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       My son was truly an amazing person, he was the only person I knew that wanted nothing for himself, never hated anyone or coveted anything. After his death we found out from his many friends what he meant to them, and what a strong moral force he was in their lives, even when he was dying, it was him that they came to for advice and help.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            Uncertain, I am and have been under cardiac treatment.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes